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| Posted by anonymous at January 25, 2011 |
So here is my story. Im 21 couldnt celebrate it. I have a daughter with a girl i dont love. I have no job i have no education. Not even a ged. I have no money. I was once the most popular handsome kid in my city (1 of them) i was really popular. None of my friends wanna come over cuz of "the screaming baby". I cant do anything right at all. Nothing that had to do with luck goes my way ever. Im tired of life. Bored and depressed. I live with my parents. Over bearing at alllllll times. Whatever forget about the rest now im just crying over stupid shit |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 24, 2011 |
My life is shit my friends are like 2 years younger than me they've all had sex and I haven't even kissed a boy,I'm so ugly and fat compared to them they always get boys fancing then nd I just feel so left out and I don't know whar to do iit upsets me so bad:/ the boys that fancy them always talk to me about it nd i end up liking them aaaaah fml. |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 24, 2011 |
Today my boyfriend nailed me. Again. It's not pleasureable, I must say. He took my virginity couple of month ago, telling me for prove that I love him. I'm live in a country that virginity is regarded sacred and it's a duty for a girl to keep it until marriage. I don't know why I let him did it back then, maybe I've been love-drunk or something. Anyway from the first time I had sex it's always hurt. He force me to do blowjob and make me doing things, weird sex position like in the porn movies, well in fact most of the time he ask for sex after watch a porn movie. I hate it but I can't do anything about it. I can't tell it to someone because it will be bad, my parents will kill me if they know I'm not virgin anymore. I don't want to be married with my current boyfriend but I don't think there will be a man that want to marry me because of the culture of my country. I feel so bad I cry almost everyday. |
| | Posted by The plasmaguy at January 24, 2011 |
4 Yrs ago I resigned from a six figure salary because I wanted more out of life than punching a clock and making someone else rich. So I decided that I could go into business for myself. Little did I know that The economy and my world would come crashing down on me and keep my head pinned in the sand. I started with an initial investment of 100k in a con-mans investment sceem. this started my downward spiral. 4 years later I am still trying to recover and maintain my faith in a higher being, justice and my fellow man. However what I have come to learn is that there is no justice for manking....There is just you and the world...I break my back day in and day out trying to provide for my family and not take advantage of other people.....but what I am seeing is that it seems as if the guys that are willing to take advantage are the ones that seem to have all of the success. I am just so depressed and sad right now I don't know what to do. It's pitiful Iknow, but it is what it is right now. I just need some light at the end of this tunnel..please held.....
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| | Posted by pathedic loser at January 24, 2011 |
Its very hard to be optimistic when my life stays shitty. I'm a 32 year old single parent female, I have three kids two baby daddys both who have abused me raped me and treated me like crap. I had a decent job til about a year ago I lost it and now I work a crappy job barely get by. I lost my dad 8 years ago and since then my 72 year old mother has been very hard to deal with. To be honest I've never felt very loved my whole life and I yearn for anyone to love me. I'm not very pretty but I'm not the ugliest I don't think it doesn't matter if I was because I'm easily taken advantage of because I'm always tryna help everyone out. I want to be inlove so bad I think I imagine being inlove all the time and no matter how bad a man treats me I claim I love them. I have mad trust issues with good reason because I've never had a good reason to trust anyone. I have bad anger I can feel the anger in my bones it hurts so much. I've found myself in a relationship of 6 months where he has beat me up once but he calls me names and makes me feel like garbage and I have good reason to believe he is cheating and I can't help but believe he is only with me because of money car ect. My whole family hates me part of it because I'm a white girl who is only attracted to black men and my kids are mixed. My two oldest children are 13 11 year old girls who argue with me and don't take me very seriously. I have a crappy house car and I dropped out in 12th grade of high school I've tried to go back I'm jus not capable of it. I've pretty much fucked my whole life up. I'm constantly wishing I was dead or thinking bout killing myself and I cry myself to sleep like every nite. No friends either no one to talk to no one cares |
| | Posted by XxSucideUnicornxX at January 23, 2011 |
everyone i love has died, but god wont kill me..hes such a ass. end of story goodbye |
| | Posted by XxSucideUnicornxX at January 23, 2011 |
my bad luck started happening about a year ago. I had my wonderfull boyfriend who loved me so much, and a month later I dumped him for this one guy, because i never saw my boyfriend and he rarely talked to me. so i left him for my best friend who i was in love with from the first time i saw him. we dated for about 3 months and i was sure he was the one. then his cousin who liked me went on his facebook account and dumped me and told me that he cheated. I wouldnt of cared if he cheated or not, cause i cheated on him once and he forgave me. the next time i talked to him he said it was all a lie and that was his cousin that said that.but i didnt belive him. then he dissaperd and i havent talked to him since.
