LIFE SUCKS

My situation parallels yours in a lot of ways. I graduated in December 09, couldn't even get an unpaid internship because the economy sucked so bad at the time and the registrar screwed up my schedule to the point where I didn't even get most of my foundation courses until my last semester. Busted my ass between a hellish last year and a half of college and a horrible call center job to the point of a nervous breakdown. The day after my last exam, I got laid off from my job, the fuckin week before Christmas.
Had a real problem finding a job and wound up swallowing my pride in July 2010 I was offered a "management trainee" position which wound up being a warehouse associate position for less than $8.hr after taxes. Then my grandfather had a stroke and I was forced to quit to take care of him, there was nobody else who could do it. Finally last April he died and I got a job driving a van under a really cool boss. Two months after I was hired the boss got fired. Then the brakes and tranny on the van blew and I literally had to ride management's ass to get it fixed. Long story short, they never fixed it and after a heated exchange between myself and my new manager, I was slowly but surely railroaded out of that job since they found an even more desperate asshole to drive an unsafe work vehicle. I left on "good terms" at the expense of claiming unemployment. The good reference letter I got from them is now useless since the GM was relocated and the other manager hates my guts. I should have just walked out after the first time they lied to me and collected for a good cause quit. At least I know my rights now.
A month later I go for a job interview with the CEO and Head Manager of a major website. They expected me to more than double their business over a years time. When I told them I expected a salary of at least $50k they laughed at me and sent me away. That was my last real job interview, almost six months later I have no income and my savings might only last me two more months. I went to a job fair three weeks ago and got laughed at by three separate company reps for daring to say that I'm good enough, I guess.
I spend at least 4 hours a day applying to jobs, networking, building my web persona, and let me tell you that you should feel fortunate that you at least get rejection letters. I usually get nothing.
Employers these days want employees to have no sense of self worth, who are willing to take constant verbal abuse and harassment for a hand to mouth wage, regardless of educational background. It won't be like this forever but I can honestly say that I wish I'd never gone back to college after dropping out in '06. All I can do is grin and bear it for as long as I can stand. Well, I gotta go pull over $700 out of savings to live in my childhood room for another month. Take it easy.

Tell your problems to the freemercytemple he can solve your problems. As you know with my complaint to Doctor MESSIAH, Yates and I were in the dumps. It was definitely over. I had cheated on her and she just could not forgive me and I didn't blame her. But I still wanted her back and knew what a mistake I had made. I can't thank the freemercytemple@yahoo.com enough for the thoughtful recommendations and for the spell casting cancelling guidance through this. She says she has forgiven me and we are talking a lot about getting back together. She is taking it slow just as the messiah said she would but I don't mind in the least because she is talking to me and says she still loves me - something she said she could never do again. It took a lot of work to get to this point but I wouldn't change anything about it. I hope someday I can meet this temple to thank for this good help in person.

Focus on being grateful -- and I don't mean this like a lecturing parent. I say this as a PROVEN THERAPY STRATEGY for souls in pain.

When you feel gratitude, you can't feel anything bad -- it's one of the most pure, happy emotions we have.

Try this. This sounds really silly, but it WORKS!

Go on you tube and look up Refugee Camps. Watch those videos. In a blink, your troubles are put into perspective.

Then take a moment and just be grateful for everything you have -- running water, food, living in the best country on Earth, no daily risk of death, rape. If you focus only on gratitude, watch what happens!

Being grateful is a choice. No matter what is happening, you can find something to be grateful about. That is the TRUE POWER you have. That is the SECRET TO HAPPINESS.

Try this. Get yourself super grateful, let that feeling take you over -- then go be with your friends. See what happens!! Try this with strangers. See what happens!!

Remember, people are like mirrors, they REFLECT what you are projecting. So if you hate yourself, they will pick up that vibe and bounce it back to you.

If you project gratitude, that pure beautiful universal emotion will bounce back at you!

Always remember for anything in life -- spend 20% of your energy on the problem, and 80% of your energy on the solution -- watch what happens to your life.

Always ask yourself -- "What is my next action?" Your brain will search for a solution.

Your brain's job is to answer your questions. So if you ask your brain a rhetorical question like "Why me?!" The only answer will be "You are cursed!" -- because that was the answer you were looking for -- yes?

WHAT YOU FOCUS ON IS YOUR REALITY.

It's time to investigate, face your issues, whatever they maybe. Focusing on wanting friendships is your unconscious need for a distraction from dealing with your repressed pain. People you are with feel the vibe, it's like a radio signal that you can't hide.

It's likely deep seeded self esteem issues (we all have them).

Be honest with yourself. Read books, or articles online, if seeking therapy is too scary. Self help books on self esteem.

Focus on the solution, don't dwell on the problem. Burning your energy on the problem will only lead to addiction to depression.

Deal with yourself first, and your true energy will attract and keep the person you deserve.

As you know, I asked I thought, for the impossible. To refresh you all memory I was very much in love with my best friend (we are both women) well she decided to leave her fiancé nine weeks after I ordered your Powerful Love Spell. I am not sure if this is coincidence but I am sure your spell helped heaps wish to hear from him email address wiseindividualspell@gmail.com.