LIFE SUCKS : Failure

Seriously?

I'm 26 years old and life just never seems to get any better. I lost my job, my fiance, my apartment, my best friend and turned into a raging alcoholic. I don't even like drinking. I have been looking for a new job since September and every glimmer of hope I get is crushed in an instant. I had to move back in with my family after I lost the apartment and since that is in another state I now have no friends to speak of. Everything just seems to keep going from dark to worse with to hope of change anytime soon. It's a feeling like the harder I try the worse things become. I've been slipping down a rope since this past summer and I think I've finally reached the end of it. What now? How much worse can it get?

Ultimate Loner/Loser Girl

I'm 22 and a college dropout, still living with parents and can't get a job, and every guy I've ever been with just used me for sex. I don't have friends and never had a real boyfriend, and my dad keeps telling me I'm a failure in life and that I shame the family. I'm very shy with zero connections so I'm not very social...always the loner kid who ate lunch alone in school, etc. I've been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and I take meds for it, which helps a lot but it doesn't erase my crappy situation in life. I'm thinking of killing myself eventually, maybe in a year.

Why do I have to like feet?

So I am a 21 year old virgin. I'm way too skinny because I have a nervous condition and get sick whenever I eat anything so I eat like a starving Ethipoian.I have no friends and have never had a gf. I am in college so I realize I should be grateful for that, but no one gives a fuck about me here, I'm just a loser and loner. I try to initiate conversations with girls and they just ignore me or blatantly shoot me down. I've been called creepy more times than I can remember. Oh, and to top it all off, I have a foot fetish. So I will be sitting in class minding my own business when a girl starts waving her feet around and gives me a boner. Every girl I've told I like feet to has told me I was weird. Most girls hate feet apparently, including their own. I do not want to become the 40 year old virgin but it looks like I'm on the fast track to becoming him. I can barely focus on schoolwork because I'm lonely and just want a gf. What the fuck is wrong with that?

I am Dead after this. im sorry mom

I am small lone loser. I hate all my 21 years of my life. I have never had friends and family. I lost my job and got fired for being an outcast to my fellow employees and boss eventhough i am a hard worker and make most of the revenue in our company. I always been taking prescrition anxiety pills and been drinking lot of alcohol and doing lot of crystal meth which i get from dealers that live near my apartment stairs. I live in my dad's apartment. My dad cries every night of the death of my mother when i was born. and blames me for her death. My dad throws empty bottles at me when i come home. I go to my room and cry. i cry all day and this is my life every day of the week and my lone time is to go on my dial up online and play runescape and be in my imaginary world of dungeans and dragons and feel free of this real world of mine. When i was little like 9 years old kids in my school bullied me and when i went to juvie for robbing a convinent store with plastic knife.. i got raped by a mexican boy who was 17 and put a pipe in my little 13 year old anus... plus it broke my hip bone... so rest of my life i became limped and had a cane to walk with.... i look in the mirror and think about is it my fault that i killed my mother and deserve this life i have now?....

just low

I am 30 year old Female. I am divorced. I live at home with my parents who don't talk to eachother and not me. I have no real job. I am suicidal every morning. I have thoughts in my head that tell me that I am not good enough, smart enough, and not nice enough for anyone to love. I have exhausted all of my friends time and can't seem to move forward.

I speak with a lot of I's.

I hate that.

over it

I am a 25 year old bank teller. I hate my job and want to quit so bad. i am a recent college graduate and i have no idea whats next in life. TO ADD INSULT i live at home in the same room that i grew up in. Feeling pathetic

World Go F Yourself

I am 32 and trapped living with my parents. I havent had sex in 9 years, can't drive, no job(did work at the same place for 14 years), should not drink(havent for 4 years)but really want to, joined the army and found out the truth so left it(not dishonorably), i am balding, getting fatter as the days go(gained 35 pounds since stopped working a year and a half ago), extremely lonely(but dont know how to talk to the opposite sex unless im drunk and just looking to get laid and that hasnt happened in a long time), low self-esteem, on antidepressants, pissed off at the world, not many friends(probably due to my depression about not being able to drive, i stopped going out and they stopped asking me to), lately I dont even like going outside I fear being around people most of the time(wonder if the antidepressants are making me a recluse and i feel somewhat dumber while im on them, but i cant stop taking them or my anger grows alot). I left a few things out but you get the idea, this ride called life sucks and I want my money back.

