I'm 29, married with a daughter. If u ever meet or know me you'll see me as a happy loving caring person. You would even see my life as perfect. When in reality I'm a miserable unhappy person. Who tends to hurt the people she loves the most which are my husband and daughter. I'm not saying I beat them or torture them or mark them from the outside. I hurt them from the inside. My jealousy and insecurities get the best of me. I've notice I have always been this way all my life. I never had a real relationship until I was 18 which I needed up pregnant from at age 20. I had one relationship after I separated from my first boyfriend and later got married to a man who was abusive to me and my daughter. I divorced him after a year of marriage now I'married to a wonderful man who is younger than me by 3 1/2 years. He's like a prince charming a women's mr. Wonderful. I just happen to get so insure for the fact he seems to good to be true. I tend to always hurt him my bringing up his past. He mentioned to me once he'd always love his ex girlfriend for the simple fact shes the first girl he ever lived with. He was engaged to her and she walked out on him. It had been 3 years since they had been broken up. So I found it kinda weird he still talked about her. After dating for about a Month he proposed to me and we got married within 3 months of beening together. We bought a home and well I still dwell on what he once told me. I feel he rused with me to stop missing her. I'd what to feel or think sometimes.