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    Life really sucks now.

    Posted by ratmon19 at September 26, 2011
    Tags: Anxiety   2011 September   Sexuality

    So I'm a male 22 years old, and have been really depress lately. My story is, as a kid I was in special ed classes which ruined my life, my mom ruined my life. I have trouble speaking, which caused me to be odd when approaching people cause I lose confidence causing me too fear people. I tried getting distracted from the real would by playing video games but I just can't do that anymore. Plus I'm gay, so one I started High School I told my mom to take me off from S.E cause I didn't need it, she did. But then what? I had a big fear talking to anyone cause of my whole speech/gay problem. Once I was about 16 I started ditching school to go to the library cause thats how afraid I was of people. When I turned 17 I started working and going to college, but I still was the same person. At 18 I stop going to college cause I couldn't afford it anymore and started working in a fast food restaurant. There again being quiet most of the time, there I meet a guy and which he moved in with my family. My family were my only friends. From there I worked about a year counting different jobs, untill now I'm with my hubby and his family which sucks cause all I do everyday is be on the computer!!! Help!!!!


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    I suck

    Posted by John at September 20, 2011
    Tags: 2011 September   Sexuality

    I am 29 years GAY , i considered to be a good looking guy ,never was popular at middle-high school , or even at college , i had only one boyfriend and it lasted for one year only , it took my 2 years to get over him, it was hurtful , i had different jobs , all of them suck , i lived in different countries as well to find the ideal city , all of them suck .i came out to my best friend and told him that i am gay , it was awful, he treated me like a second class citizen , he is not my friend any more
    I work as lecturer in the University, so i had to move away from my town , i am away from friends and family , just i wanted this job badly because i wanted to be a popular , i wanted to get people`s attention, i wanted to be loved but people don't love me (i guess), they love the AAA`s and the high marks ,i love my job but i am having crush on many of my students , sometimes i feel myself slave to the cute students , just i want any chance to create a connections with them but i know its not going to work anyway , i cant find an ideal partner , imagine i go home and wank on my students? is not awful, how it would be like if they knew! i wish to have one of them as a partner.......
    i am trying all sort of dating but cant find him. what`s wrong with me! i am not ugly or bad , even i am so cheerful , respectful , know how to talk , i have interesting lifestyle , music , theatre , food !!! but i suck
    I am so lonely , no friends , no dates , no partner, no family ,
    just me alone , is this life!


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    acceptance

    Posted by anonymous at September 17, 2011
    Tags: Abuse   Childhood   2011 September   Sexuality

    i was still young when my older brother told me to play a game...i only realized it was sexual abuse when i turned 13. it happened around 10-15 times from what i remember. once, his friend also "played a game" with me. there was also this physically abusive dad, not only to me but also to my brother and mother. i couldn't complain...because i was just adopted. i felt so rejected, because of my real parents abandoning me. my brother wasn't adopted. my mom can't bear any more children after him. i love my mom. she was so kind and caring, and the reason i didn't leave was because of her.

    i became a closet gay. i pretended to be straight, because i was traumatized by rejection. there were also the bullies at school and the sexists. i've even pretended to fall in love with women, but in fact i fell in love with some of my straight friends. i can't express my love to them, since they were straight and they'll become awkward and possibly not talk to me ever again. so, i hid all my feelings to myself. it was really painful, but it's my way of dealing with it. i just wish that i could meet someone out there who can be my special someone, the person who i will love and love me back.


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    When will the pain end???

    Posted by anonymous at August 11, 2011
    Tags: 2011 August   Death   Friendship   Loneliness   Sexuality

    Where to start... I'm 39 yrs old, gay and widower. I had a partner for over 18 years and he passed away last year. Ever since, life has been a constant struggle; it hurts even to wake up and get up. I don't have that many friends, mainly because while I had my partner we were everything to each other and we felt we just didn't make that many friends. I can't really make friends at work, because I work from home. So, the days are hopelessly empty and long. At least during the day I get distracted with work-related stuff. When the evening approaches, I start to panic because I have no one to talk to and I can only watch so much TV. I tried making new friends online, but they must sense my desperation and run away as soon as I meet them - maybe it's my physical appearance, I guess I'll never know. I joined a gym to work out my anxiety, it helps for a little while.

    I have a severe problem meeting people, I guess they call it social phobia. In short, I freeze and don't know what to say whenever I'm in a situation where people are speaking to me. Because I freeze and don't say a thing, people just walk away or don't bother to reach out and get a conversation going. There are nights when I just take sleep medicine to stop the pain of being aware and awake. In my sleep I am happier, my partner is there, I can make friends and have a normal life. I wish my dreaming life were my real life. Sometimes I feel like taking the whole bottle and just keep on dreaming... but I hav...

