LIFE SUCKS : 2011 November

This is my life

I really did this to myself so that is why it sucks even more. I went to my High School reunion last year, I have been out of High School long enough that my life should be far advanced from where it is. I graduated from a private school with a small class of only 21 students. In our Senior year we were all very close but after graduation went our separate ways. Everybody showed up for this reunion. All of them had higher educations, careers, homes and families. They all brought their wives and children and talked about their careers and then there I was. What can I say? I have no kids, no significant other, I still live at home and I wash dishes in the same restaurant I worked at after graduating High School. I make a whopping 9 dollars and hour after all those years. I somehow let it slip that I work at a restaurant so I had to lie and say I was the manager. If they came to the restaurant I'm sure they know that is a lie. I wouldn't know if they came because I am always in the back washing dishes. To make matters worse after 2 grueling hours of trying to act happy and avoid talking about kids, family and career I walked out to my unreliable car that I parked around the corner. The darn thing wouldn't start and it began to rain. My old High School buddy saw me next to my pile of scrap metal on wheels and offered me a ride in his Volvo XC60. I had to sit in the back with his two boys. One of the boys grilled me with the questions I tried to avoid the whole night. "Where a...

no future

I'm a 26 yr. old woman who has an IQ of 89 and was tested by a psychiatrist in High School. Although parts of the test, I scored 140 or above. I have ADD "Attention Deficit Disorder" w/out hiper activity. I had full financial aid but failed a basic math pre requisette 3 times. So no degree. I've had 4 jobs that lasted for 7-10months, one for 3 yrs. and a ton of stupid short term jobs in between. Every job I've had was the kind you peed in a cup for when they hire you. I live with my mom and once I made around 24,000 one year but never more than that. I've never felt like I belonged anywhere, I mean I never had friends. While in school I usually had 1 person I couldn't wait to see everyday but by High School I never had another "best friend". Maybe I'd get along really well at times with someone but I'd secretly be embarrassed that they were my friend. I'm not close at all with my mom, not since I was 15. She's a nice person but we're not alike although she reminds me of some of my flaws. In the past 3 years especially, I can't stand her and have been unneccessarily cold towards her but feel sorry for her at the same time. My Dad has always been around and there for me. I have a sibling who turned out normal if not better than normal and nice. But the thing about my Dad is that he's mest up. He's a good Dad but at this point, we all know he is going to die from alcholism because he can't stay sober. I hate everyday of my life. My mom is losing the house and I have been try...

Where is the mentoring?

I am working in a pretty abusive environment and have been working here just over two years. My boss is the founder and head of the business and she manages through intimidation. There are about 300 employees and the place is a revolving door. I am a director and I've seen 15 directors come and go since coming on board. Her favorite thing is to berate us directors in front of one another. I have been berated in front of others (which is bad) and have had others berated in front of me (which is also bad). She will berate you one on one, but prefers doing it in front of others.

Through the last two painful years I have also been affected by the mentoring, or lack there-of, that I have gotten from my parents. Things are always emotionally challenging but I had a particularly upsetting meeting with my boss one day in which she yelled at me for things I had done, which she knew I was doing and asked me to do and approved that they be done. This is how she manages and while I knew this, it was the first time I had experienced one of these meetings with her where she lied to my face about my work. I knew enough to know I had to go along because if I defended myself I would be fired. I have a mortgage and bills so I sucked it up.

I was shaken up to say the least. I work hard and take pride in my work so this was startling, even though I was aware of her management style. I cried a lot because I had been working so hard and was in shock. This is a b...

life I didnt want

I'm 20 years old and live in a small town in Oklahoma. I have a job that takes 10 hours of my day. I work nights and sometimes weekends. I had so much plans after high school. I planned to go to college, hang out with friends, and a relationship. But I've been out of high school for two years and havn't went to college, havn't had a relationship since high school, and havn't talked to anyone outside of work in over 8 months. I come home to no one, see no one, and hate having a boring life. There is no places to go to meet anyone here. There's only a store, and I could only meet someone from 8am to 11am so you know no one my age is out that early. Life doesn't seem worth it. Just wish life would change.

