LIFE SUCKS : Relationship

Why me??

I'm a seventeen girl living in hell. It all started after I was sexually assulted by my guy "best friend" last year on April 1st. My aspects on guys changed. I known him for years and trusted him. The only peron who stpped me from killing myself a year before that because I was so sick of life. I would constantly get picked on in school and get called "spook" which meant ugly and a dicksucking hoe. None of this was true. I messed with nobody in my school because I knew if i did, it would be everywhere. Boys would come my way with the sweet talk to try and get in my panties but i wasnt stupid. when thy didnt get what they want, they would make up false rumors about me. The rumors got so bad that it got to my parents, which made them question was i sexually active. I wasn't. I was still a virgin. I wanted to kill myself because i saw no reason for me to live if i did was get critized, and bullied. Girls would threaten to beat me up through faebook, and in person. I did nothing to anybody. I never got why the school hated me so much. I felt alone. After i was sexually assulted, i lost my mind. i had no one. my guy best friend bragged about how he hit that, which techinally he didnt because it was sodmny... he would tell me how much he hated me and how i had no reason to live. i was believing these words because i had noone. I started to give myself up to the world, including two other boys, which one have me an STD, Chylmia a month ago. I got treated for it but he didnt. he s...

I just hate everything

I moved to a horrible city for my dream job, only to find out on my first day that I was being demoted to the crappiest job of all: Technical phone support. I was told that there was little to no chance of them ever promoting me, and that I'm not "manager material" so I'm pretty much stuck. Recently the head people at my job held a meeting and decided to cut out half the jobs in the IT department, so I'll probably be fired, except it took 8 months to get this job in the first place, so I'm probably screwed. I live in a crappy apartment that smells like piss no matter what I do, I drive a crappy car that's beat all to hell, and I have a crappy income that doesn't leave much for savings. My boyfriend is getting depressed and discouraged because he can't get into medical school, and I can't help him because I'm so depressed and discouraged. I'm gaining so much weight I've got stretch marks on my arms. As much as I want to stop gaining weight, stuffing myself with cheeseburgers and donuts is the only thing that makes me feel better and not want to drive my car the wrong way during rush hour. The combo of stress and hormonal birth control is making me break out in giant, incredibly painful zits. My parents and I haven't spoken in years, but they've suddenly started demanding that I go back to school because I'm such a disappointment. My sisters won't talk to me because they think that me going to school was to show them how much better I am than them (It wasn't, some people just go to college after high school, others don't). I'm buried in student loan debt that I can barely make the payments on and will be paying until I die, all so I could get the crappy job I have. So, in summary: I am a fat, pimply loser who nobody loves and is buried in debt, who spends all day getting yelled at by people who can't turn on a computer, and I will probably be stuck like this for the rest of my life. I'm tempted to tell my boyfriend to get out while he still can.

Nobody knows

Everyone thinks I have lots of friends. I'm sure more people care about me than I realize. But God I feel so alone.

I am declaring Chp 7 bankruptcy next month. Went through a tax audit that left me due money and then lost my job last year. No one knows my situation except a few people. Everyone thinks I have a near-perfect life, in some ways. But I don't.

I have often just felt so different than others. I know I couldn't be. But sometimes I feel intellectually on a plane that maybe isolates me from others. Also my experiences have led to that--I have chosen to pursue careers in foreign countries, to do things that simply lead to having to make new friends and go through lonely times.

People seem to want to use me a lot. Men for attention, people in my social group (church, mostly) I feel like just want gossip. I read once "I make love on the stage to millions, then I go home alone.". I identified. I have done speaking and sales work where that feels like my story.

The man I love is a pathological liar. It's very sad to accept that he will never be who I thought he was. And when he has realized I've found out about his lies, rather than want to fix them or apologize, he runs away scared to death that someone saw through him. So it's even been me often who has to coax him back. He agreed to therapy. But during it he was again lying to the therapist and me. Women contacted me through Facebook, basically, telling me what else he had goi...

