LIFE SUCKS

13 years of grief

Hello everyone !

After reading so much of your stories, i decided i have to share mine. Just like everybody, i can speak about it for hours, but i will keep it short:

I'am just turning 25, living in the poor European country named Hungary. I currently try to finish my second university, because my first attempt failed and i got knock out. Even now i got a chance to fail again.

This and my lesser problems with my family are not life threating matters.

What it is ?

That i met the one and only LOVE OF MY LIFE 17 years ago, and things went awesome. At the age 8, i gained everything a boy want. Succes at school, at sports, really caring friends and a truly loving girlfriend (the up mentioned love of my life). For four long years, i went through adventures on the scale of epic movies. My life was wonderful, and i wanted nothing more, i achived a level of harmony.

Then after a series of BAD BAD events (i try to keep story my short), my one and only LOVE OF MY LIFE did abandon me, and my proud castle came crushing down like a house of cards. That happened 13 years ago.

Since then, i achived no major meaningful succes, only life saving (in the meaning of restoring fighting spirit) little ones like limited succes at High School marks.

By now, as i told you before, i no longer have succes as a student. I have no succes at all. My friends one after other choosed to abandon me, and my sport "carrier" failed miserably.

As you can figure out, this is all not so life threating matter. But, you know, the emotion named love is a hell of a bitch. I simply can't forget my one and only true love ! I always think about her and i never happened to fall in love again ! As i'am mature now, i feel lust, but that is just that ! Sexual atraction. But not love. Compassion ofcourse, as i'am a kind and caring man, but no love.

Just to inform you again. Except the loss of my only love, none of the above problem is such a heavy burden for me. I would be able to continue my life and fight those troubles. But my love... I always feel love for her ! At morning, at noon, and at night ! But she is no longer care for me !

My past 13 years was a hell of a life. As i'am getting older and older, now i see the light at the end of the tunnel getting more and more far away. I guess it is obvious, but i tell you that ofcourse i'am a virgin. Once i payed for a prostitute but the memory of my one true love forced me to just talk with her and dance a little, nothing sexual.

I can't live without my dear love ! I just have no other aim in my life than just have her return to me ! I see no goal in carrier and getting rich or anything else. My love is the only thing in this life i really care for.

At last, now please think about this is the SHORT version of my story. It would be LONGER, but i do not want to rob your time !

I also did not wanted to draw the picture about me too sad, so i didn't wrote about actually how much i suffer, because i don't want you to cry. It is enough if i cry. Dailly...

Every
Single
Day
Since
13 year
Ago

I wish you all got better luck, and i want you all to know, i love you (in spiriual sense ofcourse) ! ! !