LIFE SUCKS : 2010 December

I hate my rich friends

i hate my rich friends, but mostly i hate me; i feel like i can do so much and do so many things but because i have no money everything is falling apart. i went to a foreign country last year to learn english and everything went well but, everyone i know feels like i should do great things now because i can speak english but im just a subway worker because i couldnt find another job. i went for an interview and everything but noone called. Now i see all my rich friends and family menber and its terrible because they are in good colleges and im not;

Failure

I typed a huge post only to delete it because I lied in some parts...on an anonymous website. That's lame. Heres the spark notes.
I'm the shit son of the family. My love life has been scared by a long-ago previous relationship where she cheated. It was a serious relationship, with talks of marraige later on in life. I still remember every word of that phone call. I don't know if I'll make it through college, but I have to, or else I become a grunt on the frontlines of the Army instead of an officer. I've only worked as a lifeguard so no one hires me.
I smoke weed and drink to temporarily escape reality. I'm a let down to my father who I would love nothing more than to make proud. I can't hold onto money. Typing this makes me feel better though.
I'm obsessed with the smell of a woman, the feel of her skin. Yet I still am unable to hold onto one for more than a few months.
I wish every pretty girl that walked by me knew me so she would know how awesome I was.
I'm a failure and I only want to be known.

Smoke trees.

older bro get all the love

My dumb older brother get what ever he. Wonts like this christmas my made me speded over 200 bucks to buy A new cell phone and you know what I got was 2 dvd and sock yeah my life fucking suck. And she give give and give but I can't even get 5 bucks for gas when they use my truck I hatge my fucking life.

silent christmas

let me start this by saying, i'm not a fuck up. I'm actually a pretty good kid. I go to one of the top 10 colleges in the nation, I got amazing art and photo talents, I got amazing friends, and I'm good looking. I don't abuse drugs, and I'm the typical kid that parents would be proud of.

so christmas, ah best time of the year. buzz. wrong. I didn't get anything. christmas eve, my family didn't talk. it was literally a "silent" night. I ate left over in my study room. my mom ate cup noodle in her room and my dad ate downstairs. I woke up this morning, with $40 and a car key, my parents r gone for few days and that's my food for money.

yeah they pay for my insane amount of tuition and yeah they miss me and give me everything I want when I'm away in college. But when I'm back home, this is what life is normally like. fights, anger, unhappiness, unsolved problems, blames, internal insanity.

So I'm sitting here watching the 55 inch HDMI plasma TV by myself, while getting texts from ppl saying "merry christmas!!! hope u got everything you wanted and spending great time with the family"

...they have no idea.

u may say "hey it isn't that bad, you are so much better off and they love you" but try spending everyday in this house and you might just get a sense of what loneliness is and just wanting caring and supportive parents who are proud of you.

My story with hope!

I have never come across any sites like this before where I can just write honestly about me and read plights of lonliness and anguish of others so thanks for this oppportunity whoever created it.

Truthfully I am lonely too. It's xmas day and i am wondering what to do with my life. Mid life crisis springs to mind. I am employed as a manager and live in a 1 bd flat alone. I'm a 35 yr old single gay guy that carries on regardless of what life throws at me.

I hope to share a summary of my life/childhood (to whomever reads it) with the hope to urge and inspire other fellow lonlely lost souls to not give up. (I suppose it is also my way of reaffirming this hope to myself and getting it all out of my system!)

Like many of us, I had a crappy childhood, mainly messed up by 13 yrs of sexual abuse by an uncle which I took to court when I was 15(The abuse is NOT the reason I'm gay by the way.... I believe it's because of genetics and nothing else) and parents that gave me a rough start in life with beatings from my mother (Who was raped and convinced the scum is my father so she constantly called me ugly) and my father gave me a very hard time for the trauma I presented to his wife who later became diagnosed with schizophrenia. This family dragged my brothers and I up on a grotty council estate where we were always picked on. I had a lot of fights growing up which was to protect myself. I loathe violence and do my best to prevent it though we can't refr...

dumbass

I have done everything I wanted to do, and now I have chronic pain with 5 bad discs in my neck. pain every minute I am awake. My favorite part of my day is when I am asleep. From a head on car wreck 10 years ago. No insurence except the VA and they wont do a damn thing. Please someone shoot me, I don't have alot but I will give you everything including guns and a nice truck. Just do it already. I'll be waiting. face book Jim smalley.. look for constitution watchdog. I'll put it all in writing, we can meet in the desert somewhere. I know just the place. I am ready to go home. oh yea Merry freaking Christmas.

My dumb ass mom and brother!