Sweet Release of Death

I hate my fucking life, been married for 5 years, 2nd time with the same woman, we were married in 1999 divorced 2001 then remarried 2007.. I have anger issues which she does seem to understand that her kids SUCK.. They don't give a fuck about me, her or the house.. They treat my and the wife like fucking slaves. So last week I lost it just lost it and then we seem to put eventhing back together I apologized again for my outburst but it doesn't matter. I told her how i felt like an outsider - nothing.. Now the 2 little fucks are graduating college and we're having a party for them and I don't want to be here.. This weekend I am meeting with some friends to watch hockey, drink beer and eat burgers just before the party on Saturday night.. I plan on riding my HOG to meet the boys, can't promise I will come back at all. If the opportunity presents itself I am going to look for a way out of this measible rotton life. Yeh I know ge thelp, so fucking what. Even if I get help I am on double secret probation and cant even get the least bit ticked off or it's fucking divorce.. I am so fucking tired of all this stress and not feeling like I matter to this woman.. No matter what I do how well I overcome this obstacle I still end up a looser.. WORD to all of you DON'T FUCKING GET MARRIED.. It's not worth.. I am sure this bitch of mine has already talked to a lawyer. So if I self terminate like I plan she get's nothing - slit the wrist, take some pills, blow my head off - she gets 0.. Perhaps that's the way out.

One gun + two bullets = two dead bodies

Hi, I'm 29, work as a construction worker, my job required me to work 6 days a week, 9 hours a day. I had a beautiful girlfriend, who left me 3 months ago, left me for my brother. 8 months ago was all good, until I let my brother moved in with me and my girl. It all start with both of them having strong conversations while I'm out the room and when I returns they both goes in silent mode. One night we was watching a movie together, the 3 of us, I got tired close to the middle of the movie so I went to bed and left them up. Half way into sleep, I hear moans, laughter and other weird noises in the living room, and it didn't sounded like it was coming from the T.V, it sound very real, like my girlfriends voice. I walked in there, and they both jumped as if I almost caught them doing something, so I asked what's going on my brother say....nothing, you scared the shit out of us man, you know were watching this horror movies. So after that, my girlfriend finally came to bed. The next day I got ready for work, I find them both again in each others faces, didn't think nothing but told them both that I'm off to work and see them later. Lunch break, my nightmare begins. I came home on lunch break, which something I normally don't do. Had my house keys, unlock door and headed straight to my room, only to find my brother and girlfriend both sleep, nakedness, and on top of covers. I woke the both of them up, my brother and I both fighting, I went to closet for my gun and put it to his head and told him to get the fuck out my house. I told my girlfriend that I will kill her and then take myself out, she left as well. I did attempt suicide but couldnt do it. Sometimes I wish I had the courage to actually pulled that trigger.

me and my sister share a friend, i wont say his name just in case , so i'll call him " dude". my sister is dating dudes best friend when dude tells me he likes me and he thinks we should get together ... i liked dude, but considering his history and also because my sister was really pushing me to say yes, i said no. i friends zoned him , which i felt terrible about, leading to a brief period of self harm. my sister knows how upset and unsure i am about the situation. i later find that she has ended the relationship with her boyfriend and tells me she is with someone knew now. one day she pulls me into a room and tells me that she is now dating dude, but dude wants my permission first. still in shock i did what i thought was right and told them i was happy for them and they had my permission/blessing. however i know my sister and thou i hate to admitt it she has a habit of hurting/ mistreaating guys. i tryed to warn dude about this the next day and he goes and tells her that i was " bitching" about her and " causing trouble" she then comes to me and we argued briefly but got over it quite quickly, dude apologised for betraying my trust but i refuse to speak to him. considering my sister recently ended the relationship with dudes best friend, i find it wrong that she has gone out with dude. dudes best friend says he's over it and doesnt mind ... but when i've talked to him he clearly does mind and is affected and my sister isnt allowing him to move on, by hanging around and getting annoyed when he is with other girls. i just know its all going to end horribly. but i dont have the guts to end her short bursts of happiness with her regularly changing boyfriends. the best i can think to do is back away from the situation and let what happens happen. so far thats what i've done. i hope the best for dude.

