I am 22 years old. I am a college drop out with over $25,000.00 at least in debt. Debt in college loans and hospital bills. I went to college for 2.5 years and dropped out because I did way too much partying and never went to class. I never paid for my loans so they went to collections and I haven't looked at them in months. While in college I was hospitalized twice for "alcohol poisoning". I was totally conscious during my hospital visits. I was only taken because I was underage and it was going to the hospital or jail. I sat in the hospital for a couple hours and released with no treatment. $800.00 for each trip with no insurance they went to collections also. I have a DWI for driving after a party in college literally 100 feet and could see my apartment in view. I am over the DWI consequences except $360.00 for probation fees. I have 3 minor in possessions of alcohol during school. I have dealt with those but it does suck having them on my record now. I am a denial alcoholic who wants help but yes, rehab is a privilage of the rich. I was laid off a job at KFC because i didn't have a ride to work. After finding that job after 1.5 years of job hunting. I have no friends due to my drinking and no car because of the DWI. I live in a area where the closest business is an hour walk. I hate my life and considered suicide but with my luck I would not succeed. I would end up with brain damage from substance over dose or half a head to a shot gun. I want to help people and become very positive and do something with my life but within two years i have fucked up and what is the point now? | |
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told me i would have a long life no matter what i did
so i picked up the drinking and also had periods of pill
abuse. really have never cared if i lived or died thou over the last 5 years i would very much perfer to die
The truth is i was a very unhappy child teen and young
adult but life did get good for a 10 year period and i have had stops and starts of happiness up to the last 5
years the blame now is money before that it was girls before that ..well you get the picture did i make a choice to be depressed no is it anybodys fault no its the life i was delt and continue to live . dont care enough to care
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