my life was fine,until my daughter passed away.now i have depression,post traumatic stress disorder.my other half acts as if nothing is wrong.and that i'm crazy.my job of 15 years fired me due to my daughters death.i cant get a job or unemployment.whats the point of anything.i've depleted my savings tolive off of.now thats gone.i'll probally lose my home that i've worked so hard for.i just think my life SUCKS so bad!!!!!!! i want to go home but the other half(my unconcern spouse) wants to stay in the country of california.believe me its a different country here.cus he smokes pot.and hes medically addicted.my state its illegal for medical use.he wont get a job.or help out.so YES MY LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!! | |
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Your workplace had no right to fire you. You have every right to grieve and every right to be depressed. You have every right. And anyone who tells you to get over it should be punched in the face, repeatedly.
I know how hard it is searching for a job. Or trying to convince people to hire you. It is one of the most boring and most disappointing things we can experience. But you have to try. For the sake of your home and your sanity. Try. Send out resumes to everything and anything. Do not lose your home. You did not work hard or go through life only to lose everything to have. Find a way. Believe.
Your unconcerned spouse is bitch beyond words. The only thing you should lose is him. Firstly, if he loves you, he'd never be unconcerned. He'd be there for you. Isn't that why we're in relationships? To share our lives with someone and have someone to turn to? He does not share your life. He is uncaring towards you. Drugs is not an excuse for his behavior. POT is not medicine. Don't be fooled into thinking or believing that. YOU should be first and foremost. Not some drugs. And sure, he may be grieving inside too. BUT drugs are not the answer and YOU DESERVE MORE THAN THAT.
You deserve someone to help you and pick you up. Someone that works WITH YOU and SHARES the responsibilities, ups and downs of LIFE.
So what do you do now? I know you love him. I know you don't want to be alone. But isn't being alone worth more than being with someone who doesn't give a shit? Wouldn't your mother or your true friends have wanted that for you? Wouldn't God want that for you? Don't YOU want that for you?
You will find someone else. There is a soulmate for everyone, even 60 years down the line. But we cannot live our lives unhappily or mistreated with some asshole. That is not what life is supposed to be. We deserve to be happy and live. Especially you. You deserve nothing but peace and serenity.
Find a job. Give him a choice. Move out. Live with friends for a while. Just do it. God bless you.
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