I have a brother and two sisters and they have all accomplished so much in life. out the four of us I'm the only one to develop alcoholism. I struggled with it for many years. I put myself into a rehab rpogram for 8 months and now 2 years sober but nothing has improved. I am continually kicked down and stabbed in the back. I'm promised promotions that never come through. I'm consistently being told on for stuff I do not do. I've prayed to God so many times I've lost count. I've lived by his word and life is worse than ever before. I'm not a mean person. I'll bend over backwards to help people and will go out of my way to make sure I can. Anytime I give my word I keep it. Several times I've went to sleep hungry because someone esle needs the money worse than I do. I try so hard to just break even and I end up worse off than I ever was. I'm losing hope in life and God. I scream for him so many times and no answer comes to me things just fet worse and worse. I'm not naturally a mean person but i'm to the point I just want to hurt the people that hurt me so much. Why won't God give me relief? When 11 I found out my mother had cancer. At 14 she passed away. My father never truly abused me but many times he has hit me and has blamed me for lots of things. I feel like i'll never amount to anything worthwhile. I'm so tired of begging God for help to just to stay miserable. I'm truly to the point of almost hating him. I question that if he loves me so much why am I in perpetual pain. out 4 children I'm the one who has it the worse in life. I'm 30 unmarried, no children, a dead-end thankless job and no true friends. And to the point of not having faith in anything but hate and cruelty | |
"I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."
Follow Jesus and his commands and God will take care of the rest. Read the word of God (ie the bible) God speaks through his word. Read the story of Job, a man who lost everything, his children, his money and possessions, and to top it off he had boils from head to toe. He was in horrible suffering but he never once denyed God, he trusted in God instead. Eventually God took away his suffering and blessed him twice fold what he had before. If you keep trusting in God, who knows he may bless you in return! I highly suggest you read Job, but really the whole bible has something to say.
Richard Simmons? Lose weight? Who is that? Do you assume I am a rich fat cat who watchs comedian and mislead people here because I have time? Do no confuse your ideal opposition with me, I meow what I like to type.
The more you try to deny it, the more you are, Mr religious hypocrate. meowmeow for now~
Ps. I clearly wrote "Im not into hypocritical religious zealousness". I never wrote anything on here otherwise pertaining to the subject so for you to call me one of the posters on here shows your lack of reading comprehension.
No one is gonna do this for you !
I and my family are nearly on the street but we are doing our best to push on through with our life. I still work on getting friends and maintaining tbe ones i already have. I still help people out but not to the point where you go homeless or haven't eaten for days! The pointis to help people not kill yourself.
And meow the path you choose to live may seem unsavoyry to many but it is your choice and to everyone else the same choose how you live, religion or race.
Make sure it has at least some set of morales. If not that is always your choice but try!
GrandMasterAssassin signing off!
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