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i want to die

Posted by anonymous at February 15, 2010
Tags: 2010 February  Health  Juvenile problems

17 years old and i hate my fucking life.
i have had depression for as long as i can remember and have been over weight for even longer. thanks to the pressures of living up to every one elses standards i am now borderline morbidly obese. i have acne all over my body and find myself physically sick when i look in the mirror. i hate parties, i hate being social.. i feel as if everyone is judging me.
my friends have all had boyfriends and all i get is stuff thrown at me or verbally abused. not even glances of interest in my direction .. unless they are insults. i hate myself.
i want to end my life, i have planned it out thousands of times in my head... yet i dont have the guts to even end my useless life.


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By at 15,Feb,10 13:24

Nobody told you or forced you to live up to certain standards or to please somebody else. There comes a time where you are just going to have to take responsibility for your actions.

EVERYBODY has acne problems, it is VERY common for people all over the world to have this problem. The only thing is, HOW can you control it? For one, try to change your pillow case often, wash your face at least twice a day, after and before you go to bed. Don't have a poor diet, meaning eat healthy foods and stay away from foods or drinks that will break your face out. Do some research online and LEARN it for yourself.

If you are overweight, what are you doing about it? Are you just sitting there wishing the weight would go away or have you been trying hard to get rid of it? They say the more you are overweight, the better you should be monitored, so i would join some kind of support group or get a physical trainer to help you lose large amounts of weight until you can finish it off on your own. If you dont want to do that, start talking a walk around the neighborhood and when you can, expand your time up to an hour. Thats what i did and i lost 10 pounds by just doing that, along with training myself to eat every four hours (3 meals).

Yes, your friends may have all had boyfriends, but why compare your life to their's? You don't know what goes on at their homes or what they are thinking. Just becuase you see someone else's life thats better than yours, doesnt mean you should believe everything you see. You will be surprised at what all goes on in our world. You are 17 years old, you have PLENTY of time to find love, so stop treating this like it's a race. These are suppose to be the best times of your life.

People will always judge you, no matter how you look, what race you are, religion, gender, it does not MATTER!!! Nobody has the power to escape judgement. I've had plenty of experiences where people say mean things to me and yes it HURTS! The worst part about it is the fact that you will never forget. but why should i hate MYSELF just because somebody else enjoys making a show out of me? If anything you should feel sorry for these ass-holes who are representing themselves THIS way and you should feel sorry for them becuase thats all they know how to do, is be mean, instead of understanding, respectful and helpful. These are sad human beings who make other people's lives a living hell. I think they all should be shipped off to the moon becuase they KNOW your feelings are on the line but they say such cruel things anyway, meaning they want to hurt your feelings on purpose. such bastards!

If you are so down and negative against yourself all the time, what makes you think you are going to attract others? who wants to be around someone who is like this? I will tell you, it gets exhausting. I think your biggest problem is the fact that you are a little lazy, you expect your problems to undo themselves without laying a hand to help it out.

Start doing some plans to feel good about yourself.


By anonymous at 16,Feb,10 00:02

All I can promise you is, it gets better. I know this doesn't seem possible at your age, but I promise you only this one thing. It does.


By anonymous at 16,Feb,10 05:50

One of my friends is obese and is practically twice my size. But she is leading her life ok. Have a courage too, and hope for the better. You'll get better. If you are so concerned about your weight, why don't you try a diet?? Though of course I'm not the person who knows what it is to go through a diet, but won't that solve a lot of your problems???


By anonymous at 16,Feb,10 09:49

bottom line...you must start taking care of yourself. refocus your thoughts on what you can do to make your life better & you happier. the more you dwell on the negative the worse you will feel..believe me, i know. try to start redirecting your thoughts. picture yourself being a thinner person & then work toward achieving that goal. you can do it..lot's of people do it all the time. think of how proud you will be of yourself. remember, young people can be cruel..that is their shallow mentality..they haven't lived life to understand what's truly important. life is too short, honey. i understand your depression b/c i too have struggled w/ it since i was about 13, i'm now 40. i have been on & off meds, & you may need some help too. i had bad acne too..that really sucks, especially for young girls. & i was teased relentlessly too, but it's the same for a lot of kids. you are certainly not alone. you should really tell your parents or find someone you can confide in to help you out of this despair you are feeling. remember you are a child of god & he loves you, & your family loves you. so take care of yourself starting right now. ;)


By anonymous at 16,Feb,10 15:35

"thanks to the pressures of living up to every one elses standards i am now borderline morbidly obese."

You didn't do a very good job of living up to their standards, did you?

Fuck em.