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    Just another typical emo teen...

    Posted by JG at August 10, 2011
    Tags: Attitude   2011 August   Friendship   Sexuality

    Just another unimportant person telling a crappy story on a minor website. I know this peobably wont get accepted, but im typing this for my benefit. Not for your "entertainment". Anyway, I never had real friends. I wanted them, but could never get them. People just seem to dislike me. A doctor once told me I had aspergers because I was so quiet and antisocial. He was probably wrong. I realized I was gay, and had a crush on this gay guy. I asked him out and was rejected. This crushed me pretty badly. My coming out on facebook only got a few likes. I was addicted to cutting 2 months ago. Now I cant take off my shirt because I have so many scars. This is for the rest of my life. Im thinking of starting cutting again, because its the only thing that makes me feel happy anymore. I am ugly and fat, even though im not overweight. I tried to kill myself a couple months ago, but failed badly. It was a serious attempt. Now my parents wont let me do anything and I have to go to doctors and take meds. This is my fault. I just wish I could restart my life, or maybe begin life as a new person. I know that I will grow up to be a lonely loser, and I do not regret trying to kill myself. I know im not as bad as other people on this site, but I need to vent. Sorry for wasting your time.


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    Stuck in Hell

    Posted by Tormented at July 23, 2011
    Tags: Attitude   Health   2011 July   Sexuality

    I read through the topics here and I'm sorry but most of you are just whining about minor crap thinking you have it bad, I would trade places with any of you any day...

    I am a disabled guy with a severe health condition that has left me relying on my parents to take care of me. I have lost my independence, all my friends, my job and I have no social life because i can no longer get outside to do things by myself.

    The worst part is I caused my own disability by doing something really stupid which I don't want to say here because there may be people out there who could recognize me from my story. I did something harmful to myself because I was so upset about being gay and attracted to younger boys.

    Life is so horrible and cruel for some of us because you don't get to choose who you feel attracted to and for me I turned out to be a god dam monster because I find little boys attractive and that makes me a fucking pedophile. Its heartbreaking and a nightmare of a situation to be in, I would do anything to be normal but I'm not and every day I just wish I could die.

    Love is such a precious gift and I have been denied something so precious and meaningful because I can never be in a relationship, I can never be loved or be with anyone because my attraction is wrong and inappropriate. I have to spend my entire fucking life alone and isolated never knowing or feeling love because I just don't have any feelings for adults.

    On top of all that crap I also have this disability and I feel totally damaged both emotionally and physically. I spend everyday by myself, my bedroom has become like my prison cell and when I look outside it makes me cry because I see a world I can never be part of, I am missing out on life and there is no cure both for my disability and for being a pedophile, the only cure for me is death but because of my parents I have to put up with this shit life just so they don't get hurt by my suicide.


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    l

    Posted by worthless at July 22, 2011
    Tags: 2011 July   Sexuality

    im in love with a boy. he canīt love me back.

    same old story eh? been in love with him for 6 years now.

    he loves me like in a brotherly way, but of course, that
    is just not enough, never.

    today i almost ended both our lives in a big sudden depression.

    call me selfish if u like. dont care anymore what others think.
    i just want what everyone seems to have at
    some point. love. i dont love anybody but him, he saved my
    life once and since then i canīt seem to be able to just leave
    him the fuck alone.

    im crying right now and i dont know what ill do with myself right
    now but dying seems like a way out.

    i understand his position as well as the grotesque nature of my
    feelings but canīt live with it happily. I thought iīd stop liking him once
    he hit puberty but now i dont even like him, i just love him madly.
    Wish some idiotic bastard could just track me from here and shoot me
    on the fucking head.

    i have almost everything, but without knowing someone loves you back, life is worthless.

    hes 13, im 24. weīre both males. everybody go ahead and bash me. i dont care.

    i do hope i disgust some people. im sick of changing myself to be "likable" or "friendly". The boy didnt let me cut myself, he wants me to stay.


