Let's start off with some facts;
I'm 19 years of age.
I have done nothing with my life.
I am a drop-out
I am a drug addict
The fact of the matter is I've always struggled with depression. It's just lately it's been on and off, Almost mimicking bi-polar disorder. I sit at the computer desk staring at my Facebook and seeing that no one talks to me or even really interacts with my profile at all. I think to myself "Why..."
Why is it all my friend's facebook's are filled with activity and friendship
Why do I even bother anymore. I'm basically living an empty life just trying to make it through each waking day
Why...Why do I live?
The honest truth at this point is....
I don't know who I am and I feel distant from the world. High School,even though I didn't do much, they were my best years. Since then....Nothing. Just bleak nothingness. I feel like I'm just staring into an never ending abyss of bleakness.
I feel, so awfully alone. I barely go out with friends and when I do their definition of "Party" is too different from mine.
I just, I want something in life. I'd like to be able to be like Family Guy, which is a childish thing to say I'm aware of that. If I could just have my tight group of friends like Peter, Quaqmire, and Joe. In-fact I used to. Both of them are distant right now, and I am alone.
I wish things could just go back to the way they used to be or I'd much rather just die. | |
DO something (anything) with your life.
Get older.
This is an easy fix.
Regret the things you have done, not the things you have NOT done.
Stop watching fucking cartoons and moaning about not having LIVED.
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