By anonymous at 17,Feb,10 12:19

look im not ganna say that this problem is nothing or that stuff .. but alot of people have more and more issues .. with a little working on your self this issues that u hate will be history u have the ability to live and love your self and even to change physically.... dont care for those people who judge they are just insecure about their lifes surround your self with nice people be as smart funny and nice as u could dnt let them bring you down iff u wanna change your appearance beleive in your self and go for for you not for thos people fuck em ... when there is a well there is a way


By anonymous at 17,Feb,10 14:40

Hey, I was like 300 lbs in high school. now at 25 I've lost a lot of weight, down to 190 at 6ft 1 in. It's cruel people judge you by it but not every skinny guy you see, has been born that way. I like my girlfriend she's a bigger girl but her soul makes up for any short comings. She's always worried I'll leave her although I never would. You need to know girl, guys like me exist but are shy. I like the girl I do because she's smart and wity and makes me feel loved. so just think of the guys that pass you as the ones that don't deserve you. I've been with some good looking women but they are always too worried about things that don't matter. I always say someday you'll wake up next to your woman and she'll look like george washington cause she's so old. So remember sex, and attraction are one small sliver to it all. being able to tolerate that person and love that person without concentrating on the physical things cause they are short lived.
By anonymous at 17,Feb,10 14:44

hey don't believe the god thing. that's people hoping for change without getting their hands dirty. It take people like you any me to craft the world we want it. sorry but praying doesn't change the fact your lonley girl. only you'll change that, or time. the girl I'm with had a locker next to me in school I never noticed her greatness till four years later. so just keep pressing on and some guy will take to you. I hope you make sure he's the right guy, don't get into abuse or something like that, just for attention. your worth more than that!


By anonymous at 17,Mar,10 23:22

What can you tell someone who really thinks that their life is not worth living, when you know as long as you have breath in your body, your life can change. I am older, considered obese, use to be "fine" when I was younger. So its hard when I don't get the attention that I use to. But one thing I do know is that life will go on wheather I am here or not. I will never allow someone to determine my fate. If you work hard and make changes, you can loose the weight. Now you may need some help with the inner issues. But help is out there for you. I love to help young people, but I can't take away their pain. But what I do know is that trouble does not last always. The one thing you need to know is that all the things you are going through now;will come to an end. It would be a shame for you to miss out on the good days that will come. There is a song that says "There must be a brighter day, and I see it coming my way. The words are, come brighter day come this way, your presence is welcome here" Don't miss out on your brighter day and your wonderful future. I think you will be amazed how wonderful like can really be. Remember, people don't determine your fate, you do. Take care and have a good positive life.


By anonymous at 18,Mar,10 16:02

there are alot of guys out there who likes fat pigs and known to have very tight pussies, and they love the smell comming from their crotch, really, there are guys into that, so don't worry, you will find one out there, just give it time.
By anonymous at 19,Jun,10 03:29

What? there not fat pigs it's people like u that make people that r little bigger then other wana harm them self do u not have any heart or are u a cold heart prick how dare u call people fat pig they r beauilful women and if ur single i can understand y that is so rude saying that there fat pigs shame on u people u make me sick why can't pople keep there nausty comments to them self don't like don't look


By anonymous at 19,Jun,10 03:22

By anonymouswomen at 19,june,10 08:15
There are so many people that think that have 2 be super thin i weight 11st8 and i don't care people think my children love me my family love me and if no one likes the fact ur a little bigger then everyone one else say if u don't like don't look u all need 2 start lovin and resectin urself i'm sure ur all beauilful women beauit is on the inside and it's not wat people see and it's there lost.I've been though alot and i've lost my son got beat up put in hopstial and i still come back fightin ur all fighter and u should b very proud of urself good luck 2 everyone just love ur self i promise ur love the feelin and u won't ever love anyone as much as u love urself try it i promise it work


By anonymous at 09,Jul,10 05:17

try fucking animals its fun they are always horny
By anonymous at 26,Jun,12 13:28

You were molested as a kid huh? You will get caught, karma's a bitch and will get you, its a matter of time you loser sociopath.


By anonymous at 29,May,11 22:12

Life didn't suck when I was 17, it sucks now, so whoever said it gets better...they lie..
I am 39 and miserable.


By anonymous at 15,Oct,12 20:48

i hate my life, it sucks i barley have any friends. On the weekends i just sit at home on a saturday night, watching


By anonymous at 15,Oct,12 20:54

MY LIFE IS SHIT RIGHT NOW, I BARLEY HAVE ANY FRIENDS. I FEEL LONLEY AND EMPTY I'M NOT VERY SOCIAL AND I WANT TO DIE... I JUST WANT IT TO END, I CANT TAKE ANOTHER DAY OF THIS LIKE SERIOUSLY! IM DOING TERRIBLE IN MATH ( YEAH NEVER WAS GOOD AT IT) AND THE TEACHER KEEPS SAYING I'LL GET IT. THEY DONT KNOW ME AT ALL, I FEEL LIKE A HOPELESS LOSER. I WANT OUT, I CANT TAKE THIS SHITTY LIFE I LIVE IN... EVERY TIME I GO TO MY HEALTH CLASS MT STOMACH TRUNS AND IF IM IN TRANSITION GROUP WHICH I FUCKING HATE, I GET THIS BIG KNOT IN MY THROAT AND I CANT STOP SWALLOWING OR CLEARING MY THRAOT, BTW IM A FRESHMEN IN HIGH SCHOOL, MY BROTHER IS A SENIOR, SO HE KNOWS THE INS AND OUTS OF HIGH SCHOOL. HE SEEMS TO BE VERY SOCIAL HE HAS TONS AND TONS OF FRIENDS, WHILE I DONT.... I JUST WANT THIS TO END!


By anonymous at 09,Dec,12 06:07

Im with you. Almost same position.....Weight, acne.........No it doesn't get better. I decided to work tackle the problems.....face them. It didnt work. I managed to lose weight, never to reach a body I was proud of, but i made progress. Still nothing got better. Acne kept on coming......a never ending battle. Who would want to be with someone like this? If i cant stand myself on the mirror......who will stand myself in person?


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