LIFE SUCKS : 2010 June

I wanna go back.

Well... My mother died and my dad left me... but that stuff really doesn't sting anymore. Right now I'm in love witht the most wonderful guy you could ever meet. But there are so many complications. WE can never see each other. His mom hates my family. And his dad is just a douche. He's moving in August and he has a chance to stay back but he's afraid of his parents.. I just wanna go back to the carefree life when i was a child.

After College Life..............

I passed out of college last year, and join my job in 2 month. Now Its idiotic project, stupid friends (Sorry colleague), non existing boyfriend and poor salary.
for past 1 year I did not gt any 1 to speak my heart out. My friends in company try to dance on my head. Its only because I don't want to be lonely thats why I stay with them. Its been a year to my distance relationship. And every one knows how difficult this thing to maintain. My conversation to my parents is confined to my health report, I can't make them understand my office problem. Boyfriend, this poor chap is himself strangled by his boss, so felt better leave him alone. So I am all alone, no 1 to talk. Really life sucks bigtime!!!!!!!!!!!

Trying to conceive sucks

Well i have just got of the phone from my clinic and they tell me yet again i am not pregnant, i just want to curl up and die. Why can stupid druggo sluts get pregnant and someone that is finacial secure, loving and desperately wants to have a family get told sorry maybe next time. I have been trying to conceive (TTC) for 4 years now. And during that time we find out that hubby has low sperm count, i have endometriosis and then to make matters worse i get a cyst on my ovary and had to have that removed, they say the only way we can get pregnant is with IVF, well we have just had our 2nd failed attempt and still no baby. What the fuck did i do in a past life to be dealt a shitty hand. What the fuck is wrong with this world when kids out there are having babies, or people that bludge of the govt sit at home with 5 kids and dont even look after them. fuck it just sucks

Life sucks

I grew up at a small town with many many other children in my street.
I was around 7 or 8 and i got bullied alot. I was strong, but i couldn't take it. They took my stuff, called me this ''bad'' word which i really really didn't like. I hated life, they threw snowballs at our house when there was snow and made me insane. I even attacked them with several things but nothing changed until . . .

They stopped, they realised that this wasn't right.
From that day on, those kids at my street acted nice,cool and i became friends with them. 7 years later here i am. 15 years old. My mother had breastcancer 5 years ago, i haven't cried since i was 9. I didn't even cry when my mother had breastcancer. Now i'm 15 and kinda got ''addicted'' to the Computer Monitor aswell. I'm lost from humanity, i used to be social, now i'm not. I don't get on path to meet new people, new friends for some reason i let them come to me. I think twice now, nowadays i started training and became more stronger. People respected me but i just realised that i couldn't confront what actually would happen if i didn't train myself.
I fuck'd up my high school, i'm from school and have vacation now.
I don't know how i will think or act when i don't graduate tomorrow.
Life sucks, that's right. This shitty system here in Holland gonna call me tomorrow if i will graduate or not. Its a pain in the ass. Life's a bitch.

I don't have alot of friends, i'm pretty cool. But people does...

I HATE HIM!!!!

My dad is such a selfish spiteful fucking CUNT! He wasn't around much when i was a kid, coz he knocked my mum up 4 months after meeting her and didn't give a fuck about either of us. Then my mum got cancer when i was 4 and he had to come look after us, and they got married a few weeks before my mum died when i was 6. I was at my grandparents the night she died and I was the last one to know! even my fucking school friends knew before me! First thing he did after she died was take down all the pictures of her and refuse to let me talk about her. He made me go to school the DAY AFTER she died! Then within a few months he got a new girlfriend who slept in my mums bed in MY MUMs PJs!!!! Then when they broke up he met this psychobitch and he wud sent me to my mates houses so he cud fuck her and play happy familys wiv her daughter. When i was 11, the police raided my house and i was sent to live wiv his mum and dad who hate me coz i "ruined his life".

the next day he sat me down and told me psychobitch had had a baby a year ago and he was the dad. but i wud never meet my sister coz she was put up for adoption after psychobitch tried to kill her then petrol bombed social services when they wudn't give baby back to psycho. then he told me the police raided coz he is going to prison coz he is a fucking paedo! I want to be clear: he never touched me. Only coz I'm a girl tho. He prefers little boys.

Long story short, I was put on the child abuse register undwer Emo...

Is my mum a cow or is it just me?

