|Posted by I wish I was rich!!! at October 28, 2011|
Idk where to start so im'a just come off top of my head...I'm 23 years old I still live with my mother I have a shitty job making 7.31 per hour but my paycheck be bout 250 every 2 weeks I want another better job...I have no car only 500 in the bank to my name...I haven't had sex in 6 months I want to have sex more often but my dick is too little not even 6 imches more like 1 inch...I'm taking androgel though wonder how long thats going to take ughh im in debt by 9k for going to a shitty ass college saying they will find me a job turns up they lie...i jack off mostly every night because of lack of sex...my daddy died since I was 7 I have no father figure I have 2 brothers but they both in prison...man my life fucking suck so bad I wish I can hit the poweeball so I can buy me 3 cars in leave this pussy ass city...I HATE MY JOB MY LIFE AND EVERYTHING ELSE...I WANT TO GO TO THE NAVY BUT I CANT CAUSE I HAVE A FUCKING LEARNING DISABILITY UGH FUCKKKK
|Posted by lauren port at October 28, 2011|
I'm 24 years old and my life seriously sucks right now. First off, I will start with the obvious which is that I still live with my parents, and work as a cashier at a grocery store(I've had this job since I was 18) I have gone to college, and still have yet to graduate. I'm going to do nursing, even though that is not really what I want to do. However, at this point I have so much student loan debt that I am almost forced into doing nursing. Then, I don't have that many friends, and have never had a boyfriend. It seems like once all the guys I like get to know me they inevitably lose interest. I spend most of my nights watching instant netflix on my computer. Also, I have to file bankruptcy now due to a mountain of medical bills. Recently, my dad lost his job but was able to find another job within a week. He worked at that job for a total of three weeks before he was fired yet again. My mom is only person working and so they now cannot afford their house and have to move. She and my dad constantly argue and are prob going to get divorced. All of this over money...
|Posted by ScrewWaiting at October 28, 2011|
I have come to the conclusion at 23 that everybody (including their mothers) are a bunch of liars. No one has real friends you're truelly on you're own.
Everyone is a swinger too, see this is how I explain this:
I was a mom at 19 and proud of it, her father not in the picture and I really couldn't give a shit either because I know I'm a good mom and that's all that matters. I started a new relationship and tried to be careful not to trust but to always follow my instincts but of course when you want to share a life with someone other then yourself and you want a lot of things just in human nature you just go for it. OH THE SCANDALS. But seriously does anyone expect anything more or less? Of course then I felt like the biggest idiot but I forgot and forgave....to have it done again. Duh. So I ended up starting a not so bad affair that I really keep secret. It's truelly the one way one can excape madness. After another fall out with the one i actually live with he gives me goodbye sex with oops surprise...ya pregnant again. I know I want a family I know I want kids do I love him? In someways but no...Would I ever marry? NOPE waste of money time and effort. So people forget about all the walking dramas you meet and all the fakes and poor me's. Cover your own ass enough to get by and remember that most people are just bullshit if you have a strong heart you'll find your own happy meet in the middle
|Posted by anonymous at October 28, 2011|
I am so lonely that i arbitrarily type out phrases like methods of committing suicide,i am so lonely, what to do,life sucks in google waiting for some stupid miracle to happen..i have an evil bitch living in my house aka my step mom ..she is doing all sought of mechanism like in some cheap hindi serial to get me and my brother out of our own home..my dad too has changed..my boyfriend dumped me few months ago..telling a stupid reason "it's not clicking anymore"..i so much counted on him..I feel i have no parents no friends and definitely no partner..i have got tired of suffering and dealing with worst people than you could ever imagine..and i am so waiting for my death.. coz i don't have the courage to die either.. not that i am scared of death but i don't want to be trapped in middle..if i don't die then what?? so i pray everyday to god to die..but i am just hearing other happy and content people dieing..God does not even grant me death
|Posted by joe at October 28, 2011|
I am alone. 57yo and have in the last five years become ill. I am on oxygen 24/7 but I still try to get around. I make friends.
