My life sucks so much. Nothing ever seem to go right. Like luck working against me at every opportunity. Childhood was crap. Never allowed to hang out so never developed any social skills so now socially awkward in any given situation. ITs hindering me soo bad. Tried my hardest at school but due to one stupid exam, it has dictated my life in such a bad way. Originally was going to be a biochemist but due to one sh** test it all went wrong. Ended up chaging careers and went ot university. Turns out to be a waste of time. Got the grades but it was the most hellish time of my life. The people around me were toal D***s. Stole things that didnt belong to them, and many others which I cant be bothered mentioning. Now cant get a damn job anywhere cos no experience. How the F*** do I get experience without having prior experience. Simples you would think but every avenue just dies. Tried giving work away for free but even then tis not good enough. Never had a job cos I dont no how to deal with people so positive attitude have dwindles. These days if you can polish a turd you're in. never mind those who if given one chance to shine, they can do it. Im so sick of life at the moment. One big long road of disasters over and over. Having even been in a relationship yet. Im 24. Freak right. Everyone goes on about it. Just cos their life worked out great, they decide to trod on someone down. Loved a girl back in school but never had the courage to ask her out. It broke me. I sometimes wonder if she ever knew I loved her. Gave her alot except asking her out. It hurts to even see her with another guy. We are no longer in contact so thats the end of that. Now every day Im trying to find something positive to do in this hell hole to pick myself up. Its been difficult. Sometimes I just stare at the sky for hours because nothing is worth it. Thought about ending it a few times. Came close but decided why should the world win over me. Every night I work into the early hours because wakign up during the day is not worth it anymore. I jsut want one break. One break to turn it all around. Not one person is willing to give me a chance. I want to scream at the world. Why should I lose. I dont deserve it. Dont even have any friends as they move on like they do. No one ever stays in touch. After all them years of helping them out. Did alot for them all and what is my reward. Despair and the lonely road until the end. Got some people complaining how they got a pay cut. Well try consider those who cant even break into work to get money. Whats the point in fricking university if at the end it leaves you worse off both financially and emotionally. A massive Bitchslap to the face. I will never stoop low enough for crime. I rather die. Makes me sick a bunch of pricks who riots then boasts about it then because they aint caught, probably go back to their jobs. Stupid bankers who f***s everytihng up and still making s***loads of money then goes int he news because they r turning down a bonus. Big f****** applause to them. How about their pay package which is enough to cover it. Sooooo sick of life as you can see. Anyone who wants to join in about how crap it is feel free. I have all the itme in the goddamn world. I dont even go out or stay in touch no more because if I see people, you dont know how much I resent them when they blabber on about crap that is not even relevant. | |
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God uses the weak, the powerless, the hurt, the poor, and the lonely in GREAT ways. Heres a illustration: A potter will take a helpless, lifeless lump of clay and then knead it and squeeze it until it's soft and pliable. And then when he gets it just right, he takes that piece of clay and he does something called throwing, where he places the clay on a spinning table.
As that clay is placed upon that turning wheel, the potter's hands then begin to pressure the clay and work it until he makes something beautiful out of that old ugly piece of clay.
God sometimes uses suffering to mold us, to make us turn to him, to convict us of sin, he has his reasons. Also understand that we live in a sinful broken world, our hope shouldn't be in this world but in Jesus and heaven. Without Jesus we will never be satisfied in this life. Life on earth compared to eternity is like the blink of an eye.
God is the true master craftsman. He is a potter who is making something beautiful out of every life. He will take the old ugly mistakes, hardships and sins and make them into something completely new!
When you truly know God, you can live victoriously! So whatever the ugliness is in your life, be assured that through the blood of Christ, God molds you and makes you into something beautiful! Many people can testify to how God has changed them. Ive never heard of anyone regretting putting their faith in jesus.
Are you saved? God can turn the worst of situations into good! Joeseph was left for dead and put into slavery by his brothers, he was abandonded, afraid, probably thought his life was over. But he trusted God, he then eventually became second in command of Egypt. Without looking into the future it can be hard to be optimistic. If you put your faith with jesus he wont abandon you, he will love you and give you a new life. All you have to do is accept jesus as your lord and savior and ask for forgiveness of your sin, he will wash away all your sin (everyone has sin, i'm not judging you by what I say).
Jesus knows your pain, because he went through all the different pains possible when he was tortured and then nailed to a cross. He layed down his life for me and you, so that we can have eternal life in heaven. All we have to do is accept him as our lord and savior and ask for forgiveness for our sin. Jesus loves you with love that cant be compared, he loves you so much that he died for you. He can change you. He changes people every single day. You can say that one of his job descriptions is "Life Changer". He knows your trouble, he cares for you, and he wants you to know him. He will comfort us when there seems to be no comfort available. He is our friend when everyone else seems to not care, he provides for us when we are without, and he gives us strength when we are weak. He washes away all our sin when we have lived sinfilled lives. He is offering the gift of everlasting life in heaven free of charge, its your choice whether you accept his offer
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