I thought I'd try this as a way to vent out my feelings. I am 22 years of age I moved out of home when I was 18 (pretty standard) but over a period of 4 years fell into rapid decline financially, emotionally and physically. I owe it to my mum for letting me come back home but things have gone downhill since then as well. My mother is a narcisistic, career obsessed hypocrit, I feel that the only reason she let me come back is because she needs to feel in control of others to feel good about herself. Her face looks worn and miserable and everytime I try to have a decent conversation with her she immediately snaps at me as though she is looking for a fight.

I do have dreams and aspirations but I cannot talk with her about them because she will always find a reason to cast doubt on me instead of trying to encourage me with positive thinking. Every afternoon she does the same routine which involves sitting in her chair like it's a throne with a glass of wine in her hand and with her laptop on her lap, when I walk by she will glare at me and then start barking orders at me while telling me that I can't do anything right. While I am living with her I pay my share of the rent but my sister who is 21 and used to sleep over 5 nights a week never paid anything and constantly kept asking for money to buy cigarettes.

As pathetic as it may sound I do feel like I have backed myself into a corner as she asserts so much control over me. I am scared to have friends over...

what happened to me?

my last date was 1year and half ago.

I've been unemployed for 13weeks of 18weeks. (not on purpose)

I'm 30, female, lives at home. The only job I manage to get is casual, contracted for 5weeks.

No gurantee of work after, and for the first time in my life, I cannot find a full-time job and I am so depressed.

I am 30year OLD female, can't even find a full-time job(I've even tried for factory works etc), last date I can't remember and last boyfriend is an ancient history...

True. It could be worse. But, I feel so useless and unattractive as a person right now it sucks.

More crappy stories

So I used to be so smart. At least I was known by that, even if people didn't like me. I hate people. They are hypocritical, superficial, and fake.
Being 'social' just means being able to kiss other people's butts and playing stupid games. Because I refuse to do that, I am stuck-up, rude or antisocial.
Screw everyone.
Anyway, I used to bury myself in books, learning, and work.
But then I got depressed, had panic attacks. So now I'm on antidepressants, anxiety meds. And somewhere along the way, I became stupid.
Now I'm stupid, ugly, fat, working a crappy job even though I have 2 degrees.
And there's not a single good thing in my life. I moved to California with my boyfriend, left everything else behind in Arizona. And my boyfriend hates me.
Every decision I've made has sucked. Nothing means anything.

Wow. Life is so crappy.

So my life entails waiting and waiting and waiting for something good to happen. Every day gets worse and then then I wish it was the day before because it seemed better than today.
I gained 100 pounds over the last couple of years. When I weighed 135, I was miserable and I thought I was fat. I wished I was 125. Then I weighed 150, then 160, 170, 180. Then I hit 200. It's unbelievable when I look in the damn mirror. It's disgusting. The thing is, I felt just as disgusting when I weighed 135. Now I weight 245.
Ponder that. I ran a marathon 2 years ago and I hated myself because I was a fat chick trying to run. Now I can't even walk up the stairs.
I wish I would get killed on the freeway, or get squashed in an earthquake.
But next year I'll probably weight 300 lbs, then I'll wish I looked the way I look now.
I have a super good looking boyfriend and he refuses to have sex with me. We've been together for 3 years, and we dated for a while ten years ago.
The sex was awesome. Now he won't even look at me. I don't blame him. But damn, there's gotta be someone out there that get turned on by fat chicks.
I hate everything about the way I look, people think I'm a bitch.
I'm lonely as hell. And I live in Orange County, CA where everyone is white, skinny, and rich.
My life sucks!!!!!!

Whatever Can Go wrong will...

Where to start.... hmmm I am a 16 year old girl... when i was much younger me and my brother were taken from my mom by my real dad and were abused badly by him. He was an alcoholic... In fact everytime he drank things got worse... During this time my mom and dad(step) were trying to find us... Thank god they got us back or we would have been dead... around 2 years ago when I was in 8th grade My grandpa came to live with us... He was abusive verbally, Mentally, and emotionally... He loved to play mindgames...Me and my mom were the ones he went after the most and we stood up to him the most and finally he left... After he left he started saying really bad crap about our family because he was disturbed... Not so bad right?? During this time I was dealing with alot... A really good family friend had just freakin died... ( my first funeral was 4th grade)... Fast forward to this year... During spring break I met the most amazing guy ever!The day after I met this guy I fiund out a friend that i have known for 8 years (since 2nd grade) Commited suicide...I still miss him terribly... Oh and the guy had a girlfriend and lied to me about it... And I lost my bff of 4 years because of her bros psycho gf...

when this will finish ??