Okay im a 13 year old female, my brother is 12 years old. He always hits girls never any fuckin boys, so we got in a fight he tries to punch me in my face and misses so i start pounding on him,then with nothing else to do he FUCKIN BITES MY LEG( which now i am bleedin on) and he starts pulling my hair and and punching me, my mom is trying to stop him and he is pushing her!!!Then she has the fuckin nerve to say '' Dont Punch Him in his head'' WTF!! im getting my ass bitten, hair pulled, and punched!!!! BY A BOY!!! and she doesnt fuckin even care?? then she is fuckin yelling at me!!!! im tried of this fuckin shit every fucking day.. She is taking all my stuff away and lets him get away with EVERYTHING!!! I DONT THINK ITS FUCKING RIGHT TO LET A FUCKING BOY HIT YOUR FUCKING DAUGHTER. But im done... im telling you if this mother fucker hits me one MORE FUCKINGG TIME HE IS DEAD!

Suck

I spend my life not knowing who my father is and growin up getting new step dads and father figures living on my moms minimum wage job watching all the other kids with their families complaining about not gettin enough allowance. Watchin all my fellow students having things bought for them and me workin two jobs just to give my step dad rent money. My first fiancee left me after boot camp, spending most of my enlistment on the ocean cleaning and doin other meaningless jobs to come out of the military depressed and physically fucked. Oh and the depression and anxiety and bad knees and back the navy gave me they won't give me the money to be on the medication they prescribed me I can't afford now that I'm out please shoot me

Life just gets worse

So my life isn't THAT bad, but it is pretty stressful, and that stress just keeps building and building. I wonder when things will start to look up, or get more worse. I grew up in a family that was verbally abusive (my father) I don't look back on that though, my father and I have a good relationship because he "changed" Which he really did. I don't think I've ever been single, but I'm not a floozy. My relationships last years until they finally break apart. I have Trichotillomania, due to something traumatic that happened in my life (I'm not sure what it is) My last boyfriend I met online unintentionally, I love him to death and he loves me, but sometimes he is verbally abusive. I just shrug it off and go throughout my life as normal. Thing is, I used to live in the states, but now I'm in Canada. I can't work, I can't go to school, and I have no friends. I got VERy attached to a cat here. She was my only friend, and she died a sudden death. She had cancer. I took care of her like a baby, she couldn't eat on her own so I had to syringe it. I held her in my arms as she died a week later. I miss her dearly. I attach easily, and detaching is difficult. it just seems like my mental health is deteriorating. we recently got two new kittens. One opened up right away, the other is scared to dath and hiding in a messy junk room. We can't find her, and I don't know when we will. It breaks my heart everyday.

My life

my life has suckt since i was 4 years old people love me and i love them but have never lovdt my self i thouht of suacide since i was 10. ok back to 4 years old people diden't give a danm about me i had one freind ho never helpt me people even pickt on me and only me nobody whantet to now me and i wished i gould get more freinds it was the same the later years hell thouh my life life is hell i crid evey day i was the worst in calss not even the teachers thouht of me i was nothing my life was hard but never has taken drugs or drinkt alkohold if you life just saounds just a lillte famalier just remember you are never alone i am the nicest person i help do what ever i can to make others life a dream thoy my life is a real hell and nobody but my famaly belives me i had hopet for years and years that i whould die some day intil i got a new schol i got a new true freind but people still pickt at me not intil i got on a afterschol i met a girl ho was so beutefil that i fellt in love i found menning that day i was in love in af true love as i ma still in i am 15 and the old memeris are still there hunting me but tho i found the love of my life i diden't dare to say a word to her but my life diden't stop sucking there no some of the boys had to play thout and pick on me agien tho not every day tho throuh this year i got stoll from 3 tmies 2 times bby my friends and the schol closed this year were i where on it. i rote this chrismas nihgt merry christmas

I just can't do it anymore .

It hasn't always been this way ..
There were so many good times ,
but all I can do now is sit around and think about what went wrong.
Some days I just can't take it.
I've been so close to suicide,
what's the point of life?
But I couldn't do that to my family.
No madder how much I can't stand them.
At school I'm invisible,
just a shadow with minimal friends.
When you look at me,
I don't appear that way.
Hell I look happy,
I'm not.
Read between the lines.
This is my cry for help.
Too bad there's nobody to listen.
14 years wasted .

Oh how life sucks

Let me tell you how my life sucks.

