|Posted by low at December 8, 2011|
I am a 22 year old male. I grew up in a crazy family. My parents broke up when I was 15 and now do not talk to each other. The turbulence and hatred that I saw grow between my parents motivated me to have a successful and loving family of my own (which I never thought would be a problem because I had a strong sex drive and love girls). I have always had a chip on my shoulder ever since people disrespected me in high school and I have worked hard to be somebody I can be proud of. I was finally getting to a point in my life where I was proud of myself, but suddenly I sort of lost it in college and became depressed and started having anxiety attacks. I was told to go on an antidepressant to help me during this time, and I reluctantly listened. I decided to go to a new college to start new, a college with lots of fine looking girls. I had sexual troubles (including low/none sex drive) on the antidepressant, but I never thought that it could become permanent. Once I got off of the medication, my sex drive never returned. Girls no longer excite me like before and I feel like I have no reason to live. I continue to push on and do things to make me feel better (I am not giving up just yet), but in the meantime I am losing respect from all of my friends and family. My younger brothers no longer smile and joke around with me. My best friend calls me a bitch all of the time. I told my parents about my problems but they don't give a shit. I used to be all about being the macho man, b...
|Posted by anonymous at December 7, 2011|
I consider myself a nice person. When a friend needs someone to talk to I'm there, if someone needs to borrow money I lend it to them if i can, and even try to help out friends with school. I ask for nothing in return and guess what? That's exactly what I get. None of my friends or family ever offer to help me when I'm struggling. I have to beg for favors and usually I'm met with unsympathetic stares . People are only ever nice to me when they need something. I can barely ever get my "friends" to return my phone calls, texts, or get them to hang out. I feel like they mistake my kindness for weakness. I can't even talk to anyone about how I feel about anything because the only advice I ever get is to suck it up and fix it. They blame me for my own problems. Yet when someone is telling me they're having a hard time I'm nothing but nice and I try to cheer them up, not tell them that they're their own problem. People rarely ever pay me back on time if they bother to pay me back at all. I'm sick of being walked on but whenever I try to act the way they do no one wants anything to do with me. On top of that I'm doing horribly in school. Not for lack of studying or trying but I guess I'm too fucking stupid to figure college out. When I try to ask friends who have taken the classes I'm struggling with they barely do anything and say go to tutoring. 'I already tried fucking tutoring it didn't help at all why do you think I'm asking you' is what I think while they act as if I'm just not trying. WTF is wrong with me that I can't get anyone to feel anything for me but annoyance and disgust I feel like just quitting, shutting down and going through the motions like some kind of robot. I can't take feeling like a door mat anymore
|Posted by Torn Heart at November 27, 2011|
From Where shall i begin!!!!!!! when i was a child and my dad was away and when i broke my leg he refused to come and see me and i felt i was alone in the world....or when i found our that my sister has a boy friend with whom she travels every where and lies to mum and asked to lie for her which made me lose trust and faith in every one around....or when my uncle died when i was 17 and my dad prevented me from seeing my cousins as he feared they use me and i found out that the reason he didn't come to see me when i broke my leg as a child is that he feared hospitals and believed that when he visits someone in hospital this person dies.
Or when i first loved a person and thought that my happiness finally arrived, and then he left me with no reason
or when i became close to my dad to find out that he'll die of Cancer!!!! and my grieve on him got me a madical condition that makes it hard for me to be pregnant......
Or when i loved for the second time and i had to leave him as my brother didn't approve my marriage from him and my brother was more of my father and so i took the decision to give up love for family.
OR when i loved for the third time and lived the happiest moments of my life.....days and nights of happiness and laughters and then my family refused him as in their opinion he wasn't up to him and it was easier for them to see me cry for a full year day and night, than to accept my marriage from the man i loved and this is all he wasn't top schools ...
|Posted by anonymous at November 3, 2011|
you all think your life sucks. i have no true friends. i haven't done anything wrong and i'm being punished by life. my best friends talk about me behind my back. my best friend in the whole damn world called me an immature snobby ugly selfish self centered bitch. my friends are ruining my relationship with my boyfriend. and my parents think that i am a druggie. i'm talked about all the time. my "friends" are turning on me and i can't take it. i wanted to smash my face repeatedly against the concrete. i was so tempted to until my father came home. i want to die so bad i can feel like everyone wants me to too. do you guys ever imagine what would happen if you killed yourself and wondered what everyone would do? do you think if everyone and thing would realize what they did was wrong? i honestly have no friends. i'm not lying i can feel myself slowly dying. i hate me self and my life. i feel like absolute crap and i feel like i can't do anything right. no one cares about me even my boyfriend is sick of me he told me. i can't stand my life why was i even born if i would grow up with a terrible life?
|Posted by vaguy19 at November 1, 2011|
I don't see the point in going on anymore... I don't want to kill myself but I don't know what else I can do... I'm going to college and so far this year is sucking big time, even worse then last year.
