I am going to be heading off to college next year and this year I have finally realized how lonely I am. After being friends with the same people since 5th grade, I kind of expected there to be a bond. Now, though, I am the afterthought friend; the one everyone forgets about until they are desperate for company. I am leaving all of these people next year and I can't wait. Come graduation, I don't think I will be at all sad about leaving them behind. I haven't hung out with my supposed best friend out of school since halloween. I can't trust a lot of them because they have severely betrayed my trust and the couple people I do trust are mere aquaintences. Up until this year, I had sports so I just brushed off the little time I see my friends to my being so busy. I am a horrible person for saying this because my friends aren't bad people, but I don't like being with them anymore. I am the playful, adventurous one in the group but now I just feel like a spectacle. They all have found their best friend and formed mini-groups and I am alone. The sad part is, none of them know me at all. They refer to me as their friend, invite me to the major gatherings, etc but every conversation I have with them is incredibly shallow. I feel like they are all just waiting for me to leave so that they can talk about important stuff. What have I done wrong? Now, I am just sitting around waiting for school to end so I can move past them. | |
you meet people, live with them for a while, but then is the momento to leave, its nothing...
You will make new friends, and they will be like before, but one day is gonna happen again, WE ARE ALWAIS ALONE...
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