LIFE SUCKS

Super sucks

I am 28 years and have a graduate degree. I am incrediably lonely. I have no friends. The only time I speak to another human is when I am at work. I was molested when I was a child by my grandfather. I told my mother and she told me not to tell anyone - and to stay away from him next time we visited. After she told my father, my father's response was that I was a damn liar and just looking for attention...I guess I used to be attractive when I was in college. I was slipped the date rape drug three times. Only once did I have friends that noticed and helped me home. One of the pervs was my cousin in law (my aunt married someone who had a son is his mid twenties). Since I didnt have any boyfriends in college I wasnt on birthcontrol so guess what I got pregnant. I didnt keep the abomination. I never tell anyone about these things because it makes me physically ill when I think about them and I have never been able to say it outloud. Plus, I would be ashamed to have anyone know about all these sick things. I have never in my life had an orgasm. I absolutely hate sex. My only friends and the only ones I speak to are my cats.