Relationship

I was in a 6.5 year relationship and we have a son, we broke up over a year ago and he has been trying ever since to get me back, I had met the most amazing guy in that time and wanted to share my life with him. my ex has made it almost impossible to do this,in January my ex asked me to marry him and I said no, we had gone to dinner with our son, since he asked if Mommy & Daddy can have dinner together. I didn't think anything of it nor did it mean anything to me, but I wasn't honest with my current bf, he now knows and is extremely upset with me and he has every right, but I am scared that this may end the relationship, how can I fix this

When it rains it pours...

I don't know where to start off. For 3 and a half years I was with this wonderful man, His family was rich, mine was not. He didn't seem to care but his family did. Because of this it left me alone. I wen't on vacation in the caribbean where I am from right after we had this huge fight and finished. When he found out he felt bad, we patched everything up...until he ended it...He ended it in the worst way possible, before we dated we were friends, everyone thought great things of us. He cut me off, no longer speaks with me. He texted me not too long ago just saying my name and saying he is sorry...I didn't reply. I couldn't. This is now 2 years ago and I'm still feeling it. Can't listen to some songs, can't think about events..I've had guys interested in me but no matter how perfect they are I am not happy. I have one now that showers me with money gifts, anything I can want. Despite how I take my frustrations out on him he still stays. His family are saints, angels, or whatever you like to call it. I know he can do much better which is why I'm letting him go. I should be so happy, but I am not. I want to be happy..but I am not. While the breakup with the 1st man I mentioned happened my closest brother got arrested, he wen't to jail and missed christmas. I am not family orientated but I do have a soft spot for him...I got him out on bail a few months later. But I can't do it anymore. I am moving to the caribbean...I can't stay up here anymore. Because of this I am having to put my brother in jail...because I can no longer be his surety...

Heart Broken

So, me and my boyfriend of two years just broke up a little over a week ago. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. Yes, I have been broken up with before, but I never loved anybody like how I love him. He was perfect for me, my parents fucking adored him, especially my dad, hell, my dad even got teary eyed when he heard we broke up. I didn't think it would be this hard, but it is so rough, i can't sleep, i can't eat, i try so hard to get my mind off of him, but nothing seems to help. I have friends that call me throughout the day, but by the end of the day I just want him. We broke up because he just graduated college and I still have two years and he tried so hard to find jobs around here but he kept getting turned down. He finally decided to join the air force, and told me that he wanted a break. I asked him if he was happy that we broke up and he said no and i said neither am i then he said i know :( ... Why did he have to make this choice? I hate it i feel betrayed but at the same time i need to let him do what he wants, he did say in two years when i graduate and if i still felt the same i could move to where he was stationed, but that's two years. I love him very, very much and i have done a lot for this man more than I have ever done and will do for anyone else. I wanted to marry him and have babies with him, hes so perfect for me and now that hes out of my life i feel so alone, unloved, miserable, and depressed. I try to hide it and repress it but by the end of the nite i sit alone in my room on my bed and cry. I hate the pain, I hate the sadness, and no one can help that go away but him, but hes not here with me. I miss him so much and want him back.

20 years of regrets

I married the man of my dreams and embarked on a life I thought was the answer to my childhood dreams. Little did I know.... First, I gave up my career to relocate once we married and never found a job in my field again. Then there were 6 painful years of infertility. We finally adopted 2 boys and I thought life was better only to discover the hidden truths of adoption. My boys lied to me constantly, stole from us and got themselves into all kinds of trouble at home and school that we learned later was because they have fetal alcohol syndrome. We weren't told at the time of placement and I argued for years about them having problems while their father worked more and more hours to avoid the entire situation and not have to face the truth of the situation while I gained weight and sank into a depression so deep I thought there was no end...Found myself pregnant at age 38 and again at age 40 giving birth to two healthy and beautiful little girls that were the answer to my prayers. Oldest son got a disability ruling and moved to a group home only to reconnect with his birth mother and throw us away....as in he never wants to see us again. Second son continued to spiral out of control. Learned a few months ago he was sexually assaulting his sisters. Turned him in myself and he is now a registered sex offender under the authority of the juvenile department of corrections in our state for criminal sexual misconduct in the second degree. Both boys out of the house, husband still a workaholic and I am a stay at home mom. You'd think I'd be happy....but I'm not. I never go anywhere, all my friends work and have successful, adult children and we've grown apart. Most of all I resent that at age 45, I have no life. This was never my dream.