I am a FAILURE

I am 30 years old, female. Married for almost 2 years with no kids. I am emotionally erupted for the last few weeks infact for many years back but it comes n go and its killing me slowly when i always thought of myself is such a big failure in life and everything!

I realised i am late in everything i do ---> I have no achievements in life. Not even once. I have no hobbies since young. I got married when all my friends are already married. Friends around me have completed family = husband + kids. Friends are doing well in career while i am still searching for a right one til now. Although I have both advanced diploma & double diploma in respective courses, I didnt even manage to get hold of a job. Im married but still living with my parents while awaiting for my flat to be ready in few years time and Im in a huge debt with banks (credit cards)!

I feel so useless even people around me look up on me for what they see in me (of course they don't know what i've been going through in my life). Apparently, before my contract ended, i used to earned USD45000 annually until the 'black' moment disrupted. I didnt manage to save a single cents due to my bad shopaholic habit.

Nobody wants me

Hey I'm 29 and I live with my parents, things have terrible for me my whole life. I have had few friends in my life and have been pretty much alone for most of it. I didn't get my first girl friend until was 25 and it was horrible all I did was give her rides and pay for dinners. All girls ever do to me is use me for rides and money. They never really cared for me because the last 3 I did have all cheated on me at some point. So I stayed with one even though she treated me like shit and cheated on me because I don't want to be alone and only "friends" I do have never call me or they blow off. If I never called them they would forget about me. I hate being alone and I question why I'm here. I live at home, I have no love in my, no friends and I work at some dead end warehouse job. All I have done is cared, loved and treated people really good just to have it blow up in my face. This is the thanks I get. Thanks for listening internet.

my life is the worst of all

Upon reading this you'll prob think my life isn't all that bad; BUT honestly I truly think my life is totally worthless. For starters, I'm 26 I live with my mother, I'm 5'4, mixed race, I'm unemployed, I have no gf, I have no car, and I have no money; I'm terribly lonely and I have some friends but I still feel like my life is worthless. God has shitted on me all my life. I'm crying while i'm writing this because what i'm about to tell you all is true.
The only reason I have not committed suicide is because I volunteer regularly with senior citizens to whom look forward to my youthful and foolish optimism for amusement and inspiration. I am naive to think that I should not die today or tonight and I have regularly thought of killing myself But inculcation from my family has taught me an awful of feeling that maybe i should 'wait one more day'...but I promise you all, this i my suicide note.
I finished college more than 3 years ago and I my life is nowhere is should be. Education will not make you happy.
I guess the thing that bothers me most is that I feel no woman will ever think of me as attractive. I'm mixed( I'm neither black or white) which means unless i'm rich or famous no woman will ever love me. I'm unlovable, I will always be overlooked, vilified, cast as an outcast.

God if you're merciful please let me die; evolution says my genes should die, I would never want my son tp experience my life. So be merciful and kill me PLEASE

be dead soon

At 33 I have nothing. No house, no girl, no job, no life, no motivation. Used to be pretty cool and popular, now just a loser. Pretty much failed at everything Ive ever set out to do. Getting to old to follow my dreams I had as a youth. Wish me luck, cause Im done. thanks for listening.

An epic failure of a human being.

I don't wanna bore you with another long and drawn out story with far too much background details, so I'll just concisely sum up where I'm at in my life right now -- 20 year old friendless virgin with a useless, broken dick (irreversible scar tissue damage from jerking off too quick/gripping too hard), 6'3" and a half, 140 pounds, yet I still have fat rolls and love handles (skinny fat guy), never kissed/hugged/dated/spoken to a girl before and I've dropped out of school. I've had Social Anxiety Disorder since I was a kid, too.

I only own one pair of jeans 'cause I'm too poor to afford more. I've never owned a cellphone or much of anything else, either. My parents are on welfare and my dad is a crazy and abusive religious nutcase who's also a misogynist and believes women are worthless, when he indeed is the most worthless and useless piece of shit in the cosmos. Haven't left the house in 5 months and don't plan to anytime soon.

