I have been in love with my best friend for eight years now sadly I has always been one-sided. I never had the courage to tell him how I felt. After about a year, and the support of a nother good friend, I forced myself to tell him. But before I even opened my mouth to speak he grabbed me by the shoulders and told me he finally asked the girl of his dreams out and they were now together. He looked so happy so I just smiled, fought back the tears, and pretended to be happy. For awhile I didn't do anything but as the years passed I tried to forget him and accept the fact that he would never be mine. I went out with a lot of guys be it always ended bad. I even tried sleep with other guys just to forget him but it only hurt more I could never get him off my mind. I feel bad for all those guys I used so I stopped a year ago. To get Nathan, my unrequited love, of my mind I moved, got two jobs, and go to school. The plan was to be as busy as possible so I wouldn't think about him and one day no longer love him. For awhile I worked until last friday. On friday the 11th Nathan called me in the morning and asked if we could meet up for lunch. I had a bad feeling I even felt like I was going to get sick but I agreed. When I got to the restaurant the first person I saw was Nathan then I saw Emily, his girlfriend of 7 years, and they held each others hands. I knew this was going to be bad(for me at least). Aftee we all got our food they told me that they were getting married and that I was the first person they wanted to tell. They said I was the most important person to them and that although we hadn't spent much time together it would mean the world if I went to the wedding. I tried the best I could to recover from the shock and pretend to be happy. After a few jokes and congratulations Emily grabbed my hands and said if she could ask for a big favor. Me, being the friend that I am, agreed. So she asked if I would be her maid of honor. I said yes.
When I got home I felt so much pain and started crying. I didn't think that after so long it would still hurt this much. even now it hurts and I continue to cry.
Thank you for reading my pathetic love story
i'd be very grateful if you could give me some advice or a funny comment to cheer me up a little | |
it does make sense and when i made the list i stopped crying as much. i know he was never ment to be mine and because i know that it hurts more...i pray time will help me.
i have alwasy been there for my friends i'm not much help but the least i can do i listen. emily is a good person and i don't think becoming friends will be a problem...maybe.
thank you for the joke it was funny and brought a smile to my face. :)
if only one of us could be happy i want it to be him.
i do want to tell him but it is impossible. i couldnt before and now is no different. plus i feel if i do it might destroy our friendship and that would be far to painful.
i truly appreciate it
i hope one day this will no longer hurt and i hope that i will be able to find someone who loves me back.
thank you all and God bless
The way you feel for him, he feels for that girl...
If you continue to deny this fact, you will continue to suffer your entire life.There is always a time for a person to left go of things.The only advice from my part is to tell them you will not be able to attend their marriage due to some problems, start your life afresh like trying to do new things, make new goals. life is meant to be lived, time can not be held in the palm of your hands, do not lose the remaining time you have on life that you thought you would have or will in the future.
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