feeling lost

I was about to get married with my boyfriend of over 8 years. We planned to have our wedding in 4 months but ever since he proposed at the end of last year we have had numerous arguments. The arguments were all related to family issues and wedding plannings. We are sharing all wedding expenses. We decided to move into his parents' house after marriage. This is because we want to save more money and eventually purchase our own place. I am a girl who is straightforward and sometimes emotional. I sometimes have low self-esteem and my boy friend is sometimes controlling and emotional. He does not like my parents and I tried to maintain a good relationship with his parents. However, ever since we started planning the wedding, I figured that he always tells me to shut up and ignores my feelings and he doesn't want my parents to give opinions either. Our two families are very different so there are different expectations from our wedding. As a bride, I already tried to keep my mouth shut for the most part but then I became extremely worried that all of us will not get along after I move in to their house after the wedding. I worried because I do not want to keep quiet about all my feelings for the rest of my life. I think I should say how I feel and what I want even though what I want may not be want I get. I told him a few times about my worries and he said that I am trying to blame his parents and that I want to make all the decisions for the wedding. His mom called my mom as ...

Life sucks

There is so much to say about my life, but I will just talk about what happened recently. I am 40 years old, just graduated from graduate school with a PhD. I may have a job, but I am not sure. It was hard for me to graduate and now I feel that I just squeaked by and have no future. I am divorced and have a 10 year old from that marriage. I got pregnant by accident and had a baby a year ago with a man I didn't really want to be with. Now we are together because of the baby and sometimes he makes me sick. He tends to drink too much and doesn't make much money working contruction. He is not very stable and I am afraid he is going to get fired and we will have no income. Because I was busy with school and children, I have no friends and I am lonely. I am stuck with a man because I need him to help pay the rent and I have a baby and just graduated at the age of 40. I see people loving their lives and having fun and I always feel that I have the short end of the stick.

fed up with this life

i'm a 18 year old girl..few years ago i had the most wonderful times of my life..i had good friends..actually i thought they were nice and loyal and bla bla bla..but later i found out they were not real friends..i used to date a guy who's very genuine to me..he's perfect..but things didn't turn out as i expected..my mom n dad found out about my affair..and my dad threatened me that he would kill my boyfriend..well my dad has anger issues..i guess that's because he's an army officer..( i live in an Asian country..our culture is totally different and itz not westernized..they consider dating is an inappropriate thing at the age of 15 16..that's all bullshit) so i pretended that i have stopped dating him..but i continued chatting and emailing him..and itz been almost 2 years since i met him last time..and we are still chatting with each other..i'm not allowed to go anywhere by myself..my mom's always around me..:( i'm sick of this..i dont have a so called privacy..they interfere with my life a lot ..and i go to roman catholic school where the discipline and rules are very strict..and after a couple of months i'll be facing a huge exam..my whole future depends on it..but i can't focus on my studies..if i fail the exam my mom n dad will eat my brains out..i'm so stressed these days..i just dont know what to do..i mean i dont have anyone to talk to..i don't have any friends..i'm the only one in my family..i don't have any cousins..i do have cousins but they are busy in spreading false rumors about my life..and gossiping .i'm fed up with my life:(

love story gone bad.

