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Posted by anonymous at April 23, 2012
Tags: 2012 April  Meaninglessness

I see no point in life. Searching for a meaning, something that makes us happy. And you get to that goal you thought would make you happy. And you have money and a social life. But actually everything is superficial and nothing is real, no moral, since I don't think it exists. I dislike humans, even though I am one of them. I did everything I could, I have money now, I have a social life, a boyfriend. It's all fake. It's sad to think we all do the things we do for selfish reasons. You buy someone flowers so that YOU would feel good. You do something good for your own needs, satisfaction. Before I said it was what it was, and that is how we, humans, exist and live. But it just isn't enough any more. I'm not talking about a moment here. This has been eating me for years now, 10 years to be exact. And finally I've come to an end. I feel numb. And when someone dies, someone whom I have cared for, I accept it, since crying won't bring them back. And so what. I don't have anything to literally die for. Something so beautiful and strong and worth dying for. It doesn't exist. I wonder if it ever existed. I would have loved to die of hearth ache, die in an illusion i couldn't live without a certain person or a certain something! But no. We can live through anything since nothing is that meaningful. Judge away.


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By TheRastaMan at 23,Apr,12 23:34

no no no friend.
Try to think of happiness as a feeling less like a state. No matter how "successful" you think you are in this society it means virtually nothing unless you put it to good use. People always want more possessions, more money, and more popularity for wrong reasons. because they don't have morals, like you said. instead they see what they are taught they live in an illusion like you stated yourself.
But to envy these people because you can't live, like them, in a stupor anymore is outrageous.
You are very much blessed with an open mind, do not close it in fear of your own mortality.
From the sounds of it you aren't religious. I respect that. but, none of us know the truth about the afterlife. It's all faith.
Now that being the case. If there is no God no judgement, no meaning to life. Then you can live it however you want. but tell me how can you be okay with wasting the one life you get on this earth by living in a shroud of negativity.

Embrace each moment. Live life in an unselfish way. Find your happiness, create your happiness. Live with morals, don't stoop to the level of these ungrateful people.

I can't really say much more. The rest you will certainly figure out by yourself if you search hard enough.

By anonymous at 24,Apr,12 00:17

Your right life is meaning less, Happiness anger fear and even the sadness your feeling right now is fake. Its all just different chemicals mixing with parts of your brain that allow you to feel anything at all. That is what makes life so fucking awesome, you can do anything your capable of doing. Because in the end of ends there is no higher judgement other than your own. Drop the morals of society and asks yourself what and who do i care about?

By anonymous at 24,Apr,12 08:53

Happiness is a moment, it is nothing you can sustain.Thats why you have the right to pursue happiness not atain happiness. It only lasts for a minute, so then your off to the next thing that nwill give you that moment of hapiness. Thats why they say live in the moment and enjoy the now because it's gone quick.

By anonymous at 25,Apr,12 20:33

So, Paula Poundstone ate out her 12 year old foster daughter's pussy. Big fucking deal. I mean this sort of thing happens all the time. In other parts of the world, like France, this is totally a celebrated part of life

What probably happened was that Paula and her foster daughter started in with some rug bumping. Then came the rug munching and, I mean, there were probably dildoes involved (strap n and double headed). But that's besides the point. The point is, Paula did nothing wrong. Besides, the daughter is probably going to grow up as a Lesbian any way

No matter what you do, you cannot stop the rug munching so it might as well start at home

By Psychologist PhD at 01,May,12 17:00

Focus on being grateful -- and I don't mean this like a lecturing parent. I say this as a PROVEN THERAPY STRATEGY for souls in pain.

When you feel gratitude, you can't feel anything bad -- it's one of the most pure, happy emotions humans have.

Try this. This sounds really silly, but it WORKS!

Go on you tube and look up Refugee Camps. Watch those videos. In a blink, your troubles are put into perspective.

Then take a moment and just be grateful for everything you have that those pour souls do not. If you focus only on gratitude, watch what happens!

Being grateful is a choice.

No matter what is happening, you can find something to be grateful about. That is the TRUE POWER you have. That is the SECRET TO HAPPINESS.

Try this. Get yourself super grateful, let that feeling take you over -- then go be with people. See what happens. Try this with strangers. See what happens.

Remember, people are like mirrors, they REFLECT what you are projecting. So if you hate yourself, they will pick up that vibe and bounce it back to you. If you project gratitude, that pure beautiful universal emotion will bounce back at you!

Always remember for anything in life -- spend 20% of your energy on the problem, and 80% of your energy on the solution. Stick to this and watch what happens to your life.

Always ask yourself -- "What is my next action?" Your brain will search for a solution.

Your brain's job is to answer your questions. So if you ask your brain a rhetorical question like "Why me?!" The only answer will be "You are worthless, you are cursed!" -- because that was the answer you were looking for -- yes?

WHAT YOU FOCUS ON IS YOUR REALITY. Your brain has no idea what is real or imagined. So if you if you get hurt once but think about it 1,000 times, your brain suffers it 1,000 times.

I'll prove it to you. Think of the juiciest LEMON you've ever seen. You slice the lemon. It oozes juice. You take the lemon slice and you BITE into it.

What happened? Did you salivate? Because you IMAGINED a lemon in your brain, your BODY REACTED as if it were real. So there is your proof that what you imagine is real.

So thinking about this? If you imagine something horrible happening to you, wouldn't your body think it's real? If you relived a painful situation, wouldn't your body think it's happening again?

Now... if you relive a WONDERFUL MEMORY, wouldn't your mind think you're having another beautiful moment?