I am 56 years old (God only knows how I made it this far).
All my life I've been told that I am ugly. In school I was picked on, teased, and even physically abused. I have been approached by total strangers who have told me how ugly I am. (the memories never go away, for instance once when I was in my early 20's I was at a neighborhood baseball game and a girl came up to me and said "I've seen ugly bastards before but you take the cake." another time while visited Nashville, Tn: I walked into a bar wearing a cowboy hat and the whole place laughed at me and said jeering remarks.. exp "where did I park my horse?"

Even as a man, things have not gotten better. I finally got married (at 47) and my wife has an 18 year old son who is a total nightmare. The only thing I like about my marriage is my dog (but even she doesn't care for me. when ever anyone comes into our house, she wags her tail, barks with glee, and is happier than a pig in shit to see them but when I come home nothing.)

My job sucks the most I have been working at the same job for 25 year (school custodian big deal right!)
I break my ass and get no respect. Let me paint a picture of my job for you. We have 3 lunch periods my boss makes me do them all alone. (clean tables, sweep, throw out garbage, ect) another guy named Louie that I work with doesn't even have to help me. He comes into the lunchroom and stands there eating, W...

really?

Its that time of the year, where giving out gifts or getting them comes into play. I'm doing neither. I don't have the money or ability. It wouldn't bother me so much if I had a close family. For the first time in my life, I can say, I really don't know. I don't know what is instored for me. Life would easier if I just gave it all up. By taking my life, killing myself someway. You know, I called one of those "Suicidal" hotlines tonight. Hoping to get some clarity. The only thing she offered me were a few warm words coming from a good place. I started to think, she has to love her good place. Her job is to help people like me. It must be boring and sometimes fun, depending on the client. I could tell by the stress in her voice, I was boring her.

I've had it all. A great job, great money, all kinds of stuff. Now, I've hit rock bottom. When I thought it couldnt get any worse. Suprise! It does! It couldnt happen in a better month than, gift giving December. Wish someone would give me a gift, to get my car out of lock up. I live in a town where if you don't have a car, your done. You can't do or go anywhere. I'm stuck at home with no love, no friends, no money, no family. My car was taken because I bumped someone earlier that day and left the scene. I didn't think was that serious but obivously it was. 2 weeks before that, I was put in jail for the first time in my life. The cop charged me for a DUI. Earlier that evening, I went to a dinner party and had some very good red wine. I refused the breathlyzer test because I wasn't sure if I would pass it. Hence, jail time! I know that it's hard for a lot of people not just me but all I asking for is some guidance, some help. I've put in countless job applications and submitted tons of resumes. Not one call. Help doesn't like me. Lately, my closest friend has been misery and her cousin depression.

this life sucks

Im 21 i live in a country where women has no right to work what she wants,to say what she thinks or be who she is..and besides that iv chosen the dificult task and passed the limit..im a lesbian but this is not the problem yet,but for sure will be soon,when someone is going to learn about my sexual orientiation.
my biggest problem is my family,my sister 25 just got divorceand my mum is pushing her so bad to marrie again her ex,beacuse of what th epeople would say r think or who wil marry her again...this sucks so bad..home is becomin hell all the preasure and yelling sometimes and beating..i just wish i could take my sister and my niece and go somewhere far away from home..have a job a normal one,and not like here i only get payed 70 dollar a month can u imagine...

My life really suckssss.....

God exists, but He doesn't love you.

God is real, but he is not the God of vengeance or the God of love. We never get even with the ones who really screw us, and love is an illusion and a lie. The people who say they believe in mankind, not God are idiots. Believing in anything will disappoint you. Most of us are bitches and bastards, myself included.

God cares little if we live or die. It's best not to pray and draw attention to yourself. He'll send doom your way, not good fortune. He'd as soon spit in our faces as help us. He helps those who help themselves, and sometimes not even then.

They say He doesn't give us more than we can bear. Bullshit! Look at all the hopeless alcoholics and drug addicts, and the people in mental asylums who'll never be cured. Look at all the people who kill themselves, directly or indirectly. They sure as hell got more than they could bear.

Every day I don't put a gun to my head is a victory, albeit a menaingless one. Sooner or later, death claiims us all. why don't I kill myself? Because I'm a coward, and I'm afraid death will be even worse. If death is indeed nothing but an eternal sleep, at least it's better than this. At least then, we'll all finally have peace.