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    Venting

    Posted by anon at July 21, 2011
    Tags: Bad Luck   Childhood   2011 July   Life Story   Sexuality

    Ok so I've been physically and emotionally abused by my parents, as far as I can remember the first time was when I was 3 or 4 & stabbed with a fork. Molested and raped by my family growing up and by a guy who I thought was my friend. Never had any friends in school, always was made fun of because I was quiet. My parents never let me out of the house anyway as a teenager. Then finally got someone who I thought was nice to me and listened and protected me, my father's friend who is 32 years older then me. Fell in love, had to hide it until I was 18. Little did I know he took complete advantage of me, cheating the whole time, didn't know until I got pregnant with his kid at almost 19. Gave birth to my son and at 2 days old, he almost died in my arms. Turns out he has a very rare disease that effects 1 in 50,000 people. Now the most I can go is 4 hours without him eating or his blood sugar drops to dangerously low levels and could die. He needs to take very expensive medicine to stay alive and I'm getting very tired after 3 years of waking up every 3-4 hours but it has to be done. Shortly after I had my son I gained 70 lbs because of hypothyroidism and the weight just won't come off. I've discovered I have a breast deformity also. I've always had low self esteem and body image problems and now it's worse then ever. Guys always told me I was pretty but that was a big lie, never was pretty, never will be. Now I'm in college, trying to get in the dental hygiene program & having...

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    Everything

    Posted by anonymous at July 18, 2011
    Tags: 2011 July   Juvenile problems   Sexuality

    My name is Trevor I'm 14, and my life sucks balls..
    i have been molested, im gay, and both my parents died after being divorced since i was three.
    When i was born i had a family. my older brother and my parents. when i was three my father left because him and my mom had fights. after he left my mom started dating women not because she was lesbian but because she felt more in control. she was an alcoholic and barely let my dad visit. She was a great mother and loved me and my brother very much. Her and her girlfriends she brought home would always fight at night and sometimes even fist fought. When i was six i was molested by my pre-school janitor. i told my mom and she told the police and they put him in jail. That's when i got my first therapist. then when i was nine i was struggling with my sexuality and i didn't know what i was. soon after there was a fire im my house,me and my brother made it out and ran across the street to our neighbors. they called the fire department and we waited. my grandma arrived with the police and they sat down next to us. they told me and my brother that our mom tried to get to me and my brother instead of going to the backyard she ran into her closet which was right next to the door leading to us and got trapped she suffocated to death. My brother and I moved in with my grandma who takes care of me to this day. My brother and i went to group therapy and he got very angry over a few years. He would always yell and break things, so ...

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    How could i change my life

    Posted by aaaa at July 13, 2011
    Tags: 2011 July   Sexuality

    My life doesn't suck that much but sometimes I feel I came to this world as a mistake .. So 1. I am a lesbian I wish I go and d8 a girl but I can't because my friends are all straight and I can't show that I am lesbian because of family I know they wil never approve me .. 2 . At school I am hopeless I am always fail my family always match me to my sister who is good at everything .. I have acne i am not that slim i wish i am slimmer


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    i hate myself

    Posted by anonymous at June 24, 2011
    Tags: 2011 June   Juvenile problems   Sexuality

    i'm a 14yo girl from oz i'm gay and my life is bad my firend are always fighting their never stop none of my firends understand me i'm fat and ugly i can't get a girlfirend but i like this chick but i don't know if she like me my dad and mum tell me to tell her but i can't


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    i just hate it

    Posted by sm190113 at June 13, 2011
    Tags: Attitude   Friendship   2011 June   Sexuality

    i hate my life, it's as simple as that
    2 years ago i realized that i'm bisexual and i tried telling my mom only to find out that she's homophobic and thinks being gay is just wrong. so we kinds just let it go, i was scared to bring it up, still am. so I've been in the closet since then and let me just tell you that it gets really lonely and claustrophobic in here. it also doesn't help the fact that i have no friends what so ever so i never have anyone to talk to about anything. now when i get depressed i cut myself, but I've been trying to stop and i haven't in about 2 or 3 weeks. which i think is the longest I've gone without cutting since i started.

    i mean i try to make friends but i can't, i'm not that talkative and it takes me a while to let someone get close because in the past whenever i let someone in they just end up leaving without ever looking back. I've always been the i'm-just-hanging-out-with-you-cus-i-have-no-one-else-to-hang-with friend, or i'm-just-using-you friend. so it's really hard for me to trust anyone because of that another thing is that people seem like they wanna be friends with me but when it comes to hanging out after school i never get invited. i'm just the lone loser.

    plus my low self esteem doesn't really help, i try to move on and look to a better future but it just keeps getting harder everyday, especially when you keep getting shot down.

    oh i forgot to mention, things have also gotten so bad at a point when i though about suicide so now I'm just doing whatever it takes to get out of this shit hole of a home and looking forward to a better future. hopefully i'll make it

    till then i just hate my life.


