|Posted by anonymous at April 29, 2012|
This si my 4th entry in this website. And yes my life sucks.
I'm a 20 years old moroccan gay man, alone and lonely. I've been in some relationships that lasted only for some days. I have lots of qualities that can make of me a very popular person. I'm smart, somehow funny, and somehow nice. I study French at University, and I know lots of poeple. I hang around with them a lot, I somehow feel accepted and loved. But it seems that at some point, they let go of me. I can't figure out why. I do my best so I can stay close to them, but it just doesn't work. I look around and see people talking and laughing, and having a good time together, but they barely notice me, or come to me. It always has to be me the one to go to them. Sometimes I just feel like I want people to abroad me, and talk to me. It might seem a very benign issue, but actually it sucks. I've come to lose all my emotions and my motivation. I don't feel like having friends anymore, though I know it's very important. Maybe that's the reason why after all ? It shows that I'm a very cold person, so nobody dare approach me ? I also feel uncomfortable under my skin(But I don't lack much of self confidence). I think other people are resilient and independant, unlike me. I can go and talk to someone, and make it look like I really need them, but they seem to be distant and careless. I feel like being with me or not is something that makes no difference. People have their own lives, and I don't. They act the way they like, and are not afraid to show it. And that pisses me off.
I don't know if what I say makes sens, but I hope you understand me.
|Posted by tanya at April 29, 2012|
since i was young,i have been seeing people from my family,school,friend circle,neighbors just hurting my feelings in different ways.it has been so many years of my life and it hasnt changed at all.i am 27 now.i have finally decided to live life in my own terms,i completely cut ties with society.i dont talk about myself to anybody other than my best friend and my mom.i am single and have been hurt by men many times in my life.all of my boyfriends left me for another women.sometimes it seems that guys always meet the best women after dating me.my life sucks.i dont mix with anybody,i dont have any friends.i just work and come back home.i dont live with my parents-thanks God-bcoz i want to be independent .i hope i can live this life like a loner and be the person i want to be without getting hurt by anybody,whether my boyfriends,friends,parents,siblings,or anybody.i want to be somebody but i dont want to be with anybody anymore.i am happy being single and on my own,but to some people it might seem that my life is not a life.thats why i posted
|Posted by anonymous at April 29, 2012|
my life is static.i have been looking for a very decent job,nothing big or well paying,but i havnt been able to.besides,my personal expenses are going up,its natural i guess bcoz day by day prices are changing.the place i have been working never give raises.i am an international student in the US,when i came here i thought at least i would get an on campus job to pay my bills.my parents pay tuition and i pay my bills,but the jobs on campus just sucks.they pay so little and most relaxed,better ,and career oriented jobs are not given to internationals even we are qualified enough or not.i am 27 yrs of age,female.its a shame in my culture to ask for money from parents at this age,considering they are paying my tuition already.i am trapped in a big problem.i cant ask my parents for any more money,its an ego problem,but then there is no way i can earn more money other than robbing,stealing,or doing stripping or nudity for money.my life sucks.i dont know how to get rid of this foreign education which made me poor and restricted my opportunity to work and be independent........