Singer Bob Marley once said something like this.
Everyone will hurt you, you just need to find the ones worth suffering through.
Pretty good ain't he?
It can be tough if you are a sensitive person. I am and it is tough.
You cannot wait for everyone to be your friend or for everyone to invite you over for the weekend. Find the things you enjoy in life and go do them for yourself. Meet new people, through a BBQ, invite folks to your place to get to know you. Go to a few social events and put yourself out there.
I know I make it sound easy to do, but please realize that I know it is difficult. I live it everyday. I live alone after my bride of 36 years just up and left me in September of 2011. Yeah, that recently.
So I guess what I want to share is please never give up. I am caucasion so I guess some will say I have it easier. I do not!!
Loneliness is never alone. It haunts us all.
Do not give up!!! Just think of what you like to do and go do it. You will meet people and make friends who have the same interests as you do. Do not assume everyone does not want to be your friend. You have to be a friend to be considered one.
You can do this! Get the hell out of your comfort zone and go meet some new people.
Just trying to share with other lonely folk. I want friends too.
|Posted by Anonymous in NJ at October 28, 2011|
I've been employed in my company for 22 years earning a decent salary with good benefits. My wife's company relocated her position to some firm in India, my position is being terminated at the end of this year due to a bad economy. My eldest son is starting dental school, my youngest son is entering college. Unemployment will not cover my mortgage, health bills, college education, not sure what to do. I'm a caring person, always looking to help those in need but it's funny how people like us are punished while some people get a break in life. My next door neighbor abuses his wife, is an alcoholic, who just got promoted. I don't get it
|Posted by kam at October 27, 2011|
I am 41 years old. The first time I was molested was at 6.... I was molested or raped by different assholes until I was sixteen... I married one of them. I had my first child a month before my sixteenth birthday. My youngest brother lives in a house that was forclosed on a year ago. My sister cant come up with the 13000.00 needed to keep the home she is in. My other brother needs 12000.00 to keep his house. I am the first of four children, my mom calls and tells me I should help them all...I CANT....I work and work and work, my husband ignores me.... I am just a maid and accountant... And, I continue to work and work, but I cant help them all... I dont get along with coworkers, because I dont talk.... I have no friends....My life sucks.... And, I am so tired...
|Posted by POd at October 27, 2011|
I am 51, living alone, feeling totally isolated, unemployed for 8 months this time - prior to my last job was unemployed for 2 years and have been seeing this cycle over and over and over again. I am so tired of living this way, thinking of selling off everything I have and driving to a remote location where it's warm and be a hermit. This unemployment stint has caused a break-up from the woman I luv more than life itself. I have no friends or family locally that I can rely on for support. I hate living unemployment check to check. I know there are many others that are coping with this pathetic excuse for an economy. I have thought about suicide, but I just can't give up totally...have gone through the motions to hang myself, but gave up.
|Posted by anon at October 27, 2011|
My mum has just recently recovered from cancer. But there is every possibility that it could return and the second time round would be harder to cure. She is weak and prone to illness because her immune system is so low.
So yeah- my mums health worries me a lot. But she doesn't do herself any favours. She is an alcoholic but is in denial. Although she only drinks half a bottle of wine a night (probably a meagre amount in comparison to other people), this daily routine is enough to trigger off a kind of switch in her brain. She becomes hostile, argumentative and every evening ends in slamming doors, tears and sobbing. I can see that she is severely depressed and i don't know how i can help her. She tells us she hates us and I feel like screaming at her but then feel so much guilt because I know she just feels like no one understands what she is going through. I don't know how to deal with the situation.
So thats my mum. My dad is also an alcoholic (it seems to run in the family :/ ) He is overweight and our local doctor recently put him on a diet plan because we were all concerned for his health. This diet includes cutting out all alcohol. He gets very obsessive with things- he goes out cycling all night in the dark. When he gets home he is usually injured, bleeding, scuffed. I can tell he's had a lot to drink. We had all thought he'd given it up, but now he uses the excercise as an excuse to get off his face.
