My husband of 25 years dumped me in an email while I was working out of state trying to save our home from foreclosure because he stopped working 3 years ago. While I was working, he had an online affair and handed me divorce documents the minute I pulled in the driveway after a 3 day drive from across the county. All the money I had sent home to pay the mortgage was used to pay off his personal credit cards and debts. Then he refused to leave the house for two months because he was saving money to move to where his online affair lived, during this time my Dad passed away suddenly, which basically put me where you are now, then my daughters shitbag boyfriend gave her amphetimines and she overdosed and almost died. I came home tonight to them screaming at me and telling me to get out of an apartment that I pay the rent on, I did in fact lose my house and have to file for bankruptcy thanks to my 'nightmare from hell' ex. The only thing I have going for me right now is a steady job and the fact that I am still breathing. I pretty much hate the world right now and would just as soon be done with it, except for the nagging and delusional notion that it may somehow get better and if I just hang on a little longer I will get back to being myself again. Plus if I off myself that bastard will have taken everything from me, and I refuse to give him the satisfaction.