hi, my life sucks.
it really does.
A bit about me:
i live in a sharehouse with 3 other guys. i work in IT for a business. i am bald and have bad teeth.
my friends are shit. i am pretty sure they all hate me, but i dunno. i see them quiet often so its okay.
i have never had a girlfriend.. ever. do you know how shit that is?..
My major issue are commitment issues.. This all started when my dad terrorized me as a kid so now i can not look into someones eyes without crying. Its fucked. His manipulation from an early age has fucked my life. My mum also used to manipulate me.. My parents split up when i was about 8, which would of been fine but the divorce went for 10 years!
WHO THE FUCK HAS A 10 YEAR DIVORCE. WHO DOES THAT?
The divorce is what fucked my life i think. all i remember when i was growing up was having to choose where i wanted to live, at mums or dads. Mum said she wanted me but i think she just wanted me to get back at dad.. and dad said he wanted to but he just wanted me for the government money (he told me this straight up once.. (GOOD THING TO SAY TO A 12 YEAR OLD DAD))
My brother molested me when i was 12 - 13. only a few times but i have only had flashbacks of the memory recently. its kinda fucked.
Most days i dont even want to leave my room. Just want to stay in here and get motherfucking baked. nuff said.