I grew up under horrible circumstances, born to two alcoholic and drug addict parents. My father molested my older half brother and sister for many years. Parents divorced when I was 12 and my mother moved in with a drug dealer. She took my younger brother with her and abandoned my younger sister and I. We were left alone, sometimes to be looked after by our older alcoholic bi-polar brother. When I was 14 we were evicted and my mother moved us in with her boyfriend. There was never any food in the house and I couldn't even eat anything that required a spoon because they were all blackened from drug use. When I was 16 the state took us away and we went to live with our older sister. It was a godsend. I graduated high school with straight A's and art honors.
I dated a deadbeat alcoholic for five years and I finally had had enough this past December and kicked him out. I was promoted at work and so happy that I would be able to finally have extra money to save. It turned out that the promotion wasn't a good thing. My hours were cut by more than 12 a week and I can barely afford my rent now. My car broke down in March and because I barely get any hours at work I haven't been able to get it fixed. I depend on friends for rides as I have no family with a car. I work at 5a almost everyday and haven't slept in months. I've lived in my apartment for two years and it's literally falling in. The people upstairs have flooded my bedroom half a dozen times and there's mold growing everywhere. The pantry room off my kitchen has a busted pipe and leaks sewage down the walls from the upstairs apartment. My landlord worked on it for a couple days, but hasn't been back in months to finish. It smells horrid and I fear for my health. I have no health insurance and haven't been to a doctor since 2005. I've lived on my own and supported myself since I was 18 and it's terrifying knowing that I have no one to depend on if I needed it. | |
Perhaps you can look for other part-time work to make up the difference. Obvioulsy it's not easy to find any work right now, but look around and think what you might be able to do. You might be able to bring a little more in that way. or you could try talking to your supervisor at work about how you could possibly get more hours.
what you describe doesn't sound safe... Maybe you could even find some free legal help and medical help if needed? Check what is available locally?
Sorry to hear about your bad past, you've really come a long way!!
Also check if there's a support group you could join - maybe AlAnon or for relatives of drug addicts or such? (It may be for free and you might find other helpful people there?)
There are AlAnon and such online forums too, if you can't find anything locally...
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