|Posted by Sam Fisher at April 29, 2012|
Im not gonna lie, i thought i had a pretty good life. Half decent grades, good family, money, and a few good friends. The problem is im a complete outcast to the general teenage public of today :p I dont smoke anything, i hate the whole weed culture, and i dont drink to get drunk; i love music and concerts but its impossible to find normal people to go with that aren't complete retards and awkward douchers :p I had a girlfriend who after a year of having me write love letters, buy gifts, and help with her depression (which i was pleased to do because i ACTUALLY cared about her) decides she needs time to make herself a better person :p now it dawns on me that i was just there until she found someone better (hence me never once being on her facebook and being forgotten whenever she was around other guys, oh yea and the people texting me about her flirting with other guys while writing an exam)... So now theres me, good kid; but no social life because im quiet and surrounded by potheads and drunks and id rather kil myself than become that... are there any normal girls out there who wont stab a guy in the back and like being taken to concerts movies and dinners? Because right now it feels like im completely alone on this miserable rock they call earth
|Posted by anonymous at April 28, 2012|
I'm 20 years old and I can safely say I have a good life but I can't help but feel like there's something missing. By something I mean a woman in my life. Everywhere I look I see people in and out of relationships. A couple of my friends just got engaged and I look at myself and only think about why I can't have what they have. I am truly a fun person to be around but when I come home I feel I am a completely different person. I don't want anyone to think me being fun is a charade because that is who I am but being an only child, when I'm home all I do is think about why I have not met a special someone. Adding to that are the problems I face every time I see or hear from my father. We have never seen eye to eye and he has verbally and physically abused me for over 15 years. Because of these factors I have developed a bit of a bipolar personality in which I am laughing and all smiles for a second but suddenly all the bad memories and thought are let free and I just want to be alone. I try to vent it out through my hobbies (writing, playing guitar and listening to music) but they are not enough. The thoughts still chase me. I was asked once what I would change about myself. I didn't want to sound all depressing and ruin the fun atmosphere so I said I wish I was taller but in my mind was the real answer- "I wish I could cry easier". It is very hard for me to cry so I cannot vent out all the negative emotions. I try and try but I can't squeeze out a single tear. What I want i...
|Posted by WTF at April 28, 2012|
Once you start posting messages on a website called "life sucks big time," I think it's fair to say your life is really in the shithole. Unfortunately, this particular life happens to be mine.
I'm a 21 year old male, have dropped out of college twice, am gay, never been in a relationship, the few friends that I have don't really care about me all that much - it's not like they hate me or anything, they're just indifferent. I'm living with my ultra-conservative Catholic parents, and I have no job. I don't think I'm ugly, though I'm not an athlete by any means, but my lack relationships leads me to believe there's obviously something wrong with me.
There's this guy I've been in love with since high school, who is under the delusion that we've got this great friendship that can't be ruined with a relationship. We've slept together once, but then he said he just had no feelings, that he can't see me as anything other than a friend, blah blah blah.
I know I'm smart - I was voted most likely to succeed in high school. I received a 4.0 during the one good semester I had in college. But quite frankly, the only thing I'm concerned about is my total absence of a love life. I'm not comfortable being gay, probably because I have to hide it around the Gestapo here at home. I feel like I will be alone the rest of my life. I twisted my whole life around for a guy who has no feelings for me, and I know I have to move on, but seeing as how I put 110% effort into this guy only to produce an absolute failure, I fail to see how the same won't happen.
Anyways, that's my story. Life sucks - hopefully it'll get better.
|Posted by jane at April 28, 2012|
Hey iv never felt so lonely before:( I'm an only child, its just my mom and i in the house and i have a short temper so i don't make great convo with her! I spend most of my time sleeping. My dreams are beter than reality , i had a lot of friends then all of a sudden i started feeling out of place . I met this guy last year he took my virginity and ripped my heart out my chest. The pain is still there,and I'm going through it alone i have noone to talk to oneone at all literally people who were my friends just feel like people i know :( sorry i just had to get abit off my chest
|Posted by Something's wrong at April 28, 2012|
Societies so manipulative, and it's so unreal... Atleast if your going to create this society you should take account for people's happiness and spiritual well-being.
But no. Life sucks because were all pawns in this huge game that nations and governments play. And that's war.
We used to have war with taking lands and resources from each other but now has more to do with international business.
We fuck up our environment, and it's proven that living in an urban setting makes people more distressed, angry, and anxious but they don't give a fuck about us.
Like how they use us as bullet bags in war, they now use us as machines to be worked and freedom is only an illusion.
The companies need as much money as they can, because money gives you influence and power to get more money.
It's a huge rat race and we all have to participate in it or be used as slaves, to survive.