Hey ... i'm Joodi ...
i finished my study of medicine that year.. i spent all my life between books till now..
so i don't have any friends or any relations ... feeling myself socially stupid.. i failed in making friends or having a boyfriend cuz i don't have the talent of accepting people .. i can't talk freely with people, i always feel that all people around are lairs and empty .... even my family hate me, they always said that i don't know how to talk & they failed in raise me up ....
in-addition to all of that,, i couldn't continue my residency... no one university accepted my application.. i feel so bad coz i'm staying at home waiting any chance for residency anywhere,, while all my colleges have started their residency programs

Life sucks

I don't know why but I feel depressed all the time. My parents are both crazy and will beat my ass for little as talking, school sucks, friends aren't even good ones everyones makes Finns me and to top it off I don't have anybody to talk to. I feel like a ucking loser just posting this shit on the Internet.

Life

I am only thirteen years old. I think I may be suicidal, or at least depressed. I used to cut myself, but stopped because I didn't want my parents to find out. I could really lose a few pounds, but my friends all say I'm skinny. I have the scariest thoughts. Not scary like a horror film, but scary because they are so sad. I think of ways to commit suicide, dream of myself actually doing it, but I know that I will never be able to follow through with it. I have plenty of friends, but no matter who I am with, I always feel alone. I don't fit into my parents view of what a good child should be. They think I listen to the wrong music, dress oddly, and that my wants for the future aren't right. They don't know what goes on in my head, and I don't think they realize how entirely messed up I am.

...Sucky Start.

Well, I'm not smart at all.
There is nothing good about me other than the outside appearance.
Everyone thinks I'm ultra smart, and this wise philosopher; but, in actuality, I'm really stupid.
I suck at high schooL, math has totally ruined my life.
I've failed Algebra IB, and Geometry IB...
Not only does my life suck balls at school, so does my dad.
My dad is horribly annoying, never met anyone worst.
So bottom line life sucks at school considering the fact that I'm a retard, and life sucks at home cause my dad is a very angry little man.
My motherfcukingg life SUCKKKKS!

A freind or not a freind

I live in nieghbor hood and me some other boys became friends but at school it was diffrent story. the act like you are peice of crap and get treated as such. I picked beat up but afeind helped me once his was Lamar and another helped once alos and his name was Micheal. I could becuase of Muscular Dystrophy and they took up for me. I never got beat again after they became my freinds. When i moved it sarted over again but a guy large guy came up I was scared then another boy hit and his was Mark Ledbetter. He took up until he grautated not safe anymore why do folks think if you siabled that they pick on you? My was fine and it also sucked

I hate my life

You know, i just realized by now, MY LIFE SUCKS.
it's just that, i was thinking how my other popular schoolmates feel about themselves. and they feel good because they get like whatever they want(rich), they can get the girl/guy of their dreams(good looking), and they arent shy at gym class shower time. Man, i'd do anything to be them. I'm ugly, fat, and i know we arent that rich and i'm even lucky to have this mini notebook(yes it's a notebook, except its smaller). I just wish sometimes i wasn't even born, or i was born to a better family, you know, stinkin rich, good genes. I really just HATEHATEHATEHATEHATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i'm just so sad and depressed. i dont know what to do anymore. I can't even point out a single good thing in my life. i just hate my life. i hang out with nerds, see all the coolboys either th girls or playing basketball an stuff, having a good time, while me and my friends just sit by the tree and do our schoolwork, them talking about some nery shit. i used to dont get why i hang out with them, i mean, i'm in the volleyball varsity team, i'm in the star section, i can play the piano and guitar but why cant i be cool? i was so frustrated. then i just turned to the mirror and knew, it was because i'm fat and ugly. fat and ugly im fat and ugly fat and ugly. i cant even dress properly because i dont have that much clothes. no extra money to spend on clothes. i even wear shorts like 5 times before they can be classified as laundry, shi...

notitle

First off, I just wanna say that my life isn't nearly as bad as other people's is. I know that. I just needed to get out of my head for a while, if you know what I mean. So here we go.

