I was diagnosed with lupus, which is an incurable disease, two years ago. Upon diagnosis my entire family deserted me. My husband is a cruel, lazy ass bastard. My in laws are assholes. My husband refuses to help out around the house, even though I am sick and dying. He refuses to take an interest in my health and will not attend doctor or medical appointments with me. He hasn't shown any interest in me in two years. I haven't had sex or been touched or kissed or hugged in two years since I got sick. I am so very lonely and sick everyday and scared about dying alone. I have no one to talk to. I am on chemo and a lot of other meds that make me really really Ill. I struggle everyday to keep up on chores and take care of my kids. All my husband does is sleep. I am just so sick of everything. I'm sick of this disease, the toxic meds, the loneliness, the anger and hurt of my family's desertion and the anger over my inlaws actions towards me. My mother in law hates me cause I got sick and her poor son is stuck with a sickly woman. I would just like to be made love to by a gentle man before I die from this. My doctor gives me about six months. I have informed my family, husband and in laws of this, but they all accuse me of lying. I just cry and cry everyday. I just don't know.....
My name is Christiana