But truthfully this world should just be about family and happiness, caring for nature, and living off of it. We've become so greedy, manipulative, and fucked that the whole world is getting toxic off us.
Yet nothing will happen, and we're making a very strange world to adapt to...
|Posted by me:) at April 28, 2012|
Everyone on this form complains about how much stuff they wish they had and how they would be happier with this or that.. fuckin retarded talk get a job and buy it or go sell some drugs or your body or something..
naa but seriously.. i make mistakes like everyone else. and im accountable for those things. it just really sucks when the mistakes you make are long term and their extremely difficult to fix. it doesn't help when you try and try and nothing gets better so the stress keeps adding on.. untill your on some dumb website venting about what your upset about. I wish more then anything i could just have a reset button for my whole life and take different paths. constructive, self made amazing paths that i applied myself at a young age to really achieve something great. my whole life people have told me i'm a smart person, and i never understood why considering i have nothing to show for my life as of now. intelligence shouldn't be measured by how well you understand things but of what choices you make that lead you to victory. and i would think true victory is happiness. i got all the stupid material objects i had realistic goals for: a nice car bunch of clothes iphone laptop xbox tv ext and everything is so pointless. i feel like life alltogether is pointless. i understand the goal of life is just to enjoy it while it lasts but when you die and nothing you did really matters does it really matter when you die? not so much.. im not scared of life im not a cow...
|Posted by jennie... at April 27, 2012|
anything i do im always super good at it #1 amazing awesome..and i ALWAYS get fucked...bad things always happen to me. its a joke and i cant take it anymore. ive had a super shitty life and ive suffered badly...and now...
any place i work at .. im the #1 sales person and i get treated like shit threatened to be fired etc...or they get rid of me though im #1...so weird or i get mistreated. I tried being a model and i got tormented by people and abused...no one wants me to succeed and once i start doing really well i get screwed over. my current job....i went from #45 to #2..i was amazing...#1 out of the new hires...amazing sales person...all people at the job did was talk about how good I was and how awesome i was going to be. I was making the company so much money...i was a great employee...i come to work, i get along with people, people like me...however we were on probation and they were getting rid of people. They were getting rid of the BAD sales people...firing people here and there. Everyone said to me-- theres NO way theyre going to fire you...youre SO good..your numbers are SO high...all people at work did was talk about my sales numbers and how good I was..people were jealous too but oh well. this is for a LARGE company..so all they care about are SALES numbers..my numbers were amazing...so why they got rid of me and kept peopel whose numbers were WORSE and bad employees too, makes no sense except they were jealous or crazy...and in my case--people are ...
|Posted by Sky at April 27, 2012|
My dad died of cancer when I was three, my mother got breast cancer when I was 17, but she survived. However she never was the same. My mother has a bad temper and she always yells nonstop at even the little things I do, like moving back and fourth to get a drink of water. I love my mother, but she seems not to like me, and so it stresses me out.
At school nobody wants to talk with me, even if I try they would ignore me or get into an argument with me. I have no real friends, just people who need me. I play no sport, my grades suck. I have a 3.07GPA which will get me no where. My mother knows that as well she keeps pesetering me about it.
I know this sounds like a typical teenage drama, but the worst part is that I just want my mother to be proud of me. She sets up expectations that are too hard to reach, and for that I try to find love somewhere else, but no one will give it to me.
If you met me in real life, you probably would hate me too. I want to commit suicide because life sucks, but the only thing holding me back is the fear of hell.
On top of all this I am struggling with the idea of a god. I have been a Christian my whole life, but now I am sinking and I don't see any support from above. I am so sad, and I do not have a meaning in life anymore. What should I do?
|Posted by Sucker for love at April 27, 2012|
I had my life all together until I met a woman and fell in love. I through away my education, talent and potential for what I thought was love. Several kids latter I found out that she use to be a "escort" and I am so far in debt and trapped with these kids (their mine..blood test confirmed), I cant leave. I hate my job and the woman I am married to.
|Posted by anonymous at April 27, 2012|
Basically my life . .
