LIFE SUCKS

SOCIETY IS A FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT

Today i went out to a movie and lunch with a few of my father's friends. We saw Three Stooges which was awesome :) afterward we went to get lunch at Hooters. This being the first time I've ever been to a Hooters. One of my father's best friends who i hadn't seen in a few years. he was asking me about jobs and going to school and such. Then he told me his daughter who is my age and goes to my college. She has a job and she comes to him every week asking for 20$ or more money. he thinks she goes through 500$ a month plus all the money she gets from working. He then states that its not so horrible and that shes a good kid. Now, now this is where i felt like a fucking piece of shit. I do not have a job, have been applying everyplace in every corner of my city. And top of this. My mom hasn't given me any money and I've been over to her house every work helping her do yard work and take care of the chickens and turkeys. but then she gives my sister money just for coming over and visiting. she has a job wtf?! My dad hasn't given me anything either. so here I am trying to find job on websites but you have to pay for them? It isn't enough that i don't have a job already? now i have to pay to try and get a job I'm probably not going to get anyway? Fuck this. I drive 30 miles out of town and back twice a week to go to school. I was denied financial aide also. then i drive 30 mins to get to my Mom's house to do work and hope shell help me out a little. then drive another 30 mins to see my friends and girlfriend. All locations of which are in complete opposite directions. So ive had to go through my 1000$ from my birthday and graduation to pay for gas. now i only have 250$ to my name and i need medicine. i cant fucking sleep at night. It's like everyone thinks its so fucking to find a job. well its not when your 18 white and have next to none experience. I fucking hate society. All i see is all the fucking niggers on welfare cuz they have 7 kids and they all get financial aide and spend it on malt liquor and they damn car stereo. And all that money comes from every hard working american while they sit and waste YOUR hard earned money. I hate this so much it feels like there is some unearthly force preventing me from getting anywhere in life. I just feel like blowing my brains out that way i wont have to deal with the reality of the way things are. Idk i just needed to vent