My life is pretty shitty; most of my problems are self inflicted. I feel so goddamn miserable and sick and lonely as all hell.
I met a girl recently. I had mixed feelings about our burgeoning relationship, but she was incredibly pretty and seemingly sweet. We never even made it off the ground though; per usual, I fucked things up. I stopped hearing from her, and I took it to mean she thought that I was weird(I am pretty goddamn weird). After a while, I went in to see at her work and she was welcoming, and it seemed that she was upset that I had stopped calling. She was a little flighty; I never was to sure where I stood with her.
I got plastered, really plastered, and I got emotional and completely turned her off to the idea of being with me. I told how long it had been since I had been with anyone, and I told how lonely I had been. I made a big scene of it; it was bad. I keep playing it back over and over in my mind, and I know I had to have looked like a big creep. I sick of feeling like a pariah and a fucking goon. I guess I will have to go on being lonely for a while longer.

Hey i'm Tyler. I am 16 almost 17 and my life horribly sucks. I live in Pennsylvania and attend a really lame Christian school :(. I currently have like one friend ( although he's not really much of a friend ). I have never had a girlfriend, never kissed a girl, I am a virgin. I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes on Jun. 2, 2010. It has drastically changed my life. On top of that I have heart disease and high blood pressure. Don't get me wrong im very healthy and strong, but my future does not look bright. I am currently having some urinary problems that might need surgery, which I am very worried about. I inject 6 insulin shots in myself daily along with a strict diet and I have to use a blood glucose monitor 6-7 daily. My parents are so religious and it embarrasses me. Sometimes i feel like my family hates me because i am "the rebel." I just wish life was different and more fun. Because of all my health problems i am afraid very much for my future. I known this story doesn't sound so bad but believe me it is. There has been alot going on thorough my whole life and i feel like committing suicide. I dont want to live life like this.

i feel like ignored

I m a girl of 19.plz dont laugh while reading coz i m not enough matured. my every thing is good. i m good looking but having dark complexon. no figure.I m just 5ft 3 inch..29-25-30 figure.....I m clever but i dont dare to to do anything. i wanted to do so many things but i dint have self confidence. my hairstyle never matches to me. my english is very poor.i have only one best friend till now.

when i was in first year i had so many friends but some clashes happened in second year and now i m completely alone. my classmates i mean girls tease me. not all other but only 5 girls are those. due to them i cant even concentrate on my goals. i alwats feel like disturbed.
I have little childish nature. i do friendship with everyone very soon but cant continue it. i dont have even a bit of ego so there always happen ego clashes with me and my mates. i dont have dressing sense. no confidence.I m always very friendly with others.and never weired.i dont have leadership qualities.
I WANT SOME ADVICE CAN U GUYS PLZ HELP ME I AM SICK AND HELPLESS.

my so called life

every day my ife is the same , is so fucking boring , am tired of go to school , and have perfect grades, am tired of never skept a class , am tired of be a zombie, who does everything like a routine. i used to e happy befre , i had so many friends , i had a bestfriend , and a life that changed everyday and smiles and exciment , but then my family moved to this country , and mylife became a vivid hell that is always burning me. at the beginning everything was untouchable , i didnt felt any change just loneliness, i felt this empty space in me , but it didnt hurt , not a bit. i didn understand what people said , the english was a foreing language to me, that i didnt want to learn nor speak , i was in my own world pretending to be there at home, yet happy, but i woke up of that fantasy when i began highschool. i noticed that people there spoke my language s i tried to be invisible so people wont see my presence there , but they saw me , and they tried to tal to me and to be my friends, i accepted them , idk why , they are good friends but i still feeling incomplete they talked about the same , they look the same , and to make things worse i like this boy who doesnt even like me or respct me , am tired of this am tired of be me , i wanna switch with someone , see wht it is like not to be me at least for a day . i wanna go bsck 10 months and have the chance to choose everything again , if that were possible i would be in cuba , laughing at my friend's jokes and having a great moment , but what can i do , this is my so called life, and i cant go away or dissapear, but still i wish i could do it .

FUCK everything!

Lately I have really tryed to become a better person, but nothing seems to work, I cant do anything right, because Im a fucking failure. My mother is out all day or drunk or yelling at me, leaving me to care for my 3 younger siblings, Im not a parent, Im only 15! Yeah, Ive givin up my social life, but sometimes Id like to do things too, my moms old boyfriend raped me last year, which makes it hard to trust people, I was fostercare for 4 years, but my mom got me back a couple years ago, I have no idea though, Its not like she really wants me here anyways, my counsler is the biggest bitch ever! She is really stuck up, and I feel like shes laughing at me. The friends I have now, only use me, or just talk shit about me, I spend most nights online or just sleeping. I have a terrible eating disorder and cutting addiction that I cant stop. I put the only person that would listen to me in jail, well I mean he did have the guns, but still, I always think about it and wonder if I could have changed anything. I regret ever being born. Im just feeling really clingy, I just want someone to hold me and listen to me.