- Broke: I don't have a penny to my name
- No hair: I have a hair-loss condition
- Gaining weight: Rapidly
- Stupid: I have no qualifications
- Single: No guy wants me because I have no hair
- Feeling low and insecure: I got brutally bullied at school
- No confidence
- No self esteem
- Fed up
And the cherry on the cake . . I don't have any friends !! :/
|Posted by friendoftheloners at April 27, 2012|
I came from a dominant, confident, never been dump and living the life financially and having tons of friends to now 30 jobless, lives at home and friendless. I lost everyone and the only person i did have was an emotional abusive ex bf and lastnight was the last (yah right I said this 2x already) ill ever have him cuss at me.. I cussed him out too... I have God and I should be good BUT Why do I feel this emptiness and sadness... Ive became the black sheep of the family and I dislike my lil lesbian sister who selfishly only care about her happiness and does what she wants and acts as if everyone is her slave including my folks BUT everyone adores her... WTF!!!!
I want friends to go out with and praying so badly to finally the guy whose rib I came out from...
Im not an ugly woman, Im decent looking and have such a one of a kind heart.
Its sucks cause all I really want is to find my soulmate but how can I if I dont go out cause no where to go and I dont have my own car and Jobless... what would I do without the internet.. Its my bestfriend now and hoping God will miracously manifest the guy of my dreams online or at least the friends whom can be for life...
Damnnn I forgot to mention I tolerated the ex and kept chasing him cause I have nobody else.. I actually did loved the guy but he can careless if I died... I so hope I can stand on my ground this time and not chase after him cause Im feeling alone and wants to get out.. Im tired feeling like a fool and...
|Posted by anonymous at April 27, 2012|
Say want you want about me but I don't care. I was teased as a child and bullied. Yeah I grow up hating kids, I can't stand to see any bastards in my presence. I have no kids that why my boy friend left me because I told him I didnt want any fucking kids. I don't care how the son of a Bitch took it, I meant what I say and I said it. Grow up was hard, dead beat parents, no money no shit to show for. School days was worst than being at home, kids there was a Bitch to me and I never did anything to them. If I knew than what I know now, I could of went to school and took half of them out with around of bullets. It doesn't bother me to see a dying kid on Tv, I just laugh and turn the channel who the fuck cares if this little ass wipe dying from an illness, GOOD then there want be no burden on the parents, lol.
|Posted by Justin at April 27, 2012|
Well all my life have been abused physically and mentally by my dad, although i do love my mother she just backs him up most of the time because i believe she is afraid of his abuse. So the abuse pretty much marked my childhood and teenage years. Made me really withdrawn and just a loner pretty much. the relationships i've had with women have all ended with me being cheated on. I hate my family minus my mother, she's about the only one i can talk to. The childhood and teenage years of abuse pretty much caused me to turn to drugs and alcohol, got a dui and some other drug charges that will stick with me for life. I told myself things cant get worst and quit the drugs and alcohol which was very hard with the situation i was in. Then at the beginning of this year my dickweed brother got in a fight with me and broke my wrist, also had 250 cash stolen from my wallet at the hospital which was nver recovered. So i told myself it doesn't get any worst than this, but on the way home i ended up hitting a deer minor damage to the car but about 1000 dollars to fix it. Then few weeks later on the way to work got ran off the road by another car and ended up rolling my own car, yet i got ticketed for not maintaining lane control(fucking piglet) totaled the car, insurance covered most but it went to the bank for the loan i had on it. Got a rental car for 30 days from the insurance. Didn't have it a week and and another car hit and run, so i didn't want to make another insurance claim so im going to pay for the damages myself because there minor and my insurance deductible is 500 dollars so for another five hundred the damn thing could be fixed. So yea right now stuck without a car and im hoping and praying things don't get worst but as they say history does repeat itself. Well thanks for listening.
|Posted by anonymous at April 27, 2012|
ok so this is how it goes..
