I feel like I'm stuck in a box of depression and I can't get out. I was on anti-depressants for all my teenage years and I got off of them almost a year ago. I've been dating the same person all of my teenage years as well and we're still together. I'm young, but my relationship is in a rut. We don't do much together anymore and the trust is pretty well gone, the thing is I feel if I didn't have him I'd be a bigger mess. I have a bad judge of character apparently, I see everyone as a good person. Most of my friends owe me money that I've been waiting on for a long time, but I keep giving in because I feel bad. I know it's wrong but I have feelings for a few people and I pretend that one day I'll be saved. I don't really talk to my parents much, especially my dad. My dad stays home all day and has no friends and never sees his brothers/sisters and he's hooked on his prescription pills, I feel like I parent him sometimes. I'm really scared of being alone, when I'm not with anyone I get really depressed and feel like I'm not important. I know I don't have the worst life, it's just how I think of myself probably. The biggest thing in my life that needs to change is me, but it's easier said than done. | |
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