My main problem with life isn't even life. It's people. I fucking hate the people around me. Not everyone. There are a few exceptions of course. But I fucking hate people. Everywhere I look I see self-obsessed douchebags who would rather kick you than help you up off the ground. Part of this stems from my own personality, my own ways of interacting with people. I am, in a few words, "nice". Everyone around me is a dick and I think to be nice and I still get no fucking credit for it. People even tell me that I'm "too nice". I agree one hundred fucking percent. Why don't I tell a great little story about what being nice gets me?

There is this kid that I know, that I became really close with over my freshman year of high school. Let's call him "David". David and I were close. I also became close with a girl. Let's call her "Susie". I really liked Susie, maybe even loved her. We flirted every day, we talked a lot, and I thought she liked me too. I told my friend David about these feelings. He goes and asks out Susie. So, like a fucking nice guy, I tell him it's fine. He doesn't even bother to fucking let me know and I tell him it's fine. Now David and I have our own little group of friends, and don't ask me how but I can start to see that maybe David, my close friend, doesn't ...

life sucks

my life sucks. i feel trapped. i feel ugly fat tall so msny oyher stuff. i hsve s mother tht chosse a guy over her one and only daughter. i have a dad tht has been in jail before i was born. people tell me he loved me and many stuff about him. i feel tht if he loved he would have left. when they talk to me about him i feel bad inside. i feel tht i love him but feel like if its hard to forgive him. i have lived so many years bad tht i want my father i dont have so many other stuff, then i have a grNDMa tht aways talks shit tht says i dont know how to do anything tht i am stupid tht i am fat and this and tht. i just feel like leaving from all this bullshit i wish i was really never borned. but i guess u aways have to keep on even if ur ife sucks or not. cuz there is worse people died 7 yeard old younger and many other people tht have sickness or some one died tht they live. well bye

My lifea

Im 25 a mother of 2 and a wife. I have a twin sister that is nothing like me! we used to be close but now were not. I also have a younger sister and she is a peice of shit. Both my sisters have kids. My mom basically raises them. My dad works to provide for all 6 of them on his income only. I wanted more kids i am a great mom but when i had my son i lost vision in my eyes. Too risky the docs say. I hate how a woman can lay in a bed and have sex and get pregnant and just give that kid away. I hate how the system works its redicilous. Man if i could have just one more it would be awsome. I have a daughter also. She is actually my step daughter. Ive had her since birth. The mom is a peice of shit that chose her boyfriend. I was a senior in high school when we first got her and i basically took over when my husband was too lazy to deal with her. I know this sounds selfish but i feel that my son was robbed. I had my daughter and i had to take all the attention off of my newborn to take care of someone elses child. I am a very aggravated person i get adjated very easily. I take it out on my husband way too much. He thinks that a marriage should not have arguements at all. when we do its divorce divorce divorce. I hate it i cant stand it much longer. I hate everyting about myself. i resently went on a diet because i thought my husband thought i was fat. There is not intimate relationship. When i want sex he doesnt want it. I have to basically wait till he is ready and that is usually around his masterbation habbit he has. I feel second. I am worthless to him i dont do anything right. I hate my life. I lost about 20 pounds and i thought that would change the way he looks at me but i was wrong. Im just venting.

lonely

Im 26 and never been inlove until recently i met this guy at facebook,he is friends with some of my friends so I was interested to talk to him since we have common people in our lives.It was just a a friendly chat,until we exchange numbers then he started texting and calling me daily,asking how i am or simply just to hear my voice..I started to fall for him since he really makes me happy..we started treating each other as a couple..but the thing is,he already has a family,but currently his wife and kid lives in another city.he always tells me that he is more into me than to his wife.he never felt so inlove with anyone but me..i tried to control my feelings cause I know that this will just cause alot of problems.but as time goes by.Im beginning to feel that I really love him..last night with had a big fight..he came to my city just to see me but I refused to for some valid reasons,he became upset and told me that he made some sacrifices just to see me..I explained to him that I dont want our relationship to go any further,i just want it the way it use to be..he got upset and asked me since we wont be seeing each other if he can go out with his ex,since we are both from the same city..this totally made me so mad,I told him to do whatever he wants cause i dont care,although it really made me cry..but this morning he called me to apologize about what happened last night and told me that he did not go out with his ex..but the worst part is,his wife and kid flew all the way here to be with him..he told me that he will come to see them and i said its ok..but its already night time but I still havent heard anything from him..i never felt so sad cause I got used to him calling me several times a day..Ive been thinking maybe he changed his mind and whatever we have is already over..I just cant accept that it will b over anytime soon...