He gets violent, abusive, hostile. Start...
|Posted by LonelyLottie at October 27, 2011|
Even though I feel sick of the world and everybody in it, loneliness is a feeling which many people can relate to, and if I tell you how I feel then maybe somehow I won't be as lonely as I truly believe I am. Maybe I can find comfort in sharing my lonliness with someone else who is going through a similar situation. Even though all I am essentially doing is ranting on about my own self centred little problems which in 10 year's time will probably seem ridiculously unimportant, right now I am deeply unhappy. It may be down to teenage hormones or whatever. I just need to vent my frustrations with life and I hope that someone woul dbe kind enough to read on and reply.
I used to have a great group of 7 friends but when I was 16 they all moved on to other schools, made new friends and slowly but steadily forgot about me. I've always been extrememly shy from a young age but when I was around my friends it seemed to give me more confidence to be myself. I fully expected that we would all drift apart a bit once we joined new schools but I never thought that they would all forget about me completely. They gradually stopped contacting me and lost interest altogether and instead got on with their new exiting lives with new friends.
In my case however, I remained where I was. Stuck in a rut. Stewing in my own stagnant, sour air. Sitting in my room every eveing, every weekend, every school holiday, staring at the same 4 walls, knowing that everone else my age is pr...
|Posted by anonymous at October 27, 2011|
I am 40 years old and have been married for almost 20. I have 3 kids that i love with all my heart. My husband and I live on opposite sides of the house because of health issues. I love him, but am not in love with him anymore. I feel unloved as well. I miss the old husband that he used to be. I had 2 best friends, but now I only have one because she sort of lied to me and I quit talking to her. Even though, I told her i was sorry I stopped talking to her she doesn't want anything to with me anymore. I told her I missed her so much, but it didn't make any difference, she still won't talk to me. It hurts so much. It's been about 4 months, but the hole in my heart where she used to be is still there. My other best friend and I used to talk daily. She's found a new man who treats her like a queen and I'm so happy for her. I remember what that feels like...it's so great. I hope things work out for her, she really deserves it as she's so sweet and such a loving and giving person. I suppose it doesn't sound like I'm lonely, but that's the way I feel. I don't talk much to my husband anymore. Thanks, I just wanted to complain about it for a moment.
|Posted by unsure at October 27, 2011|
Well I've never done something like this before. Im 30 with no job and no friends. Ive isolated myself from my family because I'm embarassed that i havent done muc with my life. I'm very shy which makes it hard for me to get a date as well as oncve they find out I'm jobless, then why would they want me. I wish things were easier but i'm realizing that theyre not. At least by reading other peoples stories i realize that Mabye I dont have it so bad but lonliness really sucks.The worst part of it is that I've gotten used to it. scary! Now looking at what i wrote it seems that I dont have it so bad but it feels worse then it seems. i think there is something blocking me from advancing but dammit im trying.
|Posted by anonymous at October 27, 2011|
I'm turning 40 in a couple of months and i live with my mom. I had to move in with her after i lost a job and my boyfriend i was going to move in with broke up with me (after a 4 year relationship). I decided to go back to school for another degree so i can one day get a better job, but am struggling to come up with the money for school. I'm still in debt from some stuff from the past.
I finally found a job but it's terrible and I'm so stressed every day I feel sick. It's very far from where I live; i spend so much on gas and the job doesn't even pay well. But it's better than being unemployed like i was for 9 months.
