My dad died of cancer when I was three, my mother got breast cancer when I was 17, but she survived. However she never was the same. My mother has a bad temper and she always yells nonstop at even the little things I do, like moving back and fourth to get a drink of water. I love my mother, but she seems not to like me, and so it stresses me out.
At school nobody wants to talk with me, even if I try they would ignore me or get into an argument with me. I have no real friends, just people who need me. I play no sport, my grades suck. I have a 3.07GPA which will get me no where. My mother knows that as well she keeps pesetering me about it.
I know this sounds like a typical teenage drama, but the worst part is that I just want my mother to be proud of me. She sets up expectations that are too hard to reach, and for that I try to find love somewhere else, but no one will give it to me.
If you met me in real life, you probably would hate me too. I want to commit suicide because life sucks, but the only thing holding me back is the fear of hell.
On top of all this I am struggling with the idea of a god. I have been a Christian my whole life, but now I am sinking and I don't see any support from above. I am so sad, and I do not have a meaning in life anymore. What should I do? | |
Cursed
Upon born date will able to tell a person will suffer ..
We can change ourself by knowing our 5 elements
Upon born...
It's sort of like reading a book. Even if it's a bad book, you sort of want to know what happens in the end. Just keep on reading this book which is your life and see where it leads you.
‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10
"Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully". 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)
"The Lord is good, a Strength and Stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows (recognizes, has knowledge of, and understands) those who take refuge and trust in Him". Nahum 1:7 (AMP)
Do you take refuge and trust in him?
This is a trying time for your faith. The question is, will you be like Job in the bible, when things were awful in his life (family died, had sores all over his body) he still believed and worshipped God. Then he was rewarded for his faith. What your going through is miniscule to what many many people are going through let alone Job (im not trying to guilt trip you, just trying to give you a comparison) if you need better grades pray, work harder, and maybe your results will be better. Dont despair/get anxious, because of a dip in GPA.
If your questioning whether God exists heres what it comes down too. You can either believe in God the creator, or believe that nothing created everything. Its your choice.
Now I think is a good time to ask, are you saved? Is jesus your lord and savior? Have you given him your life? He died on the cross for our sin so that we could have eternal life, all we have to do is believe and ask for forgiveness.
Regards,
Later!
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