| Posted by artCURSE at August 19, 2010 |
MY LIFE SUCKS ? because I am an artist who breath art born in a very poor village in 3rd world country and the worse there is internet where I can see what people do ,I have to work in a farm everyday ,cant go to art school because there is any people suck here all of them if you don't follow their life style : job+house+wife+children they ll hate you forever so I have no one here except my ugly pencil ,papers and my very old pc that I worked since forever to buy it..
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| Posted by anon at August 18, 2010 |
I am just tired. of everything. My psychotic mother and my alcoholic father. I hate never having any money despite making nearly $10/hr at my job. Because of rent and bills, I have approximately $40 at the end of every month. I feel like I do everything for everyone, and I can never complain because everyone else just has it so much worse than I do. I used to be a creative person, but that part of me has almost completely atrophied. I can't bring myself to get rid of all my art tools though on the off chance that I DO have a moment when inspiration strikes. I have never written any music despite playing guitar since the age of 12. All I do is regurgitate what others have already done. I have an Associate's degree in multimedia, but can't get a job in my field to save my life, and because of the way technology advances every couple years, my skills are becoming more and more obsolete. In short, I suck at life and I just want to die. |
| Posted by nonyafuknbusinaz at August 17, 2010 |
I go through life everyday wondering/not understanding what the fucking point to all this is..what i'm doing here walking around on this planet.
I've been searching web sites today and found out I could possibly be an Empath..Someone who takes on the emotions of others good or bad.. and usually
it's involuntary. I thought that might be why I've always felt so fucked up for no apparent reason (Hi Hi's and low low's) Or it could be bi-polarism I don't know.
Anyway...This is it, This is my life and it's no dress rehearsal..Yet, I keep failing in trying to figure out what i'm supposed to be doing here..and all I keep coming up with is the same bullshit everyone else is striving to accomplish, the so-called "American Dream"
(i.e. Go to school, get a job, go back to school again, get a better job, marry a bitch,get a house, pump-out a bunch of kids,grow old and watch your kids have kids and then die....(if you're lucky enough not to go through years of cancer first) But, it's not my dream...I don't even have a fucking dream.
I just keep going through the motions..Get up,go to work, come home, and go to school...(I'm going to school for graphic design because I'm good at drawing..but I hate it..)That's it. I do what I have to do to get by..But I don't have any ambitions,dreams. I'm just some low-life trying to make his life better..But feel like I have no business being here..So all you assholes out there who want to give me some smart-ass remark or tell me to kill myself, here's your chance. for the rest of you that read this, If you have dreams..consider yourselves lucky. I wish my brain was on auto-pilot towards a passion. |
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Posted by anonymous at August 17, 2010 |
im only 11 years old. i have had thoughts of running away from home. if i do... the only person who would miss me would be my mom. my dad just buy me stuff like once every 3 years. i a johavas wittness so i dont celebrate my birth-day or christmas. all of my freinds arent real freinds any more exsept for acople. i have only got together with one of my freind once this year releay. and the most annoying thing about it is most of my friend gurn into my brothers friends and hate me. and that brother is the most annoying brother ever, hes 13 nd he has way more chances to get paid. i have ... like ..... um... let me think .... NONE! and, the most annoying thing, if you have ever played wizerdy, like wizerdry 8, witch is what i play alot(and wizerdry gold) let me tell you, its almost THE SAME GAME as runescape, my favorite game bat im not a loud to play it |
| Posted by Ella at August 17, 2010 |
Ok let me begin by telling you i think i might have anger issues becuase of my dad he has them too. i get pissed of for silly little things when i'm with my mum dad and sister, but i'm different with my friends at school. They understand me and treat me like an equal adults think their better than children that really fucks me off. I hate it when i'm not allowed to swear and that i'm not allowed to do certain things.
My dad has a great hatred for Pakistanis, Africans and Foregners who come in our country and try to change our way of lives, that hatred is sort of becoming me. I am feeling the same hate becuase of my fuckin dad.
