Okay, so I had a bad year last year. You know, 2009. I made a bad mistake, a big bad mistake. I had sent myself to the psych ward cause I wanted to kill myself. At the time I couldn't tell anyone. I left my mother's house and moved in with my boyfriend's parents took me in and even paid for my psychiatry appointments. I was diagnosed with bipolar in august of last year. I had to drop two of my college classes because things were still going really bad for me. My dad finally was told the whole story in December. I'm twenty and in college, I had me reasons not to tell him. I'm and adult.
Now that he knows, he's "Rubbing my nose" in this utter shit storm I've created for myself. He won't stop holding it against me. He says I wasted his money, and I've wasted my 'School money.' I did, on SCHOOL-I had grants from school I used for school. He doesn't care. Now I want to take a semester off and work to get money again. My dad still holds every mistake I've done in my face.
Yes, I'm aware this is a big mistake, it happened. . .can't I Just learn from it?
Now if I make the smallest mistake he'll disown me. Or something along those lines. I feel trapped and scarred to open my mouth for anything.
If I had gone to him before he would have yelled at me then. I'm really stuck and nothing seems to be getting better. I make one mistake after the next. I've relapsed on my eating disorder and I'm too scared to leave the room at my boyfriend's house. I'm really trapped.