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Holy fucking shit

Posted by anonymous at February 29, 2012
Tags: Environment  2012 February

It wasn't enough that I had to grow up in the worst fucking era of the world, try the Soviet Union; Ukraine to be exact. In a small decrepit village so close to Russia you can hear the artillery in the backdrop and the marching of soldiers in their boots.

It wasn't enough that my brother and I risked dying of dehydration, starvation almost every day from our youth to our late teens. It wasn't enough to beat, steal, lie & cheat everything and from everyone just to get by.

It wasn't enough to get my teeth bashed in by the butt of a rifle just because I gave a "Peacekeeper" a smirk after he said something (this was by the way the only way I could communicate. I didn't learn how to read or write until I was almost 8 years old). It wasn't enough that I had the same pair of fucking clothes for almost a decade.

It wasn't enough was it? I finally get the fuck out of the worst place in the world, with a smile on my face for once. I try to start over, with someone who shares the same ideals, the same strengths, and weaknessess here in the North. I do everything in my power to give them a good life here.

I work, I clean, I love, I cry, I fail, I succeed. All of these things were just a simple prelude to this.

It wasn't enough to lose my job in hopes of getting a better job, it wasn't enough that the job was so fucking easy but they let me go on an error by their company. It wasn't enough that this area has no fucking jobs in walking distance or reasonable driving distance.

It wasn't enough to give our apartment management every last bit of money to keep our apartment. It wasn't enough to apply for a cheaper apartment, but to get cold calls when you try to contact them on the status.

It wasn't enough to have a fucking eviction notice posted on my door even after paying.. It wasn't enough that none of her nor my friends give a fucking shit enough to help us move anything.

It wasn't enough to in an instant lose every god damn thing I've worked for.

It wasn't enough that soon we'll be living in our car. It wasn't enough that they might repossess our car because we decided to pay for the apartment for a month over the car payments.

Now, I'm just wondering..

When will it be enough? When will I've finally had enough of it all?


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By anonymous at 06,Mar,12 20:31

After reading this.. I can't help but think, how mentally crazy strong you must be...
By anonymous at 07,Mar,12 19:49


By anonymous at 06,Mar,12 21:41

I've been thru most of what you've been thru right now I have an eviction notice, no job, no car to live in and no money...I do understand.., but speak to God he will fix it.....I PROMISE!
By anonymous at 22,Aug,12 13:38

Holy fucking shit, yes dude, speak to an invisible man up up in the sky high, and he will solve your problems. That's the beast fucking solution I have ever heard in my entire fucking life. Because then he'll just have to pray, it actually takes a lot of energy and time just to pray to summon an imaginary fucking man that's almighty and will solve all your problems. Your BEAST man! I'm sure by telling this guy that by praying to god, and sitting in your lazy ass, that all your problems will be solve! Fuck, you can even ask thy LORD to help you conquer the world. IT"S A MIRACLE, THAT GOD did!! I'm being sarcastic by the fucking way. G0d isn't real, if he is then he must be a timeless space-less mass-less supernatural being. If this is the case then he can't interact with us because we are anyimatter to him then.
By anonymous at 15,Jun,13 19:16 Fold Up

You are stupid. No fake being can solve our problems. We can. Stop hiding and do something, not pray to the Easter bunny.

By anonymous at 07,Mar,12 01:01

holy fucking shit

By anonymous at 07,Mar,12 17:00

And they tell us money doesn't make happy...

By Robert at 07,Mar,12 19:49

You survived Soviet Russia.... YOU CAN SURVIVE REPO!!!

You will be OK, waiy and see xx

By anonymous at 13,Nov,12 21:49

I love this website. I feel so good after reading about you. I mean, my life really really suck -- but not as bad as yous. What can I do to help you? Maybe someday my luck can be yours and you can be just suicidal like me. It's not so bad. I hate myself more than you know, but you make me think that maybe I can someday love something -- - like a rock.

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