LIFE SUCKS

Heart Broken

So, me and my boyfriend of two years just broke up a little over a week ago. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. Yes, I have been broken up with before, but I never loved anybody like how I love him. He was perfect for me, my parents fucking adored him, especially my dad, hell, my dad even got teary eyed when he heard we broke up. I didn't think it would be this hard, but it is so rough, i can't sleep, i can't eat, i try so hard to get my mind off of him, but nothing seems to help. I have friends that call me throughout the day, but by the end of the day I just want him. We broke up because he just graduated college and I still have two years and he tried so hard to find jobs around here but he kept getting turned down. He finally decided to join the air force, and told me that he wanted a break. I asked him if he was happy that we broke up and he said no and i said neither am i then he said i know :( ... Why did he have to make this choice? I hate it i feel betrayed but at the same time i need to let him do what he wants, he did say in two years when i graduate and if i still felt the same i could move to where he was stationed, but that's two years. I love him very, very much and i have done a lot for this man more than I have ever done and will do for anyone else. I wanted to marry him and have babies with him, hes so perfect for me and now that hes out of my life i feel so alone, unloved, miserable, and depressed. I try to hide it and repress it but by the end of the nite i sit alone in my room on my bed and cry. I hate the pain, I hate the sadness, and no one can help that go away but him, but hes not here with me. I miss him so much and want him back.