My job sucks, my manager is an idiot and shows huge favoritism to his friends and screws over everybody else. I work hard, do my job, and do it well but yet I find people who don't or haven't been there nearly as long getting the "promotions." I get minimum wage and employees can only work 20 hours a week during the semester. What's worse is no matter how much or where I apply, no where else has given me a call back or even an interview...
My friendships sucks, I hardly hear from any friends anymore, we've spent like 6 years together and now nothing. To make that worse some friends I've made at college have blamed me for stuff they did to save themselves from getting into trouble. (thankfully no trouble happened beyond being blamed)
My relationship life sucks, In this past year alone I've had at least 4 girls just play me and mess with me. One who chose 2 different guys over me, one who claimed to love me but not enough to wait for us to be together. But the worst of all is the one I'm in love with pretty much wants nothing to do with me because I live 6 hours away for school. I'm sure no girl likes me or wants to go out/ be with me...
So aside from having hardly any true friends, a crappy job, being single and alone, I'm not having any good luck with anything I do...
|Posted by indi23q at October 9, 2011|
All my friends are full of shit,my best friend that i have known for 10 years is hooking up with my ex and i feel appalled.Honestly wtf is she thinking?I knew i could never trust her but seriously what a two faced fucking rat.Not only that but i've put on so much weight and i feel fucking dreadful,nobody knows how it feels like to live up to the exceptions of my family either. My sister's going to be the doctor of the family and my hopes and dreams are fucked because lets face it i fuck up in school way too much to get a good career.Not only that be me and my father haven't spoken properly in at least 6 years because his a bastard.
fml right now.
|Posted by anonymous at October 5, 2011|
I used to have a best friend, but my bitchiness tore us apart. I always thought of myself as a nice person until I pushed her away, and the sad part is that I was trying to seem more 'cool.' Now I feel like I've fucked up so much that I don't deserve a new best friend, and I know for a fact that she will never trust me again. My new friends are jerks, and I now have self confidence below the floor. My best friend was the person who kept me sane, she reminded me to smile. Now I don't know what it even feels like to truly laugh, let alone be comfortable around my peers. I'm worried I screwed up my life too much already, and I'm still only in high school. I have walls set up to guard me from the opposite sex, and I don't even know who I am anymore. And what I have become, I hate more than anything.
|Posted by Nup at October 4, 2011|
My friend told me she's jealous because I spend too much time with my best friend. I apologized to her and promised to spend equal time with her. I told my dad about this, he said don't apologize, your allowed to have other friends besides, you never actually ditched or left your friend. 4 weeks later my so called friend has completely befriended me, is being stupid and 'trying' to make me jealous by liking my best friend more than me. Fuck. I hate her, she always gets her way. Thanks to her my best friend is leaving next yr. She got her way. Now I'm a sorry bitch who is crying every night because of my best friends absence. FUCK YOU L.L I HOPE YOU RELIZE WHAT YOU PUT ME THROUGH AND HOW IM FEELING INSTEAD LF THINKING OF YURSELF 24/7. I HATE LIFE! it never works out the way u want it to. Fuckin hell
|Posted by akil60 at September 7, 2011|
I am 21 years old.I had lot of friends during my school days.but after some days,most of them went separatly,some friends were with me but last year after college they also went abroad.now im alone.If i think of going shopping i don't have friend to go.althoug i have a cell phone there are only 21 contact numbers most of them are my relations and 4-5 friends.if i ring them they talk to me.just hai n how r u... thts all.life sucks...
|Posted by anonymous at September 2, 2011|
I just can't believe that one day I'l end up writting all these... But it's high time that I should pen down something..
Well, here it goes!I just turned 25 and I always believed in true friendship. I thought I have hell lot of friends. Unfortunately I realized that they are a group of people who need me for some reasons. When I sit and analyze, I understand that there is not even a single friend of mine who really understands me..They talk to me just because I'm a chatterbox and so they can have a great timepass!