Another thing is i was watching a documentary about a russian town where men see woman (any woman they like the look of) thye kidnap of the streets and make that woman become their bride the womans has no right in the decision. This makes me pissed of when i hear that the russian want that to come over in england.
I hate this world! its fucking shit! |
| Posted by Ella at August 17, 2010 |
Back in 2004, i was just 7 years old. I lost the most special person to me in the world. Hes name was Lawerence (lol) Easton. He was my grandfather, kind, caring, considerate and most of all loving. Him and my nan were heaven to me. They treated me the way i felt so secure and happy.
he had a fight belly and i used to snuggle myself on him, i felt secure in his hands. he loved football very much the only cleaning he ever did was when a football match began (he supported west ham) he would get up and wipe the tv with his pocket hanky and sit back down and watch the match.
He use to love cutting the meat when we had a roast on sundays, i was playing with my barbies when my mum walked in crying her eyes out when she told em the knew i cried for days non-stop. i felt dead inside my life ripped out of me, she handed me a video of scooby-doo and told me 'give this too the kids and tell them i said goodbye' is what he told her.
whenever something bad in my life happens i think about him and beg to god to take my life so i ust be with him, i think to myself that hes in my room sometimes just for a bit of comforting. Losing someone as special from my life as my Grandfather makes me feel insecure and vulnerable, he was the manliest man i ever knew. No-one in this god forsaken world can be the amount he meant to me.
Now i just hope when my times come he be there to see me. |
| Posted by Ellabella at August 17, 2010 |
Compared to hearing and reading about other people lives and what happens to them, like some girls where raped, others are att he point of sucidal others have no where to live it makes me want to cry. But then i realized the one thing everyone needs to survive this worlw without this kind of shit is......
A computer.
Its seriosuly true or maybe a book. Its better to listen to people stories help and undersrand them, therefore you forget yours quickly and help people who need help the most! |
| Posted by anonymous at August 17, 2010 |
It's always being rocky, the relationship my parents share.
Their not at all loving to each other my dad always causes arguments and most of the time when i was younger my mum did not argue back she just agreed with him, but now because me and my sister have got older she has now realize how he affects us so she argues back causing him to go crazy.
he swears the other night he even said to my mother 'go fuck yourself' and 'eat shit and die' childish words just because she argue back towards him as he claimed 'we all lied and said we put the tortoises to bed' when we clearly had but they got up and moved.
he has always been in a bad mood, its the holidays now. my mum still has to work but my dad works at home, so were stuck with him.
I even wanted to commit suicide, i thought i should type in 'quick ways to kill yourself' he upsets me much and if i try to tell him he does he tells me to 'clean up the house yourself and you cause me to be angry' when of course i do not thats utter crap.
he gets pissed of over stupid little things. i just dont know what to do anymore, my mum doesn't understand as she never here and when she is she looks up at him as if hes some god. i hate her. she's a woman i suppose what possible harm could she do to my father, he is so horrid and mean.
