I was screwd from the start my father an abusive drunk would beat my mother and older sister,My mother a highschool drop-out and my sister an antisocial idiot. I cant remember my father beating me but thats probably my brain trying to protect its self, I remember fearing my father and hating my father thts it soon after my 10th birthday we moved out and left my father and it was just the three of us my mother had slipped into a depression that hid her from us every day in her room. Sharing a room with my sister didnt go as whell as pland seeing as how were conpleatly difrent im easy-going and dont realy care and shes uptite and has to have everything her way. We had moved again and i had started middile school, it was ok im not the brightest bulb in the closet becouse i realy didnt care. All i realy cared about my riding life i love horses and working with them one horse helped me through the depression i have and have had for many years, he became very special to me as whell as one friend i had she was everythng i had i would spend every minit i had with her she was my safty blanket you could call it,they both were..... we had stayed in that town for years and then my mother nd sister wanted to move very far away and i didnt have a choise i was finaly getting everything i need in my life and in just a little ime was riped away just like that. I feel dead stripped of life , alone......Hatefull....mean.....and afraid I have nothing were I am i have my life at home and i need to go back but i cant get there..... I cant get help , I need a hole dug and ready my body may move but im not there im long gone. | |