I am dating a guy i think i am in love with but he is not in love with me. I think he is using me as his Rebound Relationship (he is in the process of a divorce; I met him when he had been separated for almost a year.) we have been dating for a year and i thought he had fallen for me too, but just this past weekend i found out that he still doesn't even consider me his girlfriend & still doesn't want a serious relationship. My self esteem is soo freakin' low from bad past relationships that i can't even bring myself to stop seeing him.
i am stressed out and depressed every day and i never feel well but have no health insurance (i work a freelance job, no benefits). my mom also drives me nuts sometimes but i can't afford to move out and still save for school. And soon i will be 40 years old and i am finally feeling old, and scared, and like life is not worth it.
|Posted by Lonely Girl at October 26, 2011|
I feel disconnected from the world and like I will never find my place. I have friends but everyone has plans and is moving on except for me. I hate getting up every morning cause I feel I have no real reason to get up. Nothing excites me anymore. My bf does not care about me but I am so afraid to be alone and even more lonely! I am stuck and depressed and I have no idea how to get out of this rut. Just so sad and lonely :(
|Posted by 4dr455 at October 26, 2011|
Im 19 years old, and I have been lonely from the start. When I was little I never thought of my life being ruined this way, and when I was 12 I realized I needed a girlfreind for my own because all of my freinds have one. I despereatly search for one the first girl I fell in love was Jailene. She was a beautiful girl I met at the first day of school and my eyes glittered evrytime I saw, I felt something needed to be done so my dumbass started giving a dollar evry day at school.When finally the end of schhol started I ask her out, it was the moment of truth. "Eww, you ugly" she responded, and the split second she said that my heart broke. And thats not all people there are 3 more girls I asked out and they all rejected me. And then thats when I noticed I was a ugly,short; a loser. I know how people feel being lonely and heres how you feel:
You literally ache when you are home alone at night and have no one to talk to.
Your heart is breaking because you have so much love to give but no one to give it to.
You can't understand how some people less interesting and less attractive have mates, but you have been let down time after time.
You know you'll make the best partner if only given the chance.
You're fed up with your current situation, and you're ready to do whatever it takes to find that special person and have the best relationship.
|Posted by anonymous at October 26, 2011|
I was reading these stories, some of them are really depressing, the others are just plain stupid. Here's what's going on with me:
I'm studying to be a doctor. unfortunately, that's the last thing i wanna be. i wanted to be an actor, or a musician. my parents want me to be a doctor, and since they're supporting me, that's basically what i have to do. So the professional part of my life is fucked up.
I've never had a girlfriend. When i was a kid, i was this arian, cute little boy, and my mom's friends would all say that i was going to be a heartbreaker(i know that they would say that even if i was fugly). i think that kinda went up to my head, and so i'm extremelly picky. The problem is I'm a 19 year old virgin now, and i still have kind of a baby face, and i guess girls don't dig that. the thing is i know i could get a lot more girls if i got the courage to talk to them out of the blue, but in my head, doing that is just plain stupid, and i can never do it.
The friend part of my life is good. i have some really close friends, and a lot of normal friends, but i'm kind of they go to guy to make fun of. I know they like me, but it just became kind of a habit, and i never stopped it. i think it affects my image to girls a lot, because i'm just this guy that keeps being made fun of.
the worst part is my home life. My parents make go to fucking medical school, which i fucking hate, and they still yell at me for not studying, even though i passed 6 out of 9(i know it's not perfect, but it's not bad either). I come home to my depressing mom, my anger-troubled, lunatic dad and i keep getting yelled at for pratically everything i do(the other day, my father called me a no-good low-life because of a tiny scratch on his bike that took him 3 days to notice). i just don't know what to do
|Posted by An Outcast at October 26, 2011|
I've suffered from bipolar disorder ever since I was a small child. My parents sent me to many different doctors, clinics, and boarding schools to try to straighten out my emotional issues, which was very traumatizing. I've always felt like nobody understands me, and I don't understand them. Still, I hate being alone, so I've always tried to make friends, but it never really works out. High School was the time I had the most self-confidence and motivation to make things better, because it was the first time I was allowed any freedom to choose how I wanted to live. I was in many relationships with many girls then. I felt like I took them for granted, because I wasn't used to somebody caring about me. I was also in great physical shape back then and would exercise every day. Now I've been single for almost two years, after a relationship that left me emotionally crippled, and I really let my physical health go since I just didn't care anymore. Whenever I ask for somebody's help, the usual reply is some form of "Cheer up. Everything will be alright!" and yet nothing has gotten better. If anything, it's only getting worse. I think they only say that because they themselves don't know the answer to that question. I've more or less come to terms with the fact that life isn't all flowers and sunshine, and some people go through hell while others are living out their dreams. If that's the case though, I wish everyone would stop pretending that everything is just fine while people are suffering constantly.
|Posted by anonymous at October 26, 2011|
Life is so fucking fucked. I am currently a week away from my year twelve exams. Tomorrow is my year twelve muck up day.
