ok so this is how it goes..
I have one real friend but she creeps me out a bit and i honestly don't 'click' with her all that well.
everyone else treats me like wallpaper.
I live in a crappy house (a lot of weird junk etc) and it's shameful to invite people over.
I'm ugly. I have acne, i'm kinda fat,I have a HUGE nose, i have a girl moustache and hair all over my stomach D:
I always get a red face. always.
and what worse is my large, sweaty, fucking hands. always.
I'm lonely and ugly and pathetic and sad.
I see everyone else carelessly without my problems. They will NEVER know. They will never need to know what it's like.
and there isn't that much i can do really.
It's not like i'm homeless or something and I can think 'oh one day i will make lots of money and have a house'
there is no hope.
it won't get better.
I feel like vomiting when I see my reflection.
I wish I could die so I wouldn't have to continue living like this.
living this shit.
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ur feeling lonely yet u treat the only person u have like that...
ur not any better thAn the people who will outcast u
I can relate to you- as my self-esteem has been on the bottom of my shoe for a very long time.... I read through your post and can only offer these simple suggestions-
1. Change your environment. If you live with someone who has hording issues, it isn't healthy. Try to find a new place to live, as it will make you happier.
2. You have low self esteem like I do, and that is a tough problem. Would you benefit from seeing a therapist? Talking to someone, does help. If you can afford to do this, I would encourage you to do it sooner rather than later.
3. Your physical attributes make you the person you are. Embrace them. Just because you don't fit into the "Fabio" mold, doesn't mean that you are ugly. You are unique. There is more to a person than their looks. In fact, I have found that extremely attractive people have little to no substance. They have never had to deal with rejection based upon their appearance, and therefore, don't know the first thing about humility. I know I am "generalizing" here but it's just what I have experienced.
If you're really hung up on the acne, hair, weight, ect... then do something about it. Go to the bikini waxer, dermatologist, start to go to the gym. It's getting the MOTIVATION to change, that is the hardest part!
Start with baby steps. Go for a walk. Get a facial. These are well within your power to do... so do it!
You are a good person- I can tell, so please don't measure your self-worth on your outside appearance. It's what is on the inside that is most important!
Be strong-
Make it happen-
Cursed
Rather than play an arsenal game with you, I am going to send you a cyber hug. You need love just as much as the next guy, and I hope you are enjoying your day...
I'm Jealous!! why can't i meet people like you guys in real life!!!
--anyway
the truth is that i dont think you have a very nice attitude...if anything i think you should fix that first. if your nice no one will care what you look like
luck!!!
he can help you.
I hope you see my comment. i just found this site.. ive read stories on the internet about this shit all the time and i have NEVER read one that relates to me this much..
But if you need a job just let me know. I think you can make a good human scarecrow...effortlessly. May a bum splash sulfuric acid on your face. You fugly beast.
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