I don't know why I'm doing this guess... Guess I want an emotional outlet. So where to beginng, well I'm a teenager first of all. I know you're probably thinking that every teenager has their depressing "stage" but I can assure you, this is not the case. Do people know that children abuse actually happen very often? I'm one victim. I don't get beaten up every day only when I "misbehave" or he gets really mad. I can guarantee you that there is more horrible children abuse going one then mine but still... But I'm not sad about that, it's that I don't get any freedom, it's so depressing and sad and patethic really. You don't know how many times I've had to turn my friends down or when we comeback after an weekend my friends describe how fun they had and I can't be apart of that? Isnt it pathetic that I get tears in my eyes every time I think about. While my friends have sleep overs and go out, I'm locked in my room while crying my eyes out. I just wish... I just wish I could get out or runaway, I really can't take it any longer. Why did it have to be me that was born into this family? why do I have to cry myself to sleep everyday ? It sometimes feels like everyone around me is happy except me. Remember when we were like little kids we would pretend to cry when sleepy to attract your mom's attention, it's funny cause now we pretend to sleep when crying silently into my bed to avoid question. I mean I know life is unfair but this is freaking ridiculous. Oh and you know what I hate? I hate that feeling when I'm about to cry and somebody asks me if anything is wrong and I try to smile but physically can't do it and eventually the effort of trying to smile for this one person has the tears spilling over. It makes me feel so defeated by life when I can't find the strength to smile in those moments. Music is my escape... More like Eminem is my escape.. I admire his strength and courage for going through that shit in his life and still be able to come home to his daughter and be the best father a girl could ask for. Respect. Be strong everybody | |
i love eminem too:p
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