LIFE SUCKS

someone plz come and kill me!

So im 20 years old, living with my mom, broke and ugly. Ive never had a gf because of my face, not even a friend, never had sex, not even kissed a girl. I hate school at point that if you tell me that if i get a nail trough my hand i would get my degree without going anymore, that nail would be trough my hand in 2 seconds, no joke, mainly because i dont like watching people at school laughing, having at good time, making out, and i have no one, i think everyone already knows i am the guy with no friends so why would they be friends with me?, but my mom forces me to go to school if i want to stay in her house. Basically just go school, suck it up, come home and all the rest of the time im home since i got no one to go out with, never had a social life, every weekend either i stay home alone cuz all my sisters go to the club and shit with their friends, or i have to watch them making out with their boyfriends in the living room. I spent 90% of the time locked up in my bedroom on the computer doing nothing, my greatest joy was cigarrettes, but i dont feel joy anymore, i cant feel anything, only pain, nobody really cares, i am depressed everynight, everyday that passes i get more desperate and fall even more into madness, i wanna go outside but it only gets worse, with girls looking at me with discust and everyone trying to avoid me, i guess im that ugly, and everyone having fun and party wich i cant stand to watch, i dont know what to do i think im gonna go crazy, it has been like this probably since i was 12, or maybe my entire life. I dont know why was i created or whats my purpose in life and i dont even wanna know, just want to vanish and never be created again. I guess i would have suicide by now but the bible says that you would go to hell. But now im starting to think how is this different from hell?