I have one real friend but she creeps me out a bit and i honestly don't 'click' with her all that well.
everyone else treats me like wallpaper.
I live in a crappy house (a lot of weird junk etc) and it's shameful to invite people over.
I'm ugly. I have acne, i'm kinda fat,I have a HUGE nose, i have a girl moustache and hair all over my stomach D:
I always get a red face. always.
and what worse is my large, sweaty, fucking hands. always.
I'm lonely and ugly and pathetic and sad.
I see everyone else carelessly without my problems. They will NEVER know. They will never need to know what it's like.
and there isn't that much i can do really.
It's not like i'm homeless or something and I can think 'oh one day i will make lots of money and have a house'
there is no hope.
it won't get better.
I feel like vomiting when I see my reflection.
I wish I could die so I wouldn't have to continue living like this.
living this shit.
|Posted by Imager at April 27, 2012|
My ex wife is selfish. I was married for 20 years. She cheated on me 16 yrs into the marriage. I struggled to keep the family (2 kids) together. Did everything she ask, but was not exactly the way she wanted it done. I needed a car, cause her van transmission broke down. So, she cashed in her stock from work and brought a patio. My paycheck paid all the bills, Her paycheck was for savings and extra expense. She offered me, our house if I agreed to a divorce. After I said Yes, she wanted the house for her and the kids, to help keep stability in our kids life.
We got separated in October 2011. Got divorced in Dec 2011. I feel so alone. She never felt alone. She got married in April 20012. Now she is selling the house, so her new husband can feel comfortable living in a rural area 30 mins away.
I got screwed because I trusted her.
|Posted by sad at April 27, 2012|
I am so unfortunate. I didn't choose to be born as a gay. Yet, I have to suffer through the consequences. No one really knows who I am... who I am deep inside. No one. Not even single one. I am alone. I cannot be who I am. I feel dead inside everyday. I feel purposeless.
Sexual minorities are more unfortunate than many other disadvantaged groups. Sexuality forms a big part of who I am and if I constantly need to hide this part of myself, then I cannot truly grow as a person. I am very sad. I have been meeting with a counsellor but he sucks. He too is gay but he really doesn't know what he is doing. All he does is trying to make me feel good, but I am not interested in someone trying to make me feel good. Rather, I want someone who can give me directions, a guidance that have practical usage in this world.
Life is hard. But life is even harder for a sexual minority. But people, the heterosexual people, just don't fully and truly understand or realize this, and they never will. I am very sad. My life is very unfortunate. I wish I was never born in the first place. I am 23 and this is one big thing that is and has been holding me back greatly.
I want to have friends. I want to be myself. I just want to be my free self. But I can't. I have been hiding myself for too long... I have been repressing myself for so long that now it's automatic. It's as if it has become deeply embedded as part of my personality. This is not who I was meant to be. No. Not this... Why.....
|Posted by anonymous at April 26, 2012|
Is life worth living if u wake up every day and wish u didn't wake up any more.
Is life worth living if u don't want to live this life anymore.
Is life worth living if u don't want to feel this pain and sadness anymore.
If life worth living if u feel depressed every day for the last 3 years and I'm only 22
I don't want to live this life any more but there's no way out and I wake up every day and wish I didn't wake up and it make me sad that I'm still alive, wen I dont want to live. Why do I have to feel like this for? Why me god? Why me? I cried so much that now wen I cry there ant no emotion. Life's hard but what's harder is to live this life and why do I have to wake up everyday in this life. I don't wish I woke up and everything was a dream, I wish I Neva wake up again. It's sad for me to think like this and feel like this but u can't help the way u feel or think. I hate that I think to my self too much and I just want my brain to stop fucking thinking for one minuet. If it wasn't for my mum this life would of ended time ago.