i just don't know if to kill myself, or fight my way through childhood. |
| Posted by ms Sharon at August 16, 2010 |
I met a man and he liked me and I liked him. He said all the things I wanted to believe.It was great until I told him I had chronic hepatitis b. He lost interest and just bascially dumped me. Now he does not call or come by anymore.yes, life sucks I had not had even a date in over five years before him.I give up I will be alone until I die.Even when you tell the truth it does not always work out. Now I see why people lie and just have fun while they can. |
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Posted by kim at August 16, 2010 |
I'm 27yrs old and am a stay @ home mom. I've been feeling so depressed lately. My life is such a routine. I dnt care about anything anymore. Things I used 2 like doing dnt even interest me anymore. I've always loved riding horses. Now they are just in the pasture and I hvnt rode n over a year. If it weren't for the fact that I have 2 get up and take care of my kids, I would never get out of bed. My baby is about 2 turn a year old and while I'm planning his party its like I'm on auto pilot, like I can't get happy about anything. Like my brain just wnt let me. I love my kids and my husband. They deserve so much better. Its like the happiness has just drained right out of me. I never get out anymore or do anything. I have no friends. I constantly feel like there's no reason 2 live and then I see my kids faces and I know there is. SSo y do I feel like this all the time? I just want to feel happiness again. Just neede 2 rant a little bit. Thanks for listening. |
| Posted by Lori at August 16, 2010 |
My father died when I was six. When I was my mother got married to a amn I felt uneasy about. One my mother had to work late. he cam in to my and pulled the cover off of em then he took omy night gown socks and panties and he raped. He if i tell my mother some bad things would happen to me. I believed it. He raped until I was 16. When he rape me a age th e of 16 I hit him hard and I blooied his nose and I told if he tried that agai I would kill him and heard every word of what I said so I told what he did and what he just he jus tried to do. My devorced him and my believed me. She took to the doctor and a therpist. She even told the police. He has been aressted becuase nothing was found on me nothing on my clothes bra or panties. I am now 20 and in medical school I hope that he doesn't marry some with duaghter becuase he would poosibly do it again and that will ruin her life. i took away my childhood and I lost virginity at young age. |
| Posted by Overworkedunderpaid at August 15, 2010 |
I married an idiot 3 years ago and procreated with it. Now I have a cute kid, but no money to take care of him and I'm over my head in credit card debt, always on the verge of eviction and getting flouresent envelopes from utility companies I haven't been able to pay. I don't know why I can't pay them. We both work full time but only make enough to parely pay rent. (Oh and buy cretin husband pack after pack of cigarettes)I haven't been grocery shopping for more then 2 months and am literally starving. I can't remember the last time I fell asleep to the sound of anything other then my stomach growling. Any food we have (from food banks and pity) goes to my 2 year old or my cretin husband who works in construction and does need food. I fantasize about robbing burger king. I look at people and see hamburgers with legs. And I'm just pissed, I 'm tired of being hungry. I'm tired of being poor. I'm tired of being married to a creeper. I'm tired of angry letters form bill companies. I just hate everything. And I'm pretty sure i'm starving to death. |
| Posted by jenn at August 14, 2010 |
I feel so lost. I'm 17, never had a boyfriend, never been loved, and my social life sucks. People call me a dyke and "scary". My "friends" treat me like crap. When I was younger my parents beat me and verbally abused me. They would threaten to kill me, beat me, and bash my head in. They say I'm annoying and they wish they never had me. I was depressed for three years and was extremely suicidal. I began hurting and cutting myself at 13. I'm never invited to the parties therefore I'm a waste and ridiculed.I just wish I could find someone to love me. Thats all I ask |
| Posted by Antoine at August 14, 2010 |
My name is Antoine and I am 16. I moved from Vietnam to Detroit with my parents when I was only a baby. Life was pretty okay until my mother lost her job in 2006. And ever since then, my life has been going downhill. I am gay and my parents hate me for it. I've tried being straight but I can't. This is how I am! In late 2008 my Father left me and my mother with no money. I don't know where he is but my mother tells me that he has been cheating on her ever since they married. Now we are desperately poor. My mother occasionally prostitutes to make money and she thinks I don't know. I never asks her where she gets her money from because I don't want her to know that I know. At school almost everyone makes fun of me. I am the only asian kid and everyone else is black. Everyone knows that I am gay also. But what they don't know is that I have been sucking dick and letting other men have sex with me anally for money since I was 15. The world sucks and this is what I have to do to survive. |
| Posted by nickname at August 13, 2010 |