So now that you know this, and you still find yourself dwelling on the bad emotions -- it's evidence that you are conditioned to suffering -- because now you have a choice.

This means you have to do some soul searching.

It's time to investigate, face your issues, whatever they maybe. Focusing on wanting friendships, relationships, problems, etc.. is your unconscious need for a distraction from dealing with your repressed pain. People you are with feel the vibe, it's like a radio signal that you can't hide.

It's likely deep seeded self-esteem issues (we all have them).

Be honest with yourself. Read books, or articles online, if seeking therapy is too scary. Self help books on self-esteem.

Focus on the solution, don't dwell on the problem. Burning your energy on the problem will only lead to addiction to depression.

Deal with yourself first, and your true energy will attract the life, the people, the relationship, the things, the love you deserve.

By anonymous at 25,May,12 22:50

thank you
By anonymous at 25,May,12 22:52

I'm really grateful for this. I hope you see this and I wish you all the best in life. I hope you know you are doing others good. and that is very praise worthy. making at least one person feel less lonely.

By anonymous at 07,May,12 21:55

There is no escaping the fact that life is truly, and utterly meaningless. It's a shit-show from the beginning all the way till the end. If you are intelligent and capable of critical thinking, it is especially horrifying. You are absolutely right in everything you said. I feel exactly the same way and yet I continue on. I wish for death every single day, but unfortunately there are no magic lamps to help fulfill that desire. I wish I could offer you some advice or words of comfort, but it would all be bullshit anyway. At best you can hope to delude yourself into thinking the life is actually good. I'm sure people in prison have come up with all sorts of ways of making their time there bearable. However, in the end the bars are always there. I just want you to know that you are not alone. I have a feeling there are more people out there like us then most people want to admit. Life is hell.
By anonymous at 25,May,12 22:51

well I am grateful for this really. so the doc was right. gratefulness, be it real or not is fulfilling. this nice illusion or whatever. it's nice. thank you i know now I am not the only one..i hope you feel less lonely now. and hope you will see the message

By anonymous at 09,May,12 11:09

Well, you have pretty much said it all. Life IS meaningless, and that my dear is what makes us free, we are alone in the void of universe. Life is about disappointment and depression, we've been bullshited to think the opposite and we''ve been indoctrinated in a very twisted idea of what fullfillment and happiness are, but that notion as I see it is BS, get rid of all the fake shit in your life, for it will only poison you in the end, and please behold: Those who strive the hardest to be "happy" (Go figure what do they mean) I see them suffer the most, even if there is no real misery in their lives. You see thru crap, if you feel sorrounded by fake, don't let it get to you in any sense, for it is not going away, and neither are you.
By anonymous at 25,May,12 22:51

same goes to everyvody else who answered nice comments

By anonymous at 11,May,12 03:55

"see it as a bubble, see it as a mirage, one who regards the world this way the king of death doesn't see" buddha.

By anonymous at 19,Jul,12 19:43

Exactly everything we care about is so superficial. I read these books explaining or trying to explain the mysteries of the cosmos and I feel a sense of ignorance like all the trivial stupid shit that everyone cares about is nothing compared to grandeur. I actually hate myself for wanting all the stupid shit I want after reading books about the universe. I want to be GOD.

By anonymous at 30,Jul,12 23:34

Yes the world is a hellhole and a miserable sack of crap. Its a fucking horror movie and the Devil is directing it. Im lonely depressed and mentally tormented for the last 29 years.

By anonymous at 01,Sep,12 21:19

And my final comment to all you fucking people who harassed me is FUCK YOU ASSHOLES.

By Quin at 13,Sep,12 15:54

Well, his voting reocrd has been stellar so fare2€a6 total republican lockstep with no regard to what is actually right or wronge2€a6 I wonder if he even bothered to read the bills before voting. We all know the Farmbill isn't good for the state, so its OK for him to vote against it who cares if North Dakotans need disaster relief funds, he voted down all aid except for NAASCAR advertising.Mind you, we done2€™t need childcare background checks anyway, or wheelchair accesability. I think we all agree we need to use those federal funds for advertising on NASCAR. Priorities you know Lets talk about the budget cuts to education! Student Health care is gone now because of him, but thats OK because now students can carry concealed weapons on campus so they cane2€™t get hurt! Another pregnant college student or 2 won't hurt anybody anyway, right? What teacher needs a retirement anyway? And Healthcaree2€a6 Heaven forbid a 15-18 year old child should chose to not abort a baby; Berg voted to take away any prenatal care for them. Whats sad is taking away all funding from Planned Parenthood, will take away all birth control for over a million teens.. imagine that, another 1 million babies will be having babies on the welfare system next year because of Berg. Something to celebrate! Once they DO have these babies, Children done2€™t need preventative medicine anyway, Right?? Berg voted against the childrens health care bill. They can just become chronicly ill and have medicare support them for the rest of their lives. Thats a good conservative solution, I assure you!After all, who needs teachers and healthy children anywaye2€a6 as long as we are allowed to smoke anywhere we want and have the right to carry our guns. Vote for Berg, he is good for the country. He is going to take good care of the state except for maybe the children, the elderly, the teachers, the small business's, and of course the farmers

By anonymous at 17,Sep,12 15:27

Funny I'm on my way to ending my life over someone. Can't say it's much better than killing yourself for not feeling anything.

By anonymous at 30,Nov,12 00:21

Most real fucking thing I've ever read. You could have anything you've ever dreamed of and it still wouldn't mean shit. Nothing and no one on this earth matters. Nothing matters. Life as we know it is simply a biological mistake.

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