I had a sad childhood living like a foster child, house to house,no love, plenty of abuse, sexual, etc. Became promiscuous and rebellious; drugs, drinking, just plain crazy.
At 15 I was going to kill myself, but went to a youth revival and prayed and gave my mess to Jesus. Wow- He really changed me. Then I wanted to help everyone else in pain. Got degree in Counseling and Biblical studies. Thought I might be a missionary. Just wanted to help everyone. Fastforward; married a preacher- then allllll hell broke loose on us. Everyone stabbed us in the back, threatened us, tried to take our churches. Really really hated us. And so many of our loved ones have died. Our hearts have been burned big time. Now my 2 kids left home as teens and denied everything they were taught, my husband is cold and dead to me. He told another lady he loved things about her and kissed her on the hand, like he did our first date- that melted my heart because it was so innocent.
I have looks and talent but it only brings hatred and envy. I have enormous empathy and compassion- yet no one values anything about me. Now I'm thinking of leaving my husband but now he's all lovie dovie and begging for forgiveness. I've been suicidal most of my adult life- and largely due to him. Just want to share since I have no one to talk to. Wish I knew what to do. So sick of pain. | |
1 there's an invisible man... living in the sky... who created the universe... and he has ten things that he does not want you to do... and he has a special place for you if you do any of these these ten things called hell... where you choke and scream and burn and cry in agony for the rest of time... but he loves you...
WHAT KIND OF BS IS THAT? FIRST OF ALL HOW THE FUCK WAS YOUR GOD CREATED? AND SLUT DONT TELL ME HE CREATED HIMSELF! IF HE ARE NOT A RETARD THEN YOU SHOULD KNOW THE LAWS OF CAUSE AND EFFECT!
So stop being a dumbass and stop leaving all your problems to him because i'm a atheist and so far none of you fucking theist have ever prove to me that god is real and don't call me a fucking faithless atheist with no morals because faith... IS FUCKING DELUSIONAL!
There was alot of pain in the early church, thousands of christians were killed by Nero, but that didn't kill the faith, infact it grew. Down the line you could use this situation as one to comfort others that you got through it, and you will.
God bless
Its never too late to get your life back together. Just remember that.
~Nick
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I also had a rough childhood. I was what some people call a 'love' child. But thats not true. Actually, I was a mistake. Thats what my relatives call me behind my back, and its how they refer to me to their friends. Since the female who gave birth to me was unfit, me and my brothers and sisters were shuffled from one house to another. We, especially me, had to live w/ ppl who really didn't want us. Nobody wanted me at all. I was always alone w/ no one to talk to. They would ignore me and talk about me in a bad way that would make me cry when I was by myself. I could've just crawled in a corner and died. When I was in the 9th grade, I tried to kill myself by swallowing alot of pills. Can't remember what kind but it was a handful. All it did was make me very drowsy and sleepy, but when I woke up, I realized that I hadn't committed suicide correctly. But I didn't attempt it again. What I now know is that some ppl are excess baggage you can do without, so leave them (behind) b/c you don't need them to weigh you down. Some days I do cry, but its b/c I feel so much better. Please allow yourself to feel good about you. Peace.
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