After that i went therw 3 or 4 other guys which failed.I want my ex back but I never see him and last I herd he had a new girl and they were planing on getting married. :(. I thought I wouldnt miss him after 6-9 months, but its been allmost a year now and i still cry myself to sleep missing him more and more. and now i remeber this one guy i met when i was with the 2nd guy and i loved him more then anyone, but he killed himself because he couldn't stand to see me with any other guy besides him, (i know this cause i read his sucide note.
Now i got a new guy that loves me, but i still miss my first one and the dead one, and no one likes me anymore cause a long time ago when i cheated. |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 23, 2011 |
Going to rant here a bit but i hope some of you read this and help me out.
I'm 18 years old and i dont have anything going for me. Growing up i was always very shy, never really ever talked to girls growing up, didnt even have my first kiss until i was 17, almost 18. My first girlfriend i was with for 5 months turned out to be insane and she ruthlessly broke my heart when i was madly in love with her. Cutt off contact with her tho completely, haven't talked to her in months. I do a lot of drugs and thats really one of the only things in life that i enjoy. I smoke pot and cigs daily, drink alcohol whenever i can (steal my mom and stepdads liquor whenever i get the chance to, and they know i do) I feel like im lazy and hate working. My job sucks, and i haven't even been working lately. The ride there is 2 hours and the ride back is usually 3 hours with no pay. Not to mention i only make 8$ an hour doing mexican work. I got my learners permit in June 2010 right after i turned 18 but in my state they make you wait 9 months to be able to get your licence. I was charged with possesion of marijuana in October 2010 and got a 400$ fine and 6 months suspension of my licence, so now i have to wait even longer before i can drive. I've applied for so many jobs and nothing is hiring. My mother and stepfather whom i live with are both hardcore alcoholics, they drink every single day and my mom is trashed every single night, so i try to just stay in my room whenever i am home. ... |
| | Posted by nerd at January 23, 2011 |
I have been ignored by the last 5 girls i showed interest, my family hates me i have a underpaid job living with my uncle's house. I am 24 years old and haven't achieved anything in my fucking life. Im fucking ugly |
| | Posted by useless at January 23, 2011 |
Life sucks.
Shipped off to boarding schools and summer camps so the elite little jerks could use me as a patsy for all the meanest pranks ever.
Grade school had 2 teachers FIRED for being abusive to boys in class.
High school, failed, sent to high end prep school on a dish-washing scholorship. Love the abuse thrown at me by the little turds. The dean would send me to detention for walking on the grass.
Barely passed high school, had to earn last english credit the summer after I graduated. I was handed a blank diploma and not allowed to stand with my class.
Married right out of high school to a cheating bitch. 13 months of marriage and 22 months of divorce. Lost everything. Literally walked out of laywer's office because car was reposessed.
Worked a long string of dead end jobs for crappy pay for empty headed morons who would boast how much salary they made. Then send me to go clean the dumpster. I kid you not.
2nd wife, even worst than the 1st. I made the mistake of having children with this demon-bitch-cast-out-of-hell. 2 beutifull babies turned against me by that thundercunt. Divorce lasted 3 3/4 years. Lost everything again. Lived in a box made of pallets under a shipping dock (in secret) where I worked for a year. Fired by a surfer-boy idiot who makes over 100k annually because I wasn't dressed they way he thought I should be.
Demon-bitch worked for department of human services and spent the rema... |
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| Posted by chris at January 23, 2011 |
Sitting in Iowa.... That should just about sum it up... lol
5 years ago at work I hurt my shoulder, after that they kept working me full force with only my left arm. I was left handed after all.
Then my left arm went out. Then the swelling from the right arm caused my carpal tunnel to act up. So another surgery. Then both arms needed to be redone because the insurance company is in such a hurry to fix me that they didn't let my shoulder heal before the surgery. All in all I had 6 surgerys.