My son broke his neck last Dec. He has had 3 surgeries, hoping the last one is the last one. He went to a party and has an MIP and an attitude. I have MS. In order to slow down the debilitation, I take a drug with bad side effects three times a week. By injection. Yea mom. I divorced my husband because he went to jail. He also forged my name and borrowed so much money (a half million dollars) that I had to take bankruptcy. I used my retirement account to make a downpayment on a house for me and the kids, and needed to refinance the mortgage because everything went up this year except my salary, and my house is now worth half what I paid for it 5 years ago. So instead of a refinance, I have a $400 bill for an appraisal. Things got worse and not a bit better for all my efforts. I had a boyfriend/lover for several years who dumped me in May. Bummer. My son is supposed to get a small settlement for his neck, but my health insurance company is trying to take it. I have a job, that's better than a lot of folks right now. I have worked hard and done the right thing. This is how life has treated me. What's the next bad thing? That's what I have to look forward to. |
| Posted by broken dreams at August 13, 2010 |
I was training to play tennis at a large D1 school and my knee started to hurt, went to see the doctor, he injected my knee with something and now i can't move it at all. |
| Posted by sarah at August 13, 2010 |
okay first thing's first, you have to know my background. I was always viewed and labeled as the perfect child. I got good grades, played sports, and am a strong christian. My sister on the other hand slacked off and fought with our mom almost everyday. So as time wore on I got a boyfriend and we were dating about a year and I, stupidly, gave him a bj. and his mother, saw us. Talk about awkward. So they talked to us about how we were whormongers to God and all this stuff but she said i forgive you guys. Then she said, "but your mom has to know". So thinking it best I talked to my mom. I asked her what she did before marriage and she told me had sex then she was like have you done more than you wanted to? letting a sigh of relief go i said that's exactly it! and then i told her my boyfriend and i talked and we decided it wasn't what God would want. So now we put ourselves in good situations, and rely on one another for help. So that conversation was done and over but then, of course, she gets a call from his mom saying everything she saw and how that wasn't right and how she doesn't know if she can trust us and my mom is easily persuaded (good and bad thing) so she quickly held those beliefs as well. so she got all mad at us and we told her we were sorry and that only time would show her that we changed. Oh, almost forgot, His mom and him have fights all the time and she calls him stupid (which he isn't, he takes ap and college courses) and an idiot and good for nothing. ... |
| Posted by anonymous at August 12, 2010 |
my life is so shitty and im only 14 years old
from sense i was 5 pick on laughed at treated poorly by teachers and parents
i never got abused or anything and my family is average in money with a 2 story house and im black but my life jus sucks
when it comes to financial things like school items and clothes i always get nothing but shit my closet is empty and my sisters closet and mothers closet are full i only have 2 pairs of shoes and 1 pair off pants my father died when i was 8 and from them i had to teach my self everything i know all the birds and the bees all the whats wrong i even talk to my self my mother promise me things and they never come tru im imagining how my life gonna be when i get older i am determined to become a successful cooperate lawyer and my grades in school are good i save up to by my own computer and well i have a girl friend who likes me for who i am witch is the only thing thats keeping me from not killing my self i do have stress even though im 14 i even have chest pains from time to time.
i quest my story isn't all that bad but if theres someone who have just a tiny bit of hope ore sense or some goodness (ain't looking for no religious hoe done had enough of that) please leave a comment to up my spirits |
| Posted by Joel at August 12, 2010 |
I'm 38 was brought up in pretty good family not real close knit. But had 2 supporting parents. I've always struggled with depression at least twice a week, suicidal thoughts. Never spoke to anyone about it, keep it bottled up inside. Tried depression medication before but never really helped. I have a 20 yr old daughter and she's the ONLY reason I don't end it all. Have very few happy moments in life but i always seem to fall right back into my slump. Really wish i would just not wake up everyday, get no satisfaction outta life. My depression has held me back in life with any career or relationship. Now I've recently screwed up most of my friendships and am becoming a loner and have been googling different sites for easy suicide solutions and I'm believe now I'm trying to reach out to anyone who will listen. But I really just want my LIFE over with. |
| Posted by born loser at August 12, 2010 |
I'm an old guy now. I grew up gay...but you're the first one I've told. I grew up in church, knowing that gay was wrong. So...I did the right thing (of course) to not act on my desires. Therefore, although I did the right thing, I now am just alone. Parents: dead. Grandparents: dead. Uncles/Aunts: Dead. No spouse. I started drinkin' just 10 years ago. It helps numb the pain. I don't get close to people--cuz all the ones I loved left me. I put up walls. Now, it is me. Oh...I do own a plant. It looks sick though. I'm now 44 and too healthy to die. So...life sucks big time. The Born Loser. |
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