I never had many friends growing up or at school and I did my best to keep them around. That included buying them lunch with the little money I had, even if that meant I'd starve most of the time. I always did little things like that, but they've all forgotten about me. I haven't spoke to any of them in years, and in feeling alone, I hit up some Internet chat-rooms, met some girls and felt human again.

After seeing a picture or two of 'em, it became pretty evident that they were vapid, impressionable and insecure high ...

I should have been aborted

I probably should not write this but to hell with it. I am 29 years old i have never had a girlfriend due to getting my butt kicked every day at school and kids calling me a fag or freak every day, the teachers would not let me go on school trips, and when came home from school i was beaten for kicks at night, later i dropped out of school ended up in a half way for depression which messed me up even more due to being surrounded by humans drooling and rocking backing forth talking to them selves. While in the half way house i started using drugs and ended up in 3 different rehabs, followed by jail for 9 months of my life due to aquiring a felony for being at wrong place at the wrong time, after i got out of jail i took the GED and passed, after which i went to college where i was made fun of every day just like when i was a kid, so i decided to start drinking and recieved a stomache viruse + pheunomia was hospitalised and was thrown out of college for missing to many days. Now I live alone i don't have any friends and no one will hire me for a job, i never learned how to drive so traveling is out of the question, the town where i live everyone looks at me and laughs. I once was told by someone to just be my self , but who or what am i exactly, i really don't know, i am so sick of being an outcast and of being alone, all i ever i ever wanted was to be accepted, to know the companionship of a women, to have a good job, kids, a house. But i can see that reaching out was the worst thing i could have done, i should have ended it when i was young and stupid or ran far far away when i had the chance. I feel as though i am numb nothing interests me, i really forget to eat and never leave my apartment somedays because i hate life but i dont kill myself because i know there is no afterlife and partly because i wanna see how much pain and self hatred i can take.

Pure HELL!!!!! REAL LIFE HELL!!!

When i was born i was bron to unloving parents. They both had issus with drinking and drugs. My mother was physco! She tried killing me more than once when i was in her stomcah. She tried shoving carrots up her vajayjay to try to kill me. She was mental!!! I ahte her to this day!!

When i was 3 my parents got a divorce. My dad married this really nice lady who hated children even though she had two of her own apprently she just hated me and my sister. My mother got full custody of theo both of us. My mother remarried too. The guy had a son. They both sexually abused me when i was 7. They continuously abused me untill i was 13. When i was thirteen i got pregnant. I finally told my mother about this. All she cared about was that her husband and stepson were ok and that i wasnt goin got tell anyone about this..

My mom decided for me to keep the baby. She didnt want to draw attention to myself because apprently to her i wasnt the prettiest. I f i was so dam pretty why was her husband banging me?? I was kept from school, my freinds, my actaul life that i loved unitl the baby was born.

After the baby was born my mother started saying it was hers. I decided to try to tell someine abpout wat had happened because i was tired of lying. My mother found out and started to tell people that i was clinically depressed.

I tried killing myself later when i was 15. When i didnt succeed i ran away. dropped out of school. i ran from lakewood colorado to...

Need a Reason to live

I'm 38 divorced once and remarried but separated. I have three kids that all have some sort of emotional disability that I know is all my fault. I have no job, no friends, and two sisters that talk to me but nothing to in depth. Today is such a bad day. Today is the day my "Bumpa" passed away who was my only father figure and it also would have been my fathers birthday if he was still alive. But it is better that he is not around anyways because when he was alive he did terrible things to me and other family members. I just can't do anything right. I have many health problems but no one wants to hear about all that. I sometimes get child support and I have applied for disability but was denied and now waiting to get a hearing which can take until ??????? I used to blame everyone else for my problems but I know that I AM THE ONLY PROBLEM. I am such an advocate against suicide. But when it comes to me I can not see any other way to fix things. I don't believe anyone. No one follows through with what they say their going to do. Anyone looking at me would never guess that I feel this way. I sit alone day after day and night after night hoping I die in my sleep. I can't do it anymore. Not looking for pity just venting. Tired of crying, trying and breathing.