I settled with the insurance company and 2 days later my newborn throws a fit and rerips the left shoulder.
Now I am looking for work and guess what there are no jobs for people that feel great. What is the chance someone is looking for someone with multiple shoulder surgerys. I was a manager when I got hurt. I wouldn't hire me.
Anyway thanks,
Chris |
| | Posted by eric at January 23, 2011 |
I've been divorced twice;
I am bankrupt;
I suspect I will be losing my job in the future because of the bankruptcy;
I have no brothers or sisters, parents are dead;
I have no faith, thoughts of church or handing my life over to religion gives me the creeps;
I have been through the counseling, anti-depressive drug routine which hasn't worked (therapy of course, costs money);
I have no hobbies because hobbies cost money (everything costs);
I have no friends because of my social anxiety (from a dysfunctional childhood);
My father was an alcoholic to which I am susceptible, the only reason I believe I'm not is that I can't afford to buy it;
I have no retirement fund any more as I used it to pay off the mortgage on my previous house where the children live with the ex;
Every week I worry that I will have enough money to buy enough gas to get to work;
The apartment hasn't seen more than 60 degrees in the winter because I can't afford the heating bill;
I can't provide my children (2) with a secure future, the only hope there is that I die while still employed so that they will get the insurance;
The ex has a low paying job and the phone has been disconnected once already due to no payment and the heating oil company has stopped service pending more payments;
Every night I hope I will just not wake up
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| | Posted by anonymous at January 23, 2011 |
Let's start out. When i was 8 my mother went nuts and has been on pluto since then. I grew up being artsy fartsy and everyone telling me to conform. My parents divorced when I was 11. I turned into a thief, conman and drug addict and habitual bad student from then on. I've dreamed about running away or killing myself or some other form of suicide like a sex change. I cheated on my girlfriend all through high school. I have had stds. I dropped out of high school. I dropped out of college. I dropped out of the Army. I knocked a dumb lsd slinging flakey hippy dip shit up 3 times! I married her stupid ass. I went straight and became an at home father with small side handyman work here and there. She made the bacon and was in business management. After 10 years she gets popped for embezzlement. She leaves me because I can't pick up the ball she dropped and complains we will always be poor. I have paid off 60K in credit card debt of hers in full twice and the third time I said hell no. We were screwed over and out of 25K from a real estate deal gone bad. I am now divorced. I do not see my kids. I live 3000 miles away from them. I live with my father who is a complete asshole. I am 32 and I have a high school diploma, no savings, no health insurance, no life insurance and no job. Trashed credit. I can't even open a checking account because my ex fucked that all up. I can't even buy my own clothes. I am in arrears of $2000 in child support. I ran out of gas the other day drivi... |
| | Posted by emo at January 23, 2011 |
well, i dont know why life is so cruel to me .
Shitt..
I'm tired of being me.
I don't love my self.
I don't care what people said anymore. |
| | Posted by S at January 23, 2011 |
I just need to vent here (sorry, English is not my first language).
I got raped when I was just 16, and having to live a traumatized childhood is already exhausting for me. In school, I didn't really have many friends so I spent my years eating alone in the canteen or inside the classroom.
Then I met this guy when I was 18, got pregnant and was looking forward to have a future with him. I wouldn't mind working my ass off to provide a better life for my new family. However, after three months, he told me he couldn't afford it hence; the abortion. Then a week later, he went off with another girl and I was left alone feeling guilty (due to the loss of the baby) and was crushed with fake hopes and promises. And it was very painful to do the abortion. He promised to NEVER leave me, but yes..he did.
Time passed, I began venturing into the modeling industry. Everything was great and after two years experience, I was offered the job as an Event Planner. Then, things got worse. I got accused for money swindling and having to mistreat the models. I didn't know what to do but I did try to explain to the Tourism Board and some sort of Government association..but to no avail. One of the girls wanted to sue me, I had to beg for a chance and finally, I got fired. Much worse, I got blacklisted in my country's Tourism Board; which means my name is pretty much ruined, I can't organize anymore events, can't attend any of them, can't invest, etc. The thing is, I ... |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 23, 2011 |
Grew up with abusive drug induced parents, who often took it out on me as well as each other.