Isn't it funny that all these days I was taking care of them without knowing the fact that they are actually laughing at me??? I never expect anything from anyone. Still it hurts when I realize that there is not even a single person whom I can count on.
I remained single through out my life since I want to be loyal to my future husband. I can't think of dating someone or flirting with someone and getting married to someone else..Because of this nature, my friends are telling that I can't be romantic and so I can never be a good wife !
I'm giving up... I realized that there is nothing so called friendship.. its all conditional...what a life!
Still I have a best friend... My God...He is there with me always and I know his care is eternal..
|Posted by anon at August 19, 2011|
Just very depressed and feel like I don't know where I am going these days. I was engaged to be married to a man who became very abusive. We ended up having a child together and when my son was 2 months old, he attacked me for the last time and I left him. Haven't seen my ex since (my son is 5 1/2 now). My restraining order just expired after 5 years and I just filed for full custody and restricted visitations (not that he'd ever be interested in seeing his own son, but just in case). My baby boy is my life. I love him so much and probably could not breathe without him. Being single, I discovered a lot about myself and found out I enjoy the company of a woman much more than the company of a man (no bible verses or hate comments please..just want to vent so if you hate gays, just leave me alone please). I got involved with a woman who was wonderful with my son and we were together for 2 1/2 years. One problem, though. She was too much of a drinker and eventually, I had to cut her loose. She was there for my son and I so much and I miss her terribly, but I can't have that kind of behavior around my son. It also led me to drink more, which I needed to stop right away.
I have a decent job and have been going to school since 2009 for my BS in Business at the University of Phoenix. I just see negative publicity about the school and I fear that I won't find anything once I graduate next year. I've truly busted my ass in school and have achieved nothing but A's and B's a...
|Posted by Zachh at August 14, 2011|
Im a young guy that has good friends and it like i have to sides of me one i can trust my friends but the ether part of me is pulling me down telling me there hiding some thing from me.Every time i try to do some thing with a friend some thing comes up with family or they cant make its and that hap ins a lot and my ether side tells me its ok take it out on your self by cutting.Im a christian and i beliven GOD i go to church and thats the only time im happy and help out. I work very hard i get boss around and i take it but the ether part of me wont to tell them i dont care or ether things.I like being with my friend that is like my brother but i only tell people how i feel or tell them about the dark side when im very down and have no one there for me
|Posted by anonymous at August 11, 2011|
Where to start... I'm 39 yrs old, gay and widower. I had a partner for over 18 years and he passed away last year. Ever since, life has been a constant struggle; it hurts even to wake up and get up. I don't have that many friends, mainly because while I had my partner we were everything to each other and we felt we just didn't make that many friends. I can't really make friends at work, because I work from home. So, the days are hopelessly empty and long. At least during the day I get distracted with work-related stuff. When the evening approaches, I start to panic because I have no one to talk to and I can only watch so much TV. I tried making new friends online, but they must sense my desperation and run away as soon as I meet them - maybe it's my physical appearance, I guess I'll never know. I joined a gym to work out my anxiety, it helps for a little while.
I have a severe problem meeting people, I guess they call it social phobia. In short, I freeze and don't know what to say whenever I'm in a situation where people are speaking to me. Because I freeze and don't say a thing, people just walk away or don't bother to reach out and get a conversation going. There are nights when I just take sleep medicine to stop the pain of being aware and awake. In my sleep I am happier, my partner is there, I can make friends and have a normal life. I wish my dreaming life were my real life. Sometimes I feel like taking the whole bottle and just keep on dreaming... but I hav...
|Posted by LAN at August 11, 2011|
I feel bad that I have to pick just one instance to describe how incredibly awful my life has been recently. It all started on the day I like to refer to as World War Z (i hope someone gets that reference). Shit really exploded that day and standing in between two people you love so that no one gets knocked the fuck out is trying to one's soul. I wasn't taking sides because they both were acting like 12 year old girls. So theres the loss of my friendship I believed to be so solid. Everyone took a side and played the devil's advocate, while I sat idly by and hoped they'd work it out. While I sat in awe of my surroundings and the energy being wasted by these people I love, life threw me my very own shit storm, and his name was Billy. He caught me a very fragile and lonely time, so accepting him into my life was easy and it seemed right. I don't want to go into the details of this relationship because everyone knows what I mean. It was bad, okay, just a down right terrible process and decision. Honestly I just feel stupid and thats more embarrassing than anything. On top of all these things, my roommate decided to go on a drug binge and quit her job. Even though she has a better one now and she's not up eating mushrooms and "rolling her face off" on molly, I am still struggling with the debt she put on me. It also happens that I might not be able to afford to take classes this year, so I feel very stuck. LIFES A BITCH, but at least i'm not starving and I sleep in a bed at night.
