life sucks. my mother is making my life a living hell. she is a control freak, lies about everything, has this victim mentality, like everyone is against her. nobody likes her cause she causes trouble everywhere she goes. i still live at home with her and my father, my older sister and her 11-year-old daughter. My father is unemployed cause HIV positive and very ill but he drinks a lot because of the stress my mother causes him. my sister is also unemployed and is also an alcoholic, my niece is failing in school, as you can imagine. I can't leave home cause i can't afford it. I have to take care of my father and my sister and her daughter financially and my mother will not help us. She kicked us out several months ago and we literally had no place to go and we were broke. I was so stressed i became totally numb with shock I think. I so desperately did not want to go back home but i have 3 people in my care and i had no place to take them. some relatives spoke to her and she agreed to have us back. She treats us like animals, fights with us over every little thing. i constantly have to worry about my father cause if she gets mad at him she takes his medication away and he cannot afford to skip his treatment. He has lost so much weight and is so stressed out and is drinking so much. Okay, she had real reasons for being upset with my father a long time ago when he abandoned us, sold our house and left us almost homeless. He came back sick, unemployed and homeless. I believe that he is paying for what he did but my mother is not GOD and she can't continue treating him this way. If he dies, his blood will be on her hands.
I have no social life whatsoever, no friends, the last and only relationship i had ended a long time ago cause i was just completely dysfunctional. I have built a huge wall around me, i don't talk to anybody about anything cause i know everyone has their own problems and i don't want to burden them, but it's not working out so great for me. Often times i just resort to living in a fantasy world and i'm there almost 80% of the time cause i just can't cope. i want to leave but i can't, i want to save money but it's impossible. I have to pay rent, buy groceries, etc. My job doesn't really pay that well. i can't talk to anyone and i feel so alone in the world... | |
You only get one life, use it for yourself--that's why it was given to you.
New Comment