Due to circumstance, I recall moving around 30 times from age 5 to 12, which left very little room for friends or school. I can barely remember those parts of life.
I finally settled down for High School and told myself I would make something of myself. Though an outcast because I was poor, and wasn't popular, I still took the classes to prepare for college, went to church, and kept my head up.
When I applied for college, I wasn't eligible for most assistance, and I couldn't get loans because my parents (now gone) used my ssn for loans and such. I soon dropped out due to overwhelming credit hour requirements to fulfill loan qualifications and working 60+ hours a week.
I met a girl once, a serious girl, who I was with, traveling for 4 yrs. She finally found someone new one day and for whatever reason, had me put away in a psych ward for being "depressed and suicidal" which if were true, I wouldn't have been here today to write this.
I roamed around from place to place trying to get by, odd jobs, trains to new towns and looking to fit in. I'm 30 years old now and nothing much has changed, I haven't stayed in one place more than a couple years, I never seem to attract people, I'm unsure how to be social. I never really feel like I fit in. I'm keen at observing people around me, like happy little birds in a puddle, but I've never really felt happy. When I thought I was, I still had doubt, so I know I wasn't.
Some people have it worse - I just feel like maybe someone else struggles to see sunshine like me. Antidepressants are a joke too. SSRI's and the lot of them. Nothing works. Therapy seemed like they tried to Force happiness into me like shoving a pie in my face.
I wish I could be someone else for a change. |
| | Posted by KoPuff at January 23, 2011 |
Life was all well and good for me up until the 3rd grade when my 20 year old half brother died in a car wreck. I loved him just as a brother and had grown up idolizing him. After loosing a child my mother became very depressed and began drinking again after 12 years of sobriety. Even as a child I could see my mother and father drifting apart. Only one year later my father admitted he had been cheating on my mom and that he wanted a divorce. Not only that, a lifetime of smoking had caught up with my mom and she had been put on oxygen. My mother and I moved out and went to live with my psychotic grandmother who lived 2 hrs away, anytime this women didn't get her way she would badmouth the hell out of us and it always ended up in her blaming my mom for her own sons death. By the time we moved out my mom's mind was worn, at nerves end I guess you could say. We got our own place and things seemed to be going pretty smooth. In 8th grade shit just went straight to hell, my 26 year old sister with three kids died in a car wreck, so now my mom, not only lost one kid but two by the same fate. My sister was a dumbass and put in her will that those kids would go to her friend. My mom got to see those kids three times before her friend decided to stop bringing them to visit due to my other brothers crazy pill head gf calling up the friend that the kids went to and telling her my mom was on drugs. My mother began doing numerous anti depressants and stopped paying attention to me. Then... |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 23, 2011 |
When i was fifteen, i got pregnant. I stayed with the guy for three years; things werent working so I left. I jumped right into another relationship and immediately got pregnant. Things were great the first two and a half years. Then i figured he was messing around behind my back. Obvious signs of cheating. I stayed because I was not financially stable. Meanwhile, hes in and out of jobs and i am going bankrupt trying to support all three of us.... at the same time going to school.. More cheating on his end- he wont ever admit to it though... now two kids into this relationship and im wondering whatever happend to my life? How did i end up this way? I just caught him flirting with another girl and i am getting pretty tired of this....if i didnt have kids with him i would leave already- but im staying for the kids- trying to work things out with him... but i have this feeling that i will regret this and am wasting my time... Now i am just restless and always feeling like im incomplete...im trying to forget the past but it keeps creeping on me and i end up wondering whatever happened to my life? I think i just need some alone time... |
| | Posted by raideret at January 23, 2011 |
We all mess up n or lifes but it seems no matter what i do i can't do nothing right.it just seems when u try and do good someone or something brings u down. So i rather Be lonely and misserable |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 22, 2011 |
So my life sucks.... My mom is an ex-druggee and when I was in high school I had to work like crazy to help pay the bills cause she couldnt afford it because of her habits.... During that time my dad and his new family refused to achnoledge that my sister and I exsisted.... Mom got cleaned and we had to move... Then she meets a dead beat loser (that she is still with) who makes my entire family stop talking to us... Now I moved away for college and both parents are supposed to help me pay for school... Instead they are arguing through me saying that neither will help me because they both hate each other.... FML .... AHHHHHHHHHHHHH |
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