everything is a struggle for me, i never seem to fit in nowhere all the people i know on facebook seemingly have perfect lives , or at least perfect for them, i have not had a friend in years , i am thirty seven and all through my life i just never seem to get it right.have been in this relationship for three years and i just feel so inadequate as person compared to him, he has it all, friends calling him , wanting him , needing him, he has some good family members and two amazing children , that incidentally do not live with him, but still adore him!he has money too!........ me on the other hand have barely anybody calling me or texting me or anything, no job i am practically unemployable, have a chronic fatigue condition and feel like my brain is shrivelling up and my daughter who is ten years old hates me and i admit i cannot be a good mother!plus my family abandoned me when i was sixteen, my brother just about cares!life really does suck!my daughter has not seen me in four years, it hurts so badly, i feel like i have failed everyone and its only a matter of time, i do not have enough left in my soul to keep on living my body is past its sell by date, my life is meant to be shortened i am sure, give it to someone else that deserves life, that can make the best of it, i know i cannnot!
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