Listen

My life sucks because my dad passed two years ago and now i moved my mother in who is an illiterate diabetic paranoid schizophrenic..... Now me and my girlfriend have tried everything to make her happy we have been at her beckon call ive gotten her health insurane, taken her to her doctors appts. i buy her everything she needs,, but she still manages to find a way to not be happy.. She calls my girlfriend horrible names she tells me things that are unimaginable to say to your child she talks shit to my exwife about me behind my back.. I dont understand why she hates me ive tried my best.. Now im watching my mother pack all her clothes for the 5th time and sit in her car at 3 am in the goddamn why me lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

It could not get worse

I was raised by my depressed mother and father with paranoia,depression, schitzophrenia,and bipolar disorder. They always got into fights and he hit me,but she never did anything about it. They would use golf clubs,hangers, knives, whatever they could find to fight with. I always tried to protect my mom. I have never talked to my dad seriously, hes an asshole. I will never forgive him for abusing me and my siblings. My family has problems every week still, there divorce has gone on for a year,he wants everything from her. My siblings grew older and forgive him for what he did and invite him to family events,even if i refuse to go. He tries to give me money because he thinks thats the way to be a father. I take advantage of every penny he has, seeking revenge for his abuse. As a child i was overweight. People would bully me all the time and say how fat and ugly i was,how yellow my teeth were and would stick things in my hair or wisper about me.I was made fun of and had no friends, I would cry on the swings during playtime and finally got a friend,but she would threaten to physically hurt me if i stopped being friends with her. i made friends who backstabbed me after that in high school. My mom was sick and had surgeries (she still is in a bad place) so i had to leave school to feed her and it would make my friend mad,finally she started hating me because I "copied" her and followed her around stores. i lost all my friends because of her saying crap about me. I always seem...

Sick and Tired

I have never had ANY support system. A counselor said that is what has screwed my life up so bad. My "Mother" didn't want me and abandoned me emotionally at birth. She let the neighbors take care of me for weeks while she sat and cried, not from Baby Blues, but because she had me not by the man she was married to. She hated me from birth but didn't do me the favor of giving me up for adoption. She kept me around so she could abuse me, because she blamed me and had to punish me by destroying my confidence and constantly telling me I would be a failure. She has said to me many times over the years that she wishes she "had smothered me with a pillow as a baby" and sometimes I wish she had too. It would have been easier for me. I actually was a beautiful girl, talented and smart, but didn't figure this out until it was too late and I was left with children.

She signed me away to be married at 15 and I was ready to go, but this started me on a different dysfunctional path with abusive relationships, some where I was beaten and abandoned. I was smart enough to get my GED and get some college that I managed to get by myself,but by the time I actually finished a course, I had a young child and was abandoned with her to raise. I received no child support and NO help from anyone else, so I constantly struggled with money and a place to live. This resulted in my having to keep a guy around for the help regardless of how he treated me so my child could have a home. ...

Lonely after 29 years of marriage now divorced.

The first Thanksgiving with out my family.The thing about divorce is that it is like death,but no one brings you a casserole.I try to keep positive at age 61 I know that life will go on.I decided to move with in the next month from West Virginia to Georgia I have a job there.It will be an opportunity to start over with my life.It is difficult at my age to start over when I should be playing with my grand children instead of working,but such is life.I hope there is someone out there that can help fill the hole that is in my heart.

If this is the prime of my life.

My parents swore to me the joys of being a homeowner. I bought the house, and moved in, to my splendid delight. Shortly there after, my best friend died, my girlfriend left me, and I was transferred from work. Through that time, I began drinking heavily, and had a mental breakdown. With therapy, I thought things were getting better. Now, I'm at my new job, in which my students flat out, do not give a shit if they succeed or not. After I get the thrill of doing everything in my power, and bag of differentiated instruction, I have the pleasure of grading these papers. There is nothing more joyous than reading about a student's role model being a rapper with a crime record. Even more impressing, is the fact that it's written out as, "Yung Geezie is tha bezt." ON A FORMAL GRADED ASSIGNMENT! Then, I get the pleasure of going home and sitting by myself, because I'm a teacher, and am 29 years in debt, therefore going anywhere is out of the question. This is my life, and it sucks.

a sucky past

Just to let you know my life doesn’t suck just my past that I am still am dealing with.

When I was around three or four years old my mom took drugs. It affected me and my twin sister more than it did to her. She was constantly sleeping all day long with her boyfriend. M e and my sister had to learn to look after each other and everyday I wool wish for things to belike they use to when we would pint rocks or draw parks but that never happened. When she would be awake she was always fighting with her boyfriend about little things like that he broke her favorite mug. They would end up in yelling matches and she would drive away with us and him following. One day two ladies in black suits came in to talk to our mom and we had to go to the other room. When we could go back into the room my mom was crying and told us to go with the ladies.
Our first foster home was on a farm with these nice ladies and their teenage kids but after about two months we went to live with our grandma and grandpa and were there less time
than the farm. Our next foster home was with a woman and her husband and their kids. By for this was the worse place. Their kids were mean and got me into trouble that made me sit on a chair for hours. One time the woman even told me and my sister we were going to hell. After a year our aunt uncle adopted us. Life was great with them me and my sister loved it there. We got to visit out our family and my birth mom was off drugs and dumped her boyfr...

