I´m not sure if anyone is ever going to read this.
Anyhow, this is my story.
I´m 19, yeh sure best time of my life.. No, far away from that.
I try to make this story short, feels tho stupid because I´m trying to fit my life in this white box, but I´ll give it a try.
I was really lost for 4 years of my life, black long hair, lot of make up, getting drunk, wrong ppl, problems etc.
Allthrough my life I´ve had this one person, for 12 years we were best friends. She talked sh*t about everyone, so I had to choose to be with her, or meet other. I chose her.
I´ve been picked on sence I began school. When I got to high school, I changed my style (read above), and I began to be surrounded with boys. I didn´t undestand that, why me. Just because of my new style all this happened, and I really had a bad ass fuc* you style. I had a bf, for 1year and 2 months. He broke up with me. I still had my best friend, one and only.
Then I met another boy, and so I fell in love again.
My best friend cut me off of her life 4 months ago. She threw my things away, said to my bf that it´s not my fault etc. Never did she say anything to me.
Well ta-daa my bf broke up with me one month ago.
I have absolutely no friends, I don´t have my love, I have no job, I don´t know what to do and where to go.
I´ve always been mentally more than my real age is. But I don´t get what I´ve done wrong. I´ve never been alone. Never been thinking of myself. I think everyone else is more important than me. | |