I'm losing sight of the point of muck up day. I'm just so exhausted...
So much has happened this week. I just want to sleep for a while, because nothing bad happens when you're asleep, and you then always have a legitimate excuse for not being places and not hearing bad news.
My boyfriend is very sick, and is in hospital. People keep telling me that he'd want me to participate in muck up days, and stupid things of the like. They say that he'd want me to enjoy myself. I can't enjoy myself knowing that he's unwell. Knowing that he's left in suffering, drowning in his own misery, while I am able bodied and out in society.... I don't know what he wants. I think he's just tired and lonely. I hate it when he's sad, it kills me inside. I can't handle it very well. I don't think I'm handling it very well anymore. I'm tired of everything.
Sometimes I over assess situations, such as when he doesn't reply to my text messages. I worry that he hates me, or the medication makes him hate me, sometimes it makes him moody.
I don't know what I'm going to do when I finish school. I have applied for a few courses, at various universities, though I don't know whether I actually want to do them. I don't want to do anything really.
I love my boyfriend very much. It is him who I am finishing school for.
I promised him that I would do well on th...
|Posted by artifex at October 26, 2011|
I am currently 20 years old, freshman at a terrible community college because my family can't afford a real school. I live with my parents who try, but have managed their entire life poorly. I used to play sports in highschool, i used to have friends, had a beautiful girlfriend for a long time whom I was sure i was going to marry. Ever since highschool my entire life has went to the opposite direction, i worked a couple of worthless jobs making little to no money, i felt no purpose so I decided to go back to school. I am currently sitting here in my parents house alone, I dont know one "friend' i could call right now and say "help" and they would. Yesterday was my birthday, i didn't get anything, but i ended up blowing 50 dollars on a girl who is using me for when she's mad at her boyfriend(s). My parents are too busy to care, my friends dont care, and I have no one. I've tried talking to a couple of girls, but none are interested. My mind tells me I'm ok, but my insides just hurt at the thought of being as lonely as i am. I need serious help, but I'm afraid to ask for it. I'm fighting an emotional battle with my self everyday not to think about suicide. I live in the middle of nowhere, and I know I will be worthless for the rest of my life and theres nothing i can do about it.
|Posted by True Coward at October 26, 2011|
Well, to start out. I have virtually failed everything that attempted in my adult life. Weirdly enough... it might not seem that way at first glance. I have a Masters degree, a well paying job, and a fiance. However, everything that I have "earned" has basically been spoon-fed to me. It all started in elementary school, when I was too stupid to do math, my parents and teachers put me in SLD classes. Then, I was sexually molested by a kid that was in my class, I used be "babysat" by his mother after school. My parents were divorced like everyone else my age, and my mom, stepdad, and my dad (when I saw him) used to beat my ass on a regular basis. Am I using any of this as an excuse? No way, I am actually just inherently lazy. I hate putting forth any sort of effort. I was a bully in middle and high school, probably because I really just hated myself. Anyway, I ended up joining the Marines out of highschool; I guess to prove to my dad that I wasn't such a pussy. That turned out great!! I hated it so much... because I'm a pussy, that I actually faked a seizure the 2nd week of boot camp to get out. Now the story gets really great! I have been lying to people for the past 8 years, telling them that I was a Marine... that I even got sent to war. I'm not sure if anyone actually buys this BS, but some certainly do. I think it's even gotten me laid a few times. Onward to college! I attended community college for a few years, because I scored a 800 on my SAT and had about a 2.6 in H...