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    Broken

    Posted by Tea at June 6, 2011
    Tags: Childhood   Family   2011 June   Relationship   Sexuality

    My life sucks, because I am incredibly alone. Its hard to go into everything painful that happened in my life. The main traumas were, my brother had anal sex with me when I was a kid, because our babysitter abused him while she locked me in my room. My mother was never all there. She was very cold and abrasive. She didn't cook or clean or read to us or do any touches to the house to make it a home. My father was an alcoholic. They had really bad fights that got loud and physical everyday. Once my father almost killed my mother. When I was 10 and 11 my mother had two more kids. She was cheating on my dad and my dad was at his worse violence and alcoholism too. They divorced and then, my father left. My mother worked nights so everyday after school, I would try to take care of my baby brother and sister. But we lived in a bad neighborhood. We were terrorized, because kids and parents alike knew we had no-one to defend us, They beat the crap out of my baby brother and sister for no reason, other than the fact we were the only white people or maybe it was just the fact we were, like I said, defenseless. I would try to chase after them but they ran away, so I tried to keep my brother and sister inside, but it was too chaotic and hard on me, because I was 13 when I started caring for them full time. The sexual abuse was already eating away at me (and the fact as a child we moved every year, so I didn't have any foundation, or friends.) On top of that we dressed poor. My mother...

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    Abused 20 years later - Depressed - Life Ruined

    Posted by anonymous at May 18, 2011
    Tags: 2011 May   Sexuality

    My life changed because of my desire to get an education. 20yrs ago at 16 I met a teacher who I asked for helped with my homework. To make a long story short, he abused me for 20years and the guilt and shame I felt cause me to lose all my teenage friends and family members - Who he claimed were no good for me. I know what you're thinking, How could someone abused you for this long, well, I was brained wash to think I was gay and he preyed on my innocence and silence to not speak out because of the shame. I tried leaving many times before but, I went back because I had know friends or family to turn to. They all thought I was just a weird loner. Little did they know I was screaming for help and acceptance. This ruined my life completely, almost 40yrs, can't keep a job too long, I have absolutely no trust for people in authority, I have made attempts to start new relationship which he would sabotage but spilling the gay lifestyle. I walk around confident and strong but I am such a devastated human being. So I try not to give my heart to people in fear of how they will use it against me.

    Today, many people just think I am just an angry person who cannot get along with anyone.

    I now feel a very sad sense of anger towards gay people and I know that it is wrong. Of all the things in the world, this was the last thing I wanted in my life. I was just a kid, trying to do the right thing, why couldn't he see that...


    This really sucks


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    it really sucks

    Posted by anonymous at May 5, 2011
    Tags: Appearance   2011 May   Sexuality

    I'm sure that my life is a piece of shit. It really is, and i almostly got over it, but it is still hard. I live in a very small town in Russia, and that really sucks, believe me. I live with my grandmother and dad, and, actually I'm a lesbian. Well, being an open lesbian here is equal to commiting suicide. This is VERY small town, so if I go out with a girl..well, that's impossible because everyone would know that and it would suck . Besides being lesbian, I'm fat and it drives me crazy but I can't make myself do something with it, 'cause i'm too depressed and sad all the time. And I REALLY need to loose my weight, i'm 100 kg. Other thing is that all girls I ever fancy are straight and since one totally failed case i've been absolutely unable to talk to any girl or anything. So in order to sum up: i'm fat ugly depressed lesbian who lives in a place you can't find on the map. So guys, life really sucks, doesn't it?


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    Life

    Posted by anonymous at May 1, 2011
    Tags: Juvenile problems   2011 May   Religion   Sexuality

    I am a 10 year old boy living with his parents. I stole jewelry from my grandparents house in Canada a while back, and never got around to telling them. It's eating me up and everytime I try to tell them I am to much of a coward to do so.
    I am also living with a lot of hate at a church where I go to school. All my friends there hate gays, and I'm not sure if I'm gay or not. They say that my father's longtime best friend is burning in hell because he was gay during life.
    I have become an atheist because of all this hate around me. I found out that life always hits you in the back of the head. And sometimes I'm just tired of everything, I don't see a point to life. And feel like I want to die.
    I missed my childhood too. I saw porn and violence at a very early age.


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    questions....

    Posted by daring2defy at April 29, 2011
    Tags: 2011 April   Drugs   Money   Sexuality

    Stumbling across this site has led me to believe that I need to vent. Not just to post how I feel, but for myself to have some better understanding of whats going on inside my head.

