Hi, I'm tired of my life, it sucks. It's not really that my life sucks, but life, the way things work out sucks. I'm 29, blk male, a christian and I'm single. I've never been with a woman my entire adult life. I dont know if im attractive or not. Im skinny and have been all of my life, it's hard to gain weight, I never get compliments, i guess because women don't give guys compliments unless were really attractive. I don't have the best teeth either.
I had this one girl who was using me because I felt sorry for her. But she's a lesbian and I don't understand that at all. I met her a few years ago and she seemed like a nice person, it's like she wasn't deliberately using me, but she's never done a thing for me either. She told me she loved me but i think she said that because she was confused. She was raped before so i guess it's hard for her to be affectionate with guys. Which sucks because I feel like she was the one for me. It's hard because I don't want to know that she's found someone else. I kinda wish I never met her.
I don't work right now, I was laid off. But I'd rather be in love and be just making enough than to be successful and single.
I've been really depressed throughout most of my life so far. I believe in God and believe these are the last days. Sometimes I just wish this life was over because I can't go back and change anything in my life, and it all seems like it's gonna be down hill from here.
I'm sure other people are worse off than I am. I just wanted to share my story.
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they will stop at nothing to get it. Prostitutes are honest about their intentions at least. NO SURPRISES, service rendered : payment due : good bye and thank you!!!
I was going through it and thought to come to this site again. I was never suicidal, but thanks for your concern. I just get so pessimistic with life sometimes, i just think nothing will get better, like we're on a decline.
Well im still single, i guess i gotta move somewhere else, because all girls i like are taken. Also since the last time, i found that the parents of the girl i was telling yall about moved a couple feet from my best friends house, so i sometimes have to see her whenever i go over there. It wouldn't be so hard, but she's model type, but she messes with the ugliest girls. I know im not really ugly, im just so slim that it's probably not attractive. i think my looks will start to show if i gained maybe 15 or 20 lbs. so im eating like crazy right now.
Sometimes I think that God is saving me for the right women, because a few people have told me that im too good of a guy. So thanks for your encouragement guys.
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