I divorced last summer after 15 years of relationship and 10 months of marriage. Yes, finally we decided to get married, at least I was sure about it. I had my first episode of depression when we knew she was pregnant (13 years ago), I was 20 and she wanted to end our relationship. After many disagreements and many depression episodes we got married and just 10 months latter we decided to split due to frequent discussions. That was 3 years ago and last summer we signed the final divorce papers. Now I'm on my own and trapped in hell. Every morning I go to work, come home at 3 pm and lie on the couch until bedtime. I know, I have an episode of depression, so I went to visit a psychology but she did not say anything different from the last 12 specialists who I have visited in the past. I really want to die. Not even my son gives me the strength I need. I find no joy in my life, people around me do not really care for me and my family is very far from where I live, yet never call. I have no plans for the future and I have fear of being alone the rest of my life. I know it sounds stupid, but the thing is that I have zero social skills and every time I try to approach a girl I feel like the invisible man, they pay no attention to me and is not my imagination. If I have the opportunity to kill my self, well .... | |
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