I am a 24 yr girl, very ambitious, very courageous, academically sound, smart and is considered intelligent . all this might seem that there is no reason for me to be sad . but the reality is that i am not a happy person .i have to face struggle at every stage of my life , the one who i trust betrayes me, the one who i love plays with my feelings, the one who i expect from does nt give a shitty damn about me . i feel very miserable. i have never had any person in my life to whom i can open up or share my life. there came a point when i had to choose a person as my boyfriend whom i did nt like at all only because i had no one at that point of life . i was away from my parents to pursue my higher education and my loneliness literally just killed me from inside. i wanted to run away from it. i had no choice but to go and meet him every evening after the class gets over. we share no compatibilty , no similarity of thoughts, his attitude sucks, his behavior sucks, i knew he was just another playboy , but somehow i could not stop myself from getting close to him , emotionally !as we were also in d same class...he treats me like shit..now that i am trying to go away from him, i m not able to.i dont have any friend either. i stay in a single room and end up crying most of the time . i feel very demotivated because even though i have studied hard , because of grading system, there are others who are above in the merit list. i feel helpless , how do i deal with my feelings ? how can i be emotinally strong . i don feel happy in any thing i do . at times i feel like killing myself as i fail to act strong and the emotions simply overpowers me . but the love of my mom dad who even sold there property to finance me pulls me back from taking such a decision . i don know how to move ahead in life . i feel overburdened by my life and simply wants to run away from it i know this is simply being foolish . but i don know what to do , pls suggest ...... | |
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