Alone

When I was in 7th grade, I went through a battle with an eating disorder. It sucked, but in a way it didn't. And then it really did, I had a boyfriend, and he kept asking me to do more and more sexual things with him, and I was 12/13. We ended up breaking up because I moved away and no actual physical harm done but to this day about two years later I feel like the only reason he liked me was because I was pretty. He never called me, and didn't even invite me to his birthday party. I know that seems stupid but its just what it is. Another thing that happened to me in 7th grade was that I didn't know what school was like. I came from a back round that didn't prepare me for school especially not the private school that I went to. It was a terrible year. I got into a fight with one of the closest friends that I've ever had and only after two years, after I moved back home, we finally are starting to get back to where we were 2 years ago. In 7th grade it was hard, the worst memory I have is from that year. Apparently I deserved to be insulted for three full hours, because my english teacher took all of the girls in my class outside to the field and made us have a meeting to "fix all of our problems" but really what I heard was that I was a bad friend, I was unloyal, I was mean, I didn't apologize right, I made one girl "want to move to a different school," one girl said "raise your hands if you dread going to school every day because of (lets just say lila) Lila," and my best...

i didn't kill anyone

i was with this girl since eight years but stuff happened and i started to cheat on her. once she caught me with her friend. before i could say anything she shot her friend with her fathers gun and then killed herself. the cops framed me with a double killing case and i am on a run. i tried killing myself but someone saved me and handed me to the asylum. i needed money so i robbed the asylum and ran away. i had stolen a car, and at the toll booth the officials frisked the car. the car had heroine in the boot.
i am almost dead now.i have four serious cases against me and i am sure they'll kill me. this all happened without any mistake of mine. thus sucks. i hate it. fuck.

Life Sucks...only if you allow it to

Does writing all this then re-reading it make any of you any happier?? Seriously guys the whole world sucks but it is what you make of it.....I had a kid at 16 and another at 21, I bought them both up alone, the second childs father became a heroin addict and tried to kill me. As a child I was sexually abused over a period of years and assaulted at aged 12. I could take the easy way out and believe me I have wanted to so badly but all that did was cause me more misery inseide. I have no job, my mortgage payments are 2 months overdue as is my loan payment. I could lose my home that I worked ( yes long hours bringing up my children alone, and i do mean alone...no family at all )so hard for, I could be in court due to unpaid bills etc, I already have had to have meters put in! And you know, through it all I just keep smiling and being the cheerful person I WANT to be. Life will only make me down if I let it, it's all material anyhow.....and if you can't be arsed to like yourself why the fuck should anyone else....seriously! So guys cheer the fuck up....oh did I forget to mention the crazy pyscho mother, excessive amounts of funerals to attend and the alcoholic violent ex??!! No 'cos they don't matter....all that matters is feeling good, being content with what you ghot, doesn't mean you can't aim for more but if you ain't happy then nothing wants to come near you xxx hope you guys all cheer the fuck up and get a grip on yourselves

life is nothing to me

let me start of by introducing myself. my name is Rameez and i m 23 years old. i dont believe in God and i just dont care about anything anymore. right now nothing seems to be going in the positive direction in my life. jobless, parents care for money . My big brother have good job so they thing he is only son i m nothing they don't care for me they know one thing that is money , i m always being pressured about something, always being reminded of something i don't want to hear. lately ive been very bitter, hateful, spiteful, pessimistic, and angry because i have taken a bigger look on life. To me i see that we are all just nothing but insignificant creatures in the universe and what do we really have to live for? what is the the point? all we do out entire lives is grow up, go to school, finish college, get a job, start a family then die? i dont believe in God anymore, i dont believe in sins, i dont believe in heaven or hell. If i were to take my life tomorrow the only people would cry would be my friends and family, but why? why would they waste their tears when their memories of me will be left in the back of their minds only to be forgotten? people come and go so why shed tears when they will only fall and dry? why pour your emotions when they will only go away? i just dont see the point in anything. TO me if people say money don't buy happiness are wrong b/c my brother have money and he is happy my parents are happy with him . what is the idea behind our life. when we take birth we go school no one ask what we want to be after college we do what our parents want, like i never wanted to be engineer but my dad wanted . After marriage we live the way our wife wants then after few years we live the way this society wants(like showing them that i m good parent).. do we have any personal life in which we do what we want.??? i don't think so .. to me life just sucks

why don't people wake up

this site is alot of people telling about how bad their life sucks, no friends, nobody to share things with that really cares, yada yada yada. Wake up people. why can not all these people be friends with each other? seems to me if ever people could stop feeling sorry for their self long enough to contact all the other people on here that r saying the same things, then every person on here would find a true friend. if the person that comments on ur story understands and is in the same boat then why cant u be friends with that person. problem solved u have a friend. but it seems instead of getting together with the others that r saying the same everyone is to busy bitching about not getting notice by someone who is popular or rich or whatever. if u think u have to have a friend out of the "other" crowd then u wasn't looking for a real friend to begin with. just a chance to be like the people that u hate for not excepting u to begin with.

