well i am just another 18 year old wasted youth anthoer unemployed boy and anther rebel.
i dont get it.. I have a car,girls say i am cute with blonde hair.
I am not over wieght,infact im in shape.
I am a skateboarder,musican,and artist. plus many more cool hobbys.
i do as much drugs as hunter.s.thompson.
I feel drugs are a lifestyle which i enjoy.
I am not amazingly intelligent but i do tend to have deep philosophical discussions.(at least on acid)
I enjoy people who share the same interests as me or do things interesting with there time. I like indie girls and and alterntive people aswell.
I dropped out of high-school at 16 and got my ged after being kicked out of many schools. I am currently trying to raise money for further training in electronic music,and i am not a virgin.SO you would think my life is awsome..BUT the thing is
I live in a horrible town with nothing to do. all the kids here are trash or wanna be thugs. There are no kids that do productive and interesting things when they get high,and there are no girls i find interesting as-well.EVERYONE HERE IS A HUMANIOD and its horrible. I am lonely and i want to find my group..which i no is out there somewhere..I get jumped for spiting the truth when walking around drunk and stupid.I have to watch my back even when i dont do anything. MY whole life iv been picked on even though i am a pretty cool person. I think its because im not part of high-school drama and the whole mainstream bullshit scene. I don't chill with troughs faggots.
I wanna travel and i really enjoy big city's with much to do..but for now im am broke and on probation so i cant go anywere for a few years.
All i want is a girlfriend that i enjoy a job(for now) to earn enough to buy a van and some gear and leave. I like chillin with train hoppers and sqautters but because of my hobby's i cant fully be one of them.. plus they don't exsit in my local town.My life sucks because i cant find the right peers to be with and i end up wasting all my time with people that are going no were. and are uninteresting.All i want is to leave..to start over.. to live free and die free.
to be a rebel against society but to find other like me. Also i feel as if my peronality is shit.being bipolar and all. i dont act liek the person i want to be..and i dono if i can change that or even if i am spouse to..or if its just me.For one thing out of a bunch.. I wanna not care what anyone thinks of me.
life fuckin sucks because of all you humanoid robotic plastic bullshit materialistic people that live in what they call "society's" norms...thats not me im into the counterculture..like the hippes from the 60s but thats not what i myself am about..or the punks from the 80s.. were is are generation!! and were can i find them!