I hate who i am

Im a 29 year old associate degree grad unemployed man. My mom and my gave me all they money for a 4 year university and all i did was get associated degree and that took me 6 years. I am lazy and do know what to do. All my life i have been a hopeless romantic and finally thought i fell in love with a girl and that too turned outto be a mistake. I married her and took her to newyork to live with me ( she was back home in bangladesh)and now she has become so rude to me, let alone loving me. We lived in new york and cuz of her abusive behaviour i left new york and came homevto bangladesh where my family was. Since im not a bachelors degree grad i cudnt get a job here too. And my parents blame for wasting the money. Now 29 with no money no degree no love. I am such a loser, i fucking hate myself.

sweet release

life does suck, i'm 42 and i have a job that pays shit with no benifits. I've never been married or have any kids. i havent had sex in 11 years, nobody wants a broke 42 year old. I think of suicide sometimes but that would destroy my mom and sister. I just can't seem to get my life in gear, i've had many differnt kinds of jobs in my life(i've never made more than 25,000 in a year). I'm just not a good fit for this world although society says i should be,I'm tall, good looking, smart, funny,A white man. So i should have it easy but nothing I do works out. Time for me to stop whineing and just wait for the sweet release.

Why do some people have it so easy? My sisters a track star, volleyball star and she makes straight A's. I hear my parents brag about her achievements all the time to friends and co-workers and every time it makes me feel worse and worse about myself. I have no motivation to do anything and I dont know why, maybe its because im afraid of failing? Im going to community college to become a vet and even that goal is becoming less and less realistic, my parents are paying for everything at 20 fucking years old. I cant find a job no matter how hard I try. I cant even get and interview and I have no idea what Im doing wrong. and yet my best friend who is far lazier than I am has one in less than a week. I cant vent my problems to anyone because theyll all tell me the same thing, that Im the source of my own problems and theyd be right which just makes me feel even worse about myself. My parents yell at me over the dumbest shit. Didnt do so hot on a test? That means I dont care about anything and im going end up working as a garbage man. They pick apart everything I do and get condescending and nasty everytime they see something they dont like. I get agitated and then I become the bad guy, IM the one thats in the wrong because "I got an attitude". Hell, I think I might be gay and I'm terrified to tell anyone about it because of what people might say or do. Go ahead, call me ungrateful, entitled, spoiled. Whatever, I have heard it all before. Im used to being alone.

Nothing to live for

Hi, I am 27 years old and I am completely worthless.
I never achieved any good education, even though I was so close, I never had a really good job, even i was so close, i never achieved anything I really wanted. People around me, that I left are now so successful and happy. I am complete looser.I have no real friends. I am lonely. No one likes me. I um just a useless creature. I am just afraid to finish anything, I always run when there are problems.I am just terrible person. i am unable to kill myself, even I often think about it. I tried to be smiley when among people at work, but than i come home and cry.

I suck at living life.

I feel like my whole life has been the definition of failure. I had no friends in high school. I've had like two friends my whole life, who I can't even see anymore because they're in a different country. I wasted four years of my life in college getting a useless degree (two years ago) and I currently have no job and no friends. I have a condition where my hands sweat constantly, which is embarrassing, kills my confidence, and holds me back from doing many things I want to do in life. I read that only 2.8% of the population in the USA has that condition (just my luck).

I've never had a girlfriend (never even kissed a girl. yeah you read that right. haha.). Girls don't even look at me. Girls sometimes even outright ignore me when I'm just trying to ask for directions. I guess I shouldn't be surprised since I'm only 5'9, skinny, and look like a little kid. Whenever I see other people with their friends, I tell myself that I like being alone so I feel better. Anyway, I can't land a job. I've been to interviews, where I passed the written exams, but still got rejected when it came to the actual interview, probably, because I suck at talking to people. I have to move back to my parent's house because I'm a total failure and can't even get a job. I know life isn't fair, but maybe, I did something to deserve all this. I know all of this my fault. I think I just suck at living life.

Thanks to whoever took the time to read this. Just had to get that off my chest.