I'm 20 y/o. I've been moving and changing schools ever since I can remember never stayed in one place long enough to make a true friend I have friends that live all over the world but none keep in touch unless I talk to them first. I'm the nicest guy you'll meet and people just seem to keep taking advantage oof me including the one woman I love.. I had to leave my life and gf overseas to move with my fam back to the states... When I got here I moved again to live with my grandma in a 1 bedroom apt. So that I can work for my uncle at his restaurant. He makes me work 9-9 7 days a week. Its hell I work more than anyone there I do everything from cooking to cleaning washing dishes waiting on tables deliverys and purchasing all the products we use. I have no time off wich gives me no life. But since I came here I fell in love with my uncles fiancee who's 28. Who also fell in love with me. For about 9 months we were unseperable. We txtd all day and all night we loved every second we had together and we took things to a different level when we started an affair.. We had sex like rabbits every chance we got. At one point she was ready to leave him for me.. A few months ago she found out she was pregnant and she doesn't know who the father is but she decided to have the baby and say it was his. She and I wanted to save face because she is very egotistical she did not want anyone knowing she had an affair with her fiancee's nephew. This left me heartbroken and lonely. I know I plac...

My father left my mother five years after I was born. They divorced in
a settlement where my mom got a lump sum and no child support.
At age 10, I started delivering pot for a friend of mine named Luke.
I made 17,000 over a period of 3 years then moved.
My parents forced me to sign over 11,000 for a house they wanted.
I spent the rest on transportation, favors, my friends.
My stepfather has borderline. He rages all the time.
I've been thrown down 2 flights of stairs for switching a t.v. off,
punched, strangled.
I never missed curfew, worked a job until I was put into halfway homes,
and cleaned the house/respected all property/bought all my own food.
When I was 19 I met a 19 year old psychopath. He got kicked out of depaul
for selling stolen alcohol to minors. Then he commited assault against
someone his high school girlfriend cheated on and left him for.
8 40$ video games and a $70 dollar bb gun were stolen.
I was implicated in the theft.
Paid for 70 worth of gas to indiana, then was robbed of 40 out of
my pocket. Then he threatened to kill me and said if I
made any attempts on his life he would "Call the police."
Wanted to marry someone but he was always married.
Now I'm 20 and he offered to get divorced.
I live with him, but he constantly tells me to wash my face,
pull up my panties, etc.
I've always cut my own hair, dyed it etc.
My bf saw some girl on the street, and told me to
either go to a salon right then or he would drop me off
at the nearest corner and just leave me.
How do I stand up for myself, and get away from abuse =(

How do I make this better?

I'll try to keep this brief but meaningful. I am in love with a man who I think is amazing. Yes, he's flawed and scared, has trust and abandonment issues. But he's also smart and generous, incredibly sweet and caring about others, including me. Does he love me back? As much as he's able (given his past family/relationship traumas).

We've been "together"/exclusive for over 2 years - all long distance. We haven't been able to see each other in almost 10 months because of work/money but we talk almost everyday. I can go for days without anyone speaking to me or asking after me or returning my calls, except for him. My "friends" and family? I hardly ever hear from them. Maybe an occasional text message, but that's because I reached out to them first. When they do talk to/text me, all they tell me is to leave him, find someone better (which, for them I think just means local).

And now I've messed up. Because of my fears of rejection and my sadness, I've done something stupid and pushed him away. I didn't cheat or anything like that. I just got really needy and clingy, and I think I was suffocating him. I'm giving him space because last night that's what he asked. I haven't called or texted or emailed. But now I really am alone. No one takes my calls. I have no one talk to about the pain and sadness I feel. I just don't know what to do.

Everything gone to Hell

Last year was the best year of my life. Until I got married to a man that only wanted money and some of my best friends. My dad and mom works for a law firm and my dads a lawyer. I met this wonderful guy who I thought loved me and want it to spend the rest of his life with me. My parents told me so, they told me that he looked up to no good and might be after one thing but I was so in love I wouldn't listen, plus they said its was an age different, which I'm 22 and he's 34. Anyway, so we went on and got married and stay happily for at least 10 months until I came home and found him and my bestest friend on the living room floor, under a blanket and naked. I couldn't do nothing but scream at the both of them and cry like I just seem two dead bodies. So being caught in the act and couldn't explain, he then told me why he really married me, that's because my parents had money and he knew whenever they give me money, I always give to him because I was so easy to get things out of. My friend, well ex friend, she then told me as well that they both have been seeing each other for 3 months in the marriage. I could of killed the both of them. So now I have no one, hardly any friends now, I been so depressed that I tried to drink myself to death by a bottle of vodka and than tried to Chase it with pills. I been in a mental hospital and was diagnose with depression and now on meds for it. My life I had, the guy I met, my marriage, everything is gone to hell. My parents was so right, I was just so of an stupid idiot to listen, now I'm damaged forever over loss of love, I'm never trusting anyone again.