    Don't get me wrong, my childhood was fine. Sure my father wasn't there most of the time, but he needed to support the family, and I can't blame him for who I've become.

    I'm a 22 year old guy who has just dropped out of college for the second time. I'm gay.....but i've never told anyone, and I have no honest plans to. I'm in financial trouble because I fear everything that involves stepping up to the plate and solving my problems.....and I just want to know why.

    I'm a smart guy, gifted really....but what does that matter when your mind won't let you succeed. I was a single semester away from graduating my diploma program, and just stopped going. I never quit.....I just never went back. Time and time again they would call me, looking for answers, to know some idea of what was going on, and I just wouldn't answer the phone. Dealing with problems isn't really what I do best. Because I didn't do this, every day I continue to get billed for a private school in which i'm not attending......and to this day its still an issue I haven't settled.

    I consistently lie about my life, I guess I can throw that one down to being gay. Even though i'm sure through time my parents and friends would accept me, i can't accept it myself. I've never loved a man before, and...

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    what cant i find happiness?

    Posted by Nick at April 23, 2011
    Tags: 2011 April   Family   Job   Sexuality

    The day came when i had to join the military (yes, in some countries its still obligatory). I was 21 at the time and didnt want to go through this because i am gay. Not that i was afraid or anything, i just knew that spending one year of my life in such a 'male' environment wasnt for me. So i admitted i was gay and on the second day they threw me out. A few days later my parents found out the reason i didnt join the army and after a long talk with them my father threw me out of the house as well. I decided to return to the capital and finish with my university studies. Meanwhile i was informed that my parents got a divorce because my mother argued with my father about his desicion not to see me again and this forst lead to appointments with psychologists and finally to the divorce. Feeling guilty i couldnt concentrate on my studies, plus the fact that i had to earn money somehow to support myself financially. So i started working in night clubs and bars for 3 years, places where i only realised how cruel the world out there is. I experienced drugs, alcohol, sex with idiots, i experienced what we call night-life and how it makes you see that this is not a place for angels. Havent seen my father the last 3 years or talked to him, avoid speaking with my mom as well... After her divorce she kinda lost it, she keeps going under on her own way. Never got to have a nice boyfriend, they all were idiots, looking only for one night stands. The people you get to learn in night life ...

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    why is it so hard to change anything

    Posted by A at April 6, 2011
    Tags: 2011 April   Friendship   Loneliness   Sexuality

    I am 34 years old and I work in a crappy retail job that I am probably about to get fired from. I have almost no friends and the ones I do have live out of state. I left them and moved to a new city to be closer to my family, but turns out we don't get along and I never see them even though we live 10 mins away. I have never had a boyfriend (yes, virgin) because I am almost never attracted to anyone. I only ever Liked one guy and he was gay. I think I am probably Asexual. I try to go out and get better jobs, but I am so uncomfortable with new people that I come across as uptight and timid in interviews. I can't make any friends even though I go out to meetup groups and talk to people. The only people who want anything to do with me are guys who ask me out on dates, but since i am not attracted to them, they leave.
    Why is it so hard to make friends?


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    is anyone as weird as me?

    Posted by anonymous at April 6, 2011
    Tags: 2011 April   Attitude   Sexuality

    i am completely fucked up. i see almost every situation in a sexual way. sometimes i even feel super awkward around my family cause i think they see me sexually. i feel like everyone sees me sexually and im often right. i am not turned on by loving sex because i dont really believe its true and if it is it couldnt be that hot. i cant relate to anyone. my own boyfriend thinks my sexual desires are too hardcore. i think i must be bisexual because i get really turned on if i see any sort of sexy scene in a movie of another girls body. i dont like to watch movies, especially with friends because when sex scenes come on i am way too aroused and to me the sexual tension is unbearable. and i feel like everyone is secretly really wishing we could all just start having group sex. i cant orgasm with my boyfriend unless i think of really extreme things. i cant look men in the eye because it feels sexual tension to me. but weirdly enough sometimes i dont want to have sex when my boyfriend asks cause i know it wont be dirty enough. and i also just dont get it cause i am sometimes so fucking sick of sexuality. im disappointed that its summer because i usually like to hide my body because i feel like men are always looking if i dont. and i know im not crazy in that way because men always think of sex and i somehow as a teenager just conditioned myself to be hyper alert to men and their sexuality. and ive noticed too many things. i think ive been too good at noticing when men are turned...

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