It is what it is

Who is to really say if their life sucks? By what guildline or standards do you go by to decide if your life sucks or not. No one can say really if it sucks or not, you can however decide if your life makes you unhappy by your own standards. What one person says sucks may be a dream life to another. I think my life sucks just like everyone else, but its what in life that makes a person happy that matters. From money problems to family problems, there seems to be alot of these two especially. Everyone has money problems regardless if u dont have enough money to people that have too much money, yes too much money. Dosen't seem possible for someone who would just like to have enough to keep food on the table everyday of the week. Money dosent buy happiness and is always a problem because your chasing something that dosent exsist (money and happiness) they really don't go together. There is no perfect family. there is no white picker fences in real life, no perfect family that is going to except everything about you unconditionally. those are just fairytells. Every ending to every problem is a begining to a new problem. Not reading the riot act to nobody, just wish more people would dwell on more of the positives in there lives instead of just the negatives. Here's why I think "My Life Sucks" (yes i mean that in a sarcastic way) I ran from a abusive relationship in which I had 3 children, moved in with a man that I had only known 24hrs. Took my chances because anything he cou...

I just wanna end this.

Well I am a little bit glad because there are others who feel the same way I do.. well i feel so lonely and depressed, i just want to end my life, but i can't. i don't know why? scared? maybe not.. i just live a simple sad life, I only live with my householdkeeper, I have no parents anymore. well, they are alive but i think not to me anymore. they left me here all alone, they have other families now and they are happy with it not thinking about me.. then i can say that i dont have a friend other than those i call friends but are backstabbers who are bad to me when i am not around. i feel like everyone around me dont want me here in this world. when i am with them, yes i am there, but its like i was invisible or something. i talk but they ignore, in everything i do, ignore, ignore , ignore.. i feel like no one loves me or even care about me.. i feel like i am alone in this world, living by myself. i just want to die, i can bet that if i die, still there will no one who will care. well, telling my story makes me feel good a little. thats all.... So depressed in life. I WANNA DIE ALREADY!.... ;(

Dumb Choices

So I "let" my husband decide to
Quit his job and try to start a business in another state
He lives 8 hours away now. Not only do we have
One year old who he has missed out on for six months
But we also have three children between the two
Of us that we share custody with other parents and that
Further complicates things.
It just isn't gonna work out. I am
Having to live back home with my folks because
Our house is in an area I don't feel
Comfortable being in alone. We haven't even put it
Up for sale so we can't even think about looking for
Somewhere to live where he is and
I have applied a lot of places but I can't find a teaching job
There either and I carry all our insurance.
I am just done with all of this.
His partner's family is moving up there and that pisses me
Off and makes me jealous but both that guy and his wife
Filed bankruptcy which is stupid and I would never do that.

well here goes,

im 17, yeah im a youngin but in all honesty i act 27. i dropped out at 16 and started college soon after getting my G.E.D i have a steady minimum wage job just to keep gas in my car and food in my belly. it isnt all bad except im the "black sheep" of the family. and when i say that i just mean i get treated differently then my brother. he was the first born so i guess that means most love. i try to do good and i think the reason i get treated so well, unimportantly is because its expected of me to do right. my bro is a total douche like seriously i dont knwo why God hasnt just sent a bolt of lightening his way. he's always been an asshole since i can remember anyways. so first shitty thing about my life is always striving to do right and not ever getting credit for it. i just feel unimportant and not special to my parents. another shitty thing about my life is my love life. ive been with the same guy for about 2 years. lost my v-card and everything to this kid. well he hates my parents and my parents hate him. he owes my mom like 1000 bucks and a couple houndred to my dad. anyways, he recently went to jail for some dumb shit and he was in for 6 months or so. and in those 6 months i convinced my parents that i was done with him (since he went to jail and all) and after i convinced them, i convinced myself that i was done too. so i did what any other teen would do, party and get fucked ass up. so for 6 months i was livin life to the fucking fullest and it was great. still, ...

I hate myself and want to die. Every day is a big, dark rain cloud. I feel like I have to struggle so much to survive. Why can't life be easy? IT'S NOT FAIR! Why do we have to try so hard to be happy? Why are people so mean? I don't like it. One day I was walking down the street and this girl saw me and immediately crossed the street as if she didn't want to go near me. What is wrong with me? Am I that ugly? FUCK THE WORLD! I should just kill everyone! They are so evil.