apathy 74

I don't know where to begin . i had a wife that chose drugs over me an her children i now raise both my kids an have been for three yrs .i can't seem to find a good women an its getting lonely like to the point where I'm starting to think what's the point to life anymore it is hard to do this alone but no women want a man with kids is what I'm finding out they r 3 an 6 what the he'll happened to good women today .and now I'm becoming numb an hollow inside .i just don't know what to do i really don't but i do know i don't believe in shit anymore (nothing ) i do right an just get shit on an get nowhere .what the fuck ever

What A Woman Wants

I hate men. Yesterday, I was walking alongside the road and a car drove by with two guys in it and one of them leaned out and smacked my ass. Of course they drove off laughing. Whatever. When I was a teenager, the perverted laundry guy used to barge into my dad’s house to deliver his uniforms just to catch me naked coming out of the shower. He did that one too many times and my dad caught him and punched him and shoved him out the front door! Never saw him deliver uniforms to our house again. My dad has two big shot guns, just to keep things even- I constantly have bad run ins with dudes. I’ve punched a bunch right in the face. I’m so lucky, they seem to be drawn to me like flies to shit. And that’s what I think of them- SHIT! They’re constantly trying to get in my pants. It’s ridiculous the extent that they go to, but I know their true intention. It’s all about sex. I don’t want to get pregnant. I don’t want to get close to a man. They’re monsters. Every guy that I know cheats on his girlfriend. It’s like they’ve got pussy on the brain 24/7 and they just want to poke their dick into any hole they can find! Fuck men. Fuck guys. They’re all cheaters. They’re all dogs. HUMP HUMP HUMP. That’s all they want to do! When a guy comes near me and starts wanting to hump my leg I want to cringe. Just thinking about them touching me makes my skin crawl. Maybe I’m a lesbian? The thought of kissing a girl makes me all tingly inside. My palms are starting to sweat just talking about it. Katy Perry says it’s good, so it must be? I’m gonna start taking boxing lessons so I can kick every guys ass that gives me shit. I’m going to start a group called WHAM (WOMEN HATING ALL MEN)! What do you think about that? WHAM BAM THANK YOU MAME. But in reality I just want a guy that has a nice pecker, doesn’t fucking play games, and has common sense.

IT HURTS SO FUCKING BAD

I am in so much fucking pain now. My father died today, anal cancer. Have you ever had to see a man constantly shit out all his body parts? It is disgusting. It pains me. My whore mother cheated on him for 40 years and he stayed with her. That bitch has a boy friend and she calls me today saying that they never divorced and she gets everything. Her boyfriend doesnt even know english. She met him at my fathers house mowing the lawn. When she told me she would get everything of my dads , I actually shit myself. My girlfriend ( who was smokin hot) was rite there and got so disgusted that she slapped me and then turned around and walked out to the car we came in and took off. (i bought her a camry with my money but put it in her name) So then I am in the house of my dead father with my mother and Miguel, Then my ex wife Pam shows up and tells me that she used my ss number to get a credit card and she charged it up over $18000. She laughs at me as she gets into her fucking new alien green camaro with her tuna ass girlfriend. What did I do? I left. I went to my house and my room mate was smoking ice in my living room with some black dudes. I screamed at them to get the fuck out of my house, and 50 cent looking bitch boy smacks my nose and breaks it. I go to the hospital, get my nose set, and find out dad didnt pay his premium and even though he died, I AMRESPONSIBLE FOR HIS BILL. did I tell you that my daughter and her el salvidorin wetback boyfrien stole my chevy last week and i didnt turn her in? Cops found the car, and are telling me even though she wrecked it i am responsible. Cant take this shit anymore. I hate mexicans. I hate women, and I hate midgets. FUCK YOU ALL , i WANNA DIE