LIFE SUCKS

Alone in greece..

I am 25 years old,obese and never was good with people.
I spent my last 6 years with a dysfunctional girl who was always jealous and controlling and cheated on me a few times as well.Why i did it?I loved her and i did not love myself.Still do love her but i can't take it anymore.

I had a few friends over the years but eventually everyone let me down..
Friends who dissapeared on you for no apparent reason.Betrayed you.

Now at my 25 years old i am:
Obese(although i am working on that at least since my appetite is non existent anymore)
Single and unable to find a girl due to a severe lack of social skills and bad appearance.(although they tell me thats not an issue,who knows..maybe it has to do with my confidence)
Alone since all my friends are far away and the ones i had here didn't amount to much eventually.
Unemployed since my work couldn't hold out due to the crisis.
My mother fights cancer for the third time in her life and i have no father or siblings.
We owe money to banks and some individuals because our work bunkrupted.
And to top it all of i got a crush for a girl who sees me as a friend(if she sees me as a friend at all)

I'm trying to be strong..if i had a girlfriend i could be strong and face all the problems.But its so difficult to do it all alone..

If anyone from greece wants to talk i'd be glad to.This is an e-mail i use some times.Rarely so i don't really care if there is any spam.
Solar-angelo@hotmail.com