First off, I'm 19 years old, a male. I do way too many drugs which only make my depression and anxiety worse. I suffer from panic disorder and have nightmares almost every night. Every single day is a struggle to get beyond my insecurities and loneliness. Constantly, I think of getting a gun and blowing my brains accross my room as I cannot stand these feelings anymore. My family is dying and my friends are committing suicide. Of course, I have absolutely no one to turn to or love. Shrinks will never understand me and neither will anyone else. FUCK GOD. "He" is nothing but something for humans to use as a security blanket. I've always chosen to be a realist, but GIRLS have never liked that since all they want is some pretend prince charming which I am not. What hurts the most is my loneliness and perpetual despair it creates. Ever since I was 15 I've cut myself and longed for death which my horrific scars can prove. I'm mentally ill, plus missed my chances to find good girls who I later discovered wanted me at a young age (14 or so). Anger overwhelms me, pissed at myself for my mistakes and dream for a better day. I'm not a virgin, but it's been since I was 18 when I last had intercourse. Self satisfaction and escorts aren't for me, but this loneliness kills my heart and mind. Please, someone save me... I need REAL advice, thank you. | |
As for your God being a security blanket for humans, I think your wrong. I know of many people that have a better life because of jesus. Someone made a post on here a while ago who was healed of their cancer, many people have changed lives. youtube brian welch's life story for one example. Anyway, your free to believe what you want.
Regards
GO FUCK YOURSELF! seriously, these dopey sob stories are all the same! All the common denominators. I mean, you admit you're a complete fucktard, and even spell out why, and then ask for help. There is no goddamn help for you! You're to stupid to put it all together yourself, even though the answer is right in front of your face. You just really need to step outside yourself and whip the ass of the prissy little mancunt you see before you. I would get rippy drunk and then kick my own ass for being such a cockbiter, then in the morning I'd feel the shame of getting my ass kicked by me, and then maybe I'd start flying right.
You're too much of a pussy to fight yourself though.
I definitely do hate you.
TRUTH, U NEED TO GO FUCK YOURSELF. UR THE LITTLE PUSSY WHO CANT FIGHT THROUGH IT
Sister Cursed
You need to look into doing an elimination diet, stop eating fast foods and junk food and start eating whole living foods preferably NOT cooked, 100% raw vegan diet is the most powerful. IT WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Google food allergies and side effects caused by food allergies.
Google this "Conquering Anxiety, Depression and Fatigue Without Drugs - the Role of Hypoglycemia"
Google raw food diet or living foods diet. There is a good website if you can overlook the God shit hacres(dot)com or google Hallelujah Diet is an 85% raw vegan diet.
I've lived some of the hell you speak of. the nightmares are probably being cause by a blood sugar drop (hypoglycemia) this causes the body to release adrenaline while you sleep this causes the bad dreams and you may also notice night sweats.
Try changing your diet, it plays a major role on how you think and feel.
My 2C for what its worth, I've studied health and nutrition for 30+ years I might know a little :o)
As far as drugs go, I've tried it, but quit. Don't get me wrong I have love for it, and it's taught me many things about myself, but in the long run drugs will not help you. They will fuck you up. Your thinking and rationality will go to shit, since your priorities will be on maintaining a drug intake, your life will be continuously changing in negative ways if you keep doing drugs.
I don't understand why people cut themselves, it's fucking retarded to me. If you can justify it with reasoning then you think different from me, it's something I can't even THINK why someone would feel the slightest desire to do it. Stop that shit alright?
- Keep fighting your demons.
P.S.- It starts with the bible. And prayer IS the answer.
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