Life can be either good or bad or somewhere in between and the pure dumb luck of it all shouldn't be a surprise to anybody. People are mostly slaves to their nature and environment. We do have free choice but not free will. It is truly sad, but we as individuals control very little. We essentially accomplish minimal achievements that either seem significant, or not, dependent upon whether the outcomes affect our inner world i.e. our emotions.
Happiness is largely dependent upon genetics and then it is largely based on the situations a person finds their self in. A person genetically predisposed to depression, given the right circumstances, can be isolated from the trauma of their nature. I have found that when distracted with money or friends or a girlfriend I am at peace and think life “does not suck.” however, when those things are removed I spin out of control into an abyss of suicidal depression. I could do things to address these desires I have, but what if I fail, and I often do given the fact I am far from spectacular in God given talent. And I do try, but the struggle is akin to treading water for a cat. My temperament and nature is such that I don’t enjoy treading water. And so I tend to give up and drown. My desires naturally go unfulfilled and the downward spiral into the abyss becomes a LIVING HELL. The tough reality is that for most of us who are extremely depressed, our desires are not in proportion to our abilities to have them fulfilled. We are simply out of balance. I have observed some people that are perfectly happy without money or a significant other or friends etc. However, if you are a person that is absolutely consumed or tortured by unfulfilled desires, you had better hope you have the means to achieve or find yourself in a situation to have them met.
I have tried meds and therapy and the whole boot strap method and spirituality etc, but unfortunately I remain mostly the same. Nothing really changes above your neck line. Look at your leg or arm sometime or even your face. I imagine it never radically changes, nor does your brain. So with that said, you must realize why you are unhappy and try and have that external area of your life changed. If you can’t you are destined to be miserable. You can’t lie to yourself but I’ve seen a whole industry based upon it. You and me are all trapped within our own little personal prisons called our minds. You had better wake up and realize how to furnish your prison cell with the crap you want, because there is no getting out of it. You are a prisoner to your own inner psyche. For me the “crap” is friends and a girlfriend, and for others it’s a yacht. I won’t judge. Mental illness, sadness, depression, etc makes us human I guess.
So here is my suggestion to all. Do whatever you must, without hurting others, to get your little prison cell furnished with whatever crap you want. Many people don’t realize how this truly defines your whole outlook on everything. And unfortunately if you can’t get your strongest desires met…you are screwed. You will live a quiet life of desperation. Join the club. It is pretty plain and simple. Some think they are blessed and some think they lack everything of importance. Both positions are 100% correct to the individual who states them. Happiness is not quantitative. it is merely subjective.
I have went with my desires largely unfulfilled most of my life. It has lead to breakdowns where I’ve attempted suicide. People will judge and have judged me based on this, but there is someone out there who just happens to be in a well suited distracted life. They have their desires filled, but when the rug is removed they are completely lost. They realize just how good they had it and now suffer my same fate because they realize just how out of balance they truly were. Remove a few externals and the whole internal peace that seemed impenetrable, comes crashing down.
There are some who can whistle a tune in a concentration camp. These people have a temperament where almost nothing gets them down. But for the majority of us, we all have our breaking points. Many people truly never realize just how overpowering their innate desires are, because they never experience a period where they are without. Their ability to achieve and their desire to achieve will prevent them from ever realizing how detrimental unfulfilled desires can be to a person‘s mental health. | |
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