|Posted by JG at August 10, 2011|
Just another unimportant person telling a crappy story on a minor website. I know this peobably wont get accepted, but im typing this for my benefit. Not for your "entertainment". Anyway, I never had real friends. I wanted them, but could never get them. People just seem to dislike me. A doctor once told me I had aspergers because I was so quiet and antisocial. He was probably wrong. I realized I was gay, and had a crush on this gay guy. I asked him out and was rejected. This crushed me pretty badly. My coming out on facebook only got a few likes. I was addicted to cutting 2 months ago. Now I cant take off my shirt because I have so many scars. This is for the rest of my life. Im thinking of starting cutting again, because its the only thing that makes me feel happy anymore. I am ugly and fat, even though im not overweight. I tried to kill myself a couple months ago, but failed badly. It was a serious attempt. Now my parents wont let me do anything and I have to go to doctors and take meds. This is my fault. I just wish I could restart my life, or maybe begin life as a new person. I know that I will grow up to be a lonely loser, and I do not regret trying to kill myself. I know im not as bad as other people on this site, but I need to vent. Sorry for wasting your time.
|Posted by Dre at August 8, 2011|
i wish i were dead. i dont have a job, every friend i get is fake n dont really want me in their lives and i dunno theres just so much bullshit around everything that i cant do anything. whats the point trying if u know nothings gonna work out?? just so tired of this.. like all id need is new woman few more friends and that job so why does taht have to be so fucking difficult?? nobody wants to hire new guys here they just take some master degree from sweden to do everything and thats fine just fuck the locals n rotate couple pricks.. fuck this i dont give a shit anymore.
|Posted by anonymous at August 6, 2011|
i know my life isent as bad as most people on here, but i feel the need to share. Everyone around me is just so stupid and immature. I dont really have any friends because anyone that has more maturity than an 8 year old is "too popular". I met a girl this week and turns out she liked me. I found out the next day shes moving to a diffrent state. Since then i've really looked at my life and im gettting tired of hearing the stories of how my parents had great times and how my brother is so smart and has good friend. Why do i have to find a nice girl that i like right before she moves? It sucks.
|Posted by anonymous at August 3, 2011|
I work 60 to 70 hours a week. In debt. Cannot see friends because I'm always working. A few stopped calling since it takes me days to return their calls. I don't want to lose me friends. If I have a day off I want to spend the time with family and clean my apartment. Tomorrrow I will spend time with friends after I call off sick.
|Posted by anonymous at July 25, 2011|
Until this year i had a good amount of friends, but now i have none most of my old friends got into drugs and left me behind most of my other friends just left me behind because they saw me and still do see me as an embaressment to them and there social status, so now when they see my i get greeted by ignorant slurs and being made fun of all the time, rarely do i leave my house, because i have nothing to do outside my home so with having no friends what so ever i spend most of my time cleaning and taking care of dogs, i don't know what happened over the summer that made every thing turn to shit but it happened to me, unlike my old friends i have no social status my brother puts me down sometimes just because he is older and knows that he can i have no self a steam at all, so beside all the put downs i have come to, and all the bully forced in my direction i have nothing at all besides family i don't know when this will change or if it ever will i hope it does and to all the people who will read this and say wow what a looser i no longer care i have heard every name in the book so i no longer care what people say to me or about me so before you people add on to the pain i already sucome to think about how much damage you will inflict upon me
|Posted by jaded and 18 at July 21, 2011|
Well my boss asked me to get him shrooms. Fucked up right? And so once I thought I had a trusty creaked he is totally flaking on me. I told my boss I already had them...well now I don't and I promised them tomorrow. And now he's gonna fire me basically. And my best friend of like 10 years has started lying to me about wanting to hang out. And my mom died a few months ago. And I'm fucking my ex boyfriend...bad move. And my sister is pretty much crazy.