LIFE SUCKS

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I'm 26, been in the U.S. Marines for 7 years now. Came back from afghanistan to an empty house. Empty becuase my wife of 5 years took off with everything in the house and left divorce papers....all bills past due on the house. That was about a year ago. Now i'm dating my life long friend i've known since 2 and she's amazing, but i'm not happy. I don't even like coming home from work because i'd rather be alone sitting on my couch drunk than talk to anyone. Meanwhile the girl i've loved since i was 18 has no idea because i'm too much of a bitch to tell her. I absolutely hate and disgust everything about the military and i hate every day i'm in it. My life is on pause for the next two and a half years because thats when i get out of the military. I have no idea what to do every day but sit here at home, drink, hate my life, wonder whats next and eventually pass out on the couch just to wake up with a hang over. I barely ever have money because it all goes toward my house. The one good thing i enjoy in my life is that I have Hockey games to play sunday nights